Psychological Harms of Pelvic Exams

There is a lack of research on the harmful psychological effects of pelvic exams.  The lack of research highlights how the harmful effects from pelvic exams have largely been ignored, or have been considered not important enough to warrant investigation.  The small amount of research that exists has mainly been conducted with the goal of addressing women’s “anxieties” with the exam, and has been done for the sole purpose of learning how to harness women’s compliance.

In spite of the lack of recognition given to the psychological harms of pelvic exams by the medical community, many of us do experience harm.  Many of the comments from women on this blog and on other sites have revealed that the psychological effects are often significant and can have a detrimental impact on our lives.  In addition, the psychological effects can be difficult to understand, clarify, and articulate.  This post is a compilation of my own and other women’s experiences of pelvic exams presented in a way that attempts to clarify an issue that warrants more attention.

Psychological Harm #1: Trauma

A woman’s first pelvic exam can be traumatizing, especially if she is unaware of the exam’s invasive nature and/or is coerced into the exam while seeing her doctor for a different reason.  In these cases the woman is unprepared and is not expecting an invasive exam to take place.  In addition, many doctors do not fully explain what the exam involves, explain the reasons for the exam, or offer the woman a choice prior to proceeding.

Here is what one woman has to say about her first pelvic exam:  It’s humiliating, degrading, and painful. The first time I had a pap smear done, I was so traumatized, I now have to take prescription Xanax to avoid having panic attacks when I get pap smears done now. And I’m only 24. How many more am I going to have to have for the rest of my life? What am I going to do when I want to have children and every doctor wants to shove his/her fingers and tools inside me? (Scared Guest)  via Women Against Stirrups – What’s your opinion on the pelvic exam/gynecology?.

Psychological Harm #2: Loss of Control

I can think of no position more vulnerable and undignified than naked with legs wide apart, feet up in stirrups, and a fully clothed doctor standing over me.  Feelings of vulnerability and a loss of control in this position are intensified when I am asymptomatic and do not wish to have a pap test/pelvic exam – but have been aggressively pressured and coerced to the point where I feel I have no choice.

Here is another woman’s thoughts on loss of control and vulnerability:  I am 21 and today i went for my first smear..UGHH i freaked out, cried and had to leave with a vicodin prescription…which is pretty straaaaight. but, the point of my frustration is that I, like you, feel as though i am being violated, and sexually assaulted. I feel overly anxious due to the vulnerability of the situation . . . Its not even like ive never had sex. it is just that i have trouble being prodded and fingered by a metal prong. (Anonymous)  via Awkward Things My Mother Never Taught Me: Just How Violating a Pap Smear Really Is….

Psychological Harm #3: Dissociation

Women have been led to believe that a pelvic exam is a vital part of their health for so long that many no longer question it, or feel they have a choice.  When a woman feels she has no choice but to undergo a violently invasive exam she will often develop a sense of detachment, or numbness, in an effort to distance herself from what is happening to her own body.

Here is what Claire T. Porter has to say:  “Closely connected with the absence of self is the dispensing of existence experienced by women… Women undergoing these procedures report a sense of nonbeing” (Raymond 1993, xv). I cannot help feeling that my body, especially the most private areas of it, has been taken away from me. This surgeon and the horny resident both assess my pubic area. Now the vision of my genitals is held in their brains. I feel I possess my sex less and less and feel them both smug in the fact that they own it. What a power trip for them. Bastards.  via Women Against Stirrups – I’m Taking Back My Pussy!.

Psychological Harm #4: Invalidation

The value women place on the privacy of their vagina is in no way reflected by many practitioners’ attitudes.  There is an expectation that we are supposed to be fine with this type of exam.  Yet have we not always been taught to keep our legs together, sit with our legs crossed, and to not let strangers touch us?  The role we are expected to assume during day to day life versus the role we are expected to adopt during a pelvic exam are vastly different.  How a pelvic exam feels and how we are told it is supposed to feel presents a gap of huge proportions.  The lack of acknowledgment for how we feel confuses us, belittles us, and invalidates us. We lose a sense of stability, trust, and safety.

Chrissy (UK) says: This all goes with the ‘get used to it, you’re a woman’ attitude, or ‘I’m a doctor and therefore entitled to see and touch your body’. I don’t know what they are taught when they are medical students, but there is no way they understand what it is like for a woman to be exposed and spreadeagled on an examination table whist they rummage around in the most intimate part of our body. I still remember my first pelvic examination. I was 17 and the (male) doctor forced my knees apart, as I wouldn’t comply with his verbal instructions to spread my legs. I felt violated – I WAS violated . . .  October 2, 2012 at 12:43 pm

Psychological Harm #5: Dehumanization

All women have a right to privacy and dignity, except of course when they are in the presence of a doctor.  The name assigned to the “pelvic” exam is carefully nonsexual and yet what takes place during the exam is something more intimate than most women would allow a spouse or lover to do.  It is cruel to expect women to ever become used to this type of extreme exposure, and it is inaccurate to assume women will become desensitized over time.  To expect women to get used to the exam is cruel and dehumanizing.

Yazzmyne says: . . . I also believe that these gyn exams are rape even when a woman consents to it. She may verbally and rationally agree to it, but her body screams NO and most women do not listen or respect their own bodily feelings in this context. With all the fear mongering about cancer and the fear for the exam itself, she can’t even make a rational decision (and not that it has to be a rational one, because rationality is used to justify the whole ordeal and rationalize her feelings of violation away) because the mind is locked in fear and can’t think clear anymore and this is exactly what doctors want. There are so many benefits for them to keep using the medieval pelvic exam:

to satisfy their sexual lusts
for the powertrip
for the money
and the fear this exam generates in women also keeps them traumatized, in fear, unable to think CRITICAL about the so called need for them   October 10, 2012 at 5:04 pm

Psychological Harm #6: Distrust

A lasting, pervasive sense of distrust is likely to form when one is violated by someone in a position of trust.  The distrust that results from negative experiences during pelvic exams can present a lasting barrier to a woman’s access to health services.  Women who are traumatized by their physician’s practices related to pelvic exams are far less likely to trust the medical system as a whole.

FerretGirl01 says: I have a terrible fear of the OB/GYN mainly because my very first pelvic exam was so traumatic. I was a virgin and it hurt so much that I cried. And even after I told the doctor to stop, she kept trying to collect the sample after telling me she would stop any time. I felt violated…scared…and I hurt so bad I had to take pain relievers. I was bleeding when I got home and discovered my “cherry” had been popped because the doctor was too rough and rushed with the exam. That made me terrified of ever getting one again . . . via Fear of Gynecological Exam – Women’s Health – MedHelp.

Psychological Harm #7: Fear

There are all kinds of fears that go along with this exam.  There is fear of the consequences of refusing, fear of the consequences of complying, and fear of the consequences of speaking out.

Anonymous says:  I’m 22 and I haven’t been to the gyno! Every time I even think about it I get so freaked out and sick. I’m not scared of being in pain – I’m scared of personal intrusion, of being on my back and not having control. Every time I think about it, it makes me feel like it would be some kind of assault, because I really **don’t want** it to happen, and going would just be me trying to get over my fears and knowing that it’s something I need to do. I’m terrified of anyone touching me when I know that I’m forcing myself to let them and that I feel so insecure and invaded. I haven’t been sexually abused . . . But I’m just SO.TERRIFIED. via extreme exam anxiety.

AVEN Member says: Doctors are always pressuring their patients to get it done, and instilling fear of cancer to those who refuse. I think they insist more on a pelvic exam than they do on quitting smoking. Yes, I am doing the ‘unspeakable’ and questioning doctors . . .  I think the procedure is inhumane. If you think I just need to suck it up, please listen. This is ranting towards people like that. People that think women just need to “suck it up” or “get over it”.  Rant on Pelvic Exams – Asexual Visibility and Education Network.

Psychological Harm #8: Despair

When women repeatedly have their way of understanding the world ignored it can lead to feelings of despair.  When their understanding of what is occurring is discounted and invalidated; when their fears, trauma, and other experiences are ignored, then their place in the world and sense of self can shift.  Women are often left with pervasive feelings of hopelessness and despair.

Anonymous says:  I got my first pap smear yesterday. I’m not a big crying type, but I cried like a baby. It was the most traumatizing experience of my life. I’m 18 and I’ve only had one partner for the year I’ve been sexually active . . . The metal “spectrum” upset me and that was bad enough. But the worst part for me, that has left me horrified and with nightmares, is what came next. Nobody told me going into this that the doctor was going to shove her hand all the way up to basically my stomach. EXCUSE ME?! Why does nobody see this as completely violating!! I cried so hard. Today being the day after, I keep reliving it and I don’t want anyone to touch me and I just feel disgusted . . . I should not be subjected to this, especially at my age I don’t think. Not to mention that I was pretty much forced to get one if I wanted birth control. That just seems wrong to me. I try to be save and prevent a child at this time and my life and what am I forced to do? Be humiliated, violated, and traumatized.   via Awkward Things My Mother Never Taught Me: Just How Violating a Pap Smear Really Is….

Elizabeth says:  On one blog a young woman was so stressed about pap tests she wanted to be knocked out…it’s shocking, she should be told to forget about it and enjoy her life – this testing has robbed so many women from the pleasure of being healthy, young and female and often takes our peace of mind, bodily privacy and dignity, damages our health and lives, destroys relationships and takes the shine off sex, especially after traumatic “treatments” and when women are unable to access the Pill without forced testing…and at age 30 if she’s worried about cc, she could test herself for HPV, but that would be too easy and make too much sense…actually doing what’s best for her, she’ll probably end up being sedated for a pap test…so depressing.

In conclusion I would like to say that if you find you have “anxieties” regarding pelvic exams you can take heart because, as you can see, your concerns are valid.   On a brighter note, more women are becoming aware that they have the right to informed consent for screening.  In addition there are now alternative ways to test for cervical cancer, such as home HPV self test kits:



  1. It makes me wonder how many women are out there carrying trauma from a forced pap test, pelvic or breast exam. It’s ALL so unnecessary, it’s unhelpful and exposes us to risk.
    It’s beyond bad medicine. Even if it was some time ago, I’d still make a formal complaint, let the doctor know YOU know what that exam was all about and/or how it impacted on your life.
    So often the doctor gets away with basically assaulting a woman…if it’s not clinically required, it cannot be justified. Even if it’s clinically required (and screening can NEVER be clinically required) they still need your consent.
    We’re seeing a lot of historical alleged sexual assaults being investigated at the moment by Operation YewTree and others, here we’re having a Royal Commission into child sex abuse by religious and other institutions. Doctors so often escape close scrutiny, a bit like pap testing…but there is no difference between a predator who happens to use his teaching or religious role to take advantage or a doctor, in many cases it’s worse, because IMO, doctors have a unique duty of care, we may be especially vulnerable in that relationship/setting.

    • This is so true. Making smear tests and breast exams the mainstay of every woman’s appointment with her GP must make many doctors get blasé about it and lose sight of where the clinical need (if there ever was one) ends and the abuse starts. What Jo’s Trust calls making the procedure so commonplace that it will be normalised into a woman’s daily lifestyle, so she won’t begin to question it. Last year when I went to my now ex-GP about my post-menopausal bleeding, which turned out to be womb cancer, I started the consultation by explaining the unusual spotting and bleeds that I had had. As if not listening at all, she turned round and asked me if I would like a breast exam. She may have seen a pop-up message on the screen to say I’d turned down mammograms, or she may have just fancied a quick grope, I don’t know. But I gave her a very emphatic NO! I then told her I thought she was a no-good doctor, and there was some argument about some previous diagnoses of hers. She then stopped the argument and getting back to the subject of my visit, asked me to decide whether to go ahead with the pelvic exam or go home. I had to go through with this, but refused the speculum saying it would cause me too much pain. I got a hospital referral after this even though she said she couldn’t find anything wrong, but it did turn out to be endometrial cancer.
      After this I wrote a letter of complaint to the practice requesting to be put on the list of another GP, which has happened, but my letter detailing the reasons for me wanting to change and my bad experiences with my former GP has never been replied to. In view of the fact my spotting turned out to be cancer, I think the least the practice could do is reply to me.
      There seems to be a medical school of thought that the more women’s vaginas and breasts are exposed, probed and fingered, the more women will accept this process as normal like getting a hair cut, and thus the more cancers will be found. It has definitely had the opposite effect on me and doesn’t seem to have made much impact on cancer deaths anyway.

    • I refuse to have pap smears. Yesterday I went to my doctor and she asked me if I wanted a smear. The purpose of the visit was to get the doctor to complete some forms for me regarding financial compensation for medical injury. I said no, she just laughed and said, “I am going to keep asking you until you say “yes,” The surgery knows that I do not want pap smears but they ignore my request all the same. When I was younger I used to have pap smears and found it humiliating. I would get nurses who would say things like ” Oh, you don’t have sex very often, do you.” When I had my first pap smear, the nurse said, “just pretend that you are having sex,” I am tired of this tardy behaviour and do not place a lot of trust in the health system. What puzzles me is that I am constantly being bullied to have a smear despite the legislation being outlined in the Health and Disability Services Act which states that a patient “has the right to refuse treatment.”

      • Hi Kelly
        It’s not even “treatment” it’s an elective screening test that requires informed consent, it’s just that the system decided to treat it as mandatory from the start in the hope of getting as many women on board as possible. The program must get about 80% of women screened every 5 years to “work”…that’s because they’re trying to find a few needles in a massive haystack. It was never an appropriate population screening test…and of course, they’ve always ignored the harm that flows from this test.
        I’m 58 and have never had a pap test, never will…but I look around me and MOST women my age have had something done to their cervix, it’s culpable, so much damage…and the cancer itself has always been rare! So it’s not cancer causing this damage, it’s a screening program that has never followed the evidence and respected a woman’s right to say NO

        Good for you, those comments are inappropriate, IMO, yet another example of the lack of respect the medical profession has for women. It’s disgraceful that your NO to pap testing hasn’t been accepted and they just keep chipping away at you. I’d be inclined (if you want to stay with that doctor) to send her a note requesting that the “offer” of a pap test stops, you’ve made an informed decision and do not wish to discuss the matter further or waste valuable consult time. You could add that you understand informed consent is a legal and ethical requirement for the testing.

      • Thank you, Elizabeth for pointing out that the smears are “elective tests,” and describing the manipulation around getting women to comply with this Orwellian program. I also appreciate your suggestions on how to deal with my doctor because she has tried to over-ride my decisions in other matters too. It is an endless fight to the end for people to maintain their autonomy these days. It is great to have some support and good advice.

      • First, Alex. What you said on 7/7 re sexual gratification fits plain and perfect. It’s plain, pragmatic and shouts the truth. It’s how Alex relates the term “reality” to the exams and procedures. Every situation, even those found in male/female prisons, the sexual attractions, arousals, reactions, DO happen. Reality does not take a break from…reality! Just bc doctors & nurses have all the training, he/she can and will get aroused and many act upon it. With or without patient consent. [try justifying and obtaining full informed consent]
        Even if the action is a sarcastic smirk, We’ve noticed this is the first thing; the most revealing thing male doctors do. This reflects their disdain in how they view the uneducated ignoramus’ around them. Women are much better at hiding this. Lesbians not so much however. Their urge to “care” while blocking men away tends to boil over at these points.
        Then in all the craziness, doctors expect patients and their loved ones to always be compliant and never to suspect nor dare ever to complain. It’s ok to quietly cry; then take it home and vent on our husbands though.
        Staff will quickly usher a husband away but with even more speed ask him back so they can claim he’s “needed” when she’s become unconsolable. Shit flows downhill. Doctors often treat their nurses and wives (how many have only one!-ha) the same way they treat us. Unless there’s a major offense, the state never intervenes until the complaint stack tips over and can no longer be ignored. At that point, the doctor’s own marriage is likely dissolved.
        The former San Diego Chargers team doctor is a good example showing their fall from grace.
        These problems germinate in high school. Imagine the future md either bullying or being bullied. Come med school bad habits escalate. Professor doctors manipulate and demean student docs. Competition between students is encouraged as ethics are blurred. Like how exams are done on unconscious patients. Who’s gonna complain? It’s always necessary to evaluate nice boob jobs; or how to tell a good vs bad waxing (infection dangers un-huh). Nurses just as bad.
        Recently a college teaching ultrasound in FL was unsuccessfully sued when profs forced students into the stirrups as volunteer participants in TVA’s. Bad grades given if they refused too. This insanity carries over into their professional lives. No surprises there. Remember my husband.
        During his hernia pre-op four female RN’s helped themselves. One in particular gave him a handjob while the another dropped the applicator that paints antiseptic gel 3x! While she joked about the 3-second rule. He flipped them off before getting to point of “no return.” Then he woke up in recovery… Is it any wonder that there’s so many doctor drug addicts? While others are punished these are often treated with pity.
        Then one day these medicine practicing psychos are cut loose. They are pissed at having $500,000 student loans. Suddenly what they knew before, that 40% of patients don’t pay, high taxes, high stress, it’s all regarded as being unfair.
        Yet the free parking, free lunch, being treated as god so long wearing a tie plus lab coat gives them a very warped sense of entitlement.
        Which extends to how they “practice” on us. Now sexual gratification occurs through exams which “must be done,” per “ruling a potentially seriously life threatening blah-bhah out through a simple quick but slightly uncomfortable for a few seconds exam; that I perform w/o anyone present that might cause a distraction…” And the joking, as written above, about assaulting women during exams becomes norm. As if it really lessens or changes what just happened.
        Warped humor one might see in a Nazi documentary.
        I can’t write the reply in my mind follows suit.
        Of course, we all know the pelvic was invented by Nazi’s…
        Regarding these idiots, we have made progress. People flock to these sites. I’d like to know how many readers are doctors and nurses. Afraid to speak their minds. Are they feeling guilt? Or just not wanting to engage us bc they know it’s a debate they cannot factually win. Hopefully success and exposure here will, like an advocating truth serum, spread to the pro-doctor/hospital baby delivery sites. Those are the last censored, biased brainwashing sites which espouse the policy sewage we’re trying to flush away.
        We need to continue THEIR educations.
        RE Lubrications. We have found the brand “Sliquid” to be pretty good. They have an organic line, plus a line with premium silicons if one wants those. We like the Natural Gel. Also heard egg whites are good, especially if trying to conceive. God Bless everybody. Pray for healing.
        We are sorry; wish we could hug everybody who’s been reduced to tears…

      • There is good news. Take a look at, I think, last weekend’s The Sydney Morning Herald. There was a story re a very young twenty-something’s CC and breast cancer. She urged women to refuse to follow their doctor’s advice NOT to have pap’s; and would continue demanding them. Never too young to have cancer…
        That’s how the warped story began. There was no established connection between her CC and breast cancers. If she really had CC. It was 99% hype, 1/2% fact, and 1/2% reality-based reporting. Many have written letters in response.
        I have written at least five. The first was passionate, angry, but factual. The second onward reflected more facts, reality, but much less emotions. None were printed. As I expected. Why do it? Editors must feel pressure. They will come to realize we will only use their paper for wrapping fish, and not spend a dime on it when we want real news.
        It was refreshing, rewarding, when a Pathologist voiced his opinions. DATED 9/27
        “This is written by a poorly informed patient.” What he followed with validated everything we’ve been writing, screaming, saying every chance we’ve had. “The writer says she had precancer which is very different to real cancer. She had dysplasia which is very common and in the vast majority of cases resolves. Most CIN1 and CIN2 resolves without treatment. Even CIN3 does most of the time. Cervical cancer is an old woman’s disease because it does usually take 10yrs to develop. On the other hand dysplasia in young women is very common. The ratio of CC for a woman in her early 20’s is 1.6 per 100,000 cases. The highest rate is in women over 85.
        Leave the advice to the experts. Too many young women were having surgery on “precancers” that would have spontaneously reverted to normal. They then developed an incompetent cervix and had miscarriages. The new guidelines were correct.”
        My apologies to all if I transcribed any of this in an unintended erroneous fashion.
        We are getting through. Thankfully though, and although I don’t know how, I’m very grateful to those MD’s, even anonymously who come forward and speak the truth.
        Notice what he says. Although as we know it’s the young attractive women who get all the attention he notes CC is an old woman’s disease.
        What is the cause? Lack of hormones where some cells cannot shut off; comparable in sorts to lichen sclerosis? Where’s the research? Should these women receive HPV tests? Or is the cause from within due to cell changes that cannot be detected with pap?!
        I want to know. If anybody succeeds in posting, please forward our inquiry.
        Very chilling, saddening, to think of all the maimed women.
        Makes me grateful for my husband who time again has been courageous in saying NO when I couldn’t–even if I knew I should’ve I couldn’t.
        Many of us must overcome early lifetime male figure bullying or being told to blindly obey authorities. Keep on fighting.

      • Exactly. I find it so bizarre that they would say something so demeaning and hugely inappropriate. What on earth is wrong with them?? I do find that there is a small subset of the medical profession who like to associate anything to do with “womanhood” with sex – smears, pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding. You see it reflected in some “awareness” campaigns which aims to show attractive, glamorous, trendy young women going for their smears or campaigns encouraging more women to breastfeed because “men favour it”.

        It is grossly inappropriate. What is wrong with these people? They see these things as a “must” for women because they try to argue that as women, we are supposed to suffer, just suck it up and refuse to question anything because y’know, we’re just women, we don’t answer back – unless it is any other area if public life of course. Talk about a dichtomy.

        I recommend writing a very strongly worded letter threatening legal action! These idiots need to be told the meaning of informed consent!

  2. I doubt there will be any response to your letter. Responding means they agree by recognizing the necessity to respond. this respond response to a post i made. catmouse seems very insensitive to my gyn phobia, i don’t have anything wrong, so don’t know what she is taking about when she said . My prayers for your recovery, and that it didn’t spread. it seems she responded without really reading the post.

    i have suffered with what i believe is dysporina ( tight vigna). i have not been able to get a diganosis , because i can’t have an exam.
    Iits bad to suffer for yrs, but than be told no one will respon to you is in sensitive.
    i have been denied intimacy, treated rudely by medical people.
    i am just going to move on and no trauamaize myself with another exam attempt.
    i have suffered for long enough.

    i hop at some point the gyn community will realize how they trauamaize women!

  3. Diane, I am so sorry. I didn’t mean to be insensitve. I’m trying to track down your original letter and my response. I truly felt you had a disease-type etiology (like life threatening) hence my prayers response. What I remember is reading “vaginitis” and what I think you’re talking about is “vaginismus,” which I believe is closer to what you’re talking about. Quite a difference medically speaking. Personally, I relate to you. I cannot tolerate the “usual” speculum. Thank God for my husband again. While I’m still in the process in doctors office of taking care of myself, he readily sticks up for me. He requested, or told them, that they’ll use a pediatric speculum instead.

    Check the size differences; there’s three of them made. Can’t wait to read your reactions as mine were unprintable. If you tense up or cannot tolerate the spreading, and can’t perform for them, then you’re automatically rated by them, as I was, as possibly molested. Tell me, whether or not that happened, do we really need that bs stamp? Without ob-gyns being trained as shrinks; they fall back on that for a bona-fide diagnosis? Because our natural reaction can’t be turned off?

    My first exam was horrible, and I’ll never forget it-my crying during and after. No warning or I’d have run away. The discussion before hand? I suppose girls in islamic countries being maimed receive similar notification. You know why’s and what’s gonna occur, but in no way can you imagine how, what, the pain, terror, or afterwards. And yes, the trauma is a pain that keeps on taking.

    Did some research. Regardless of the “why,” some women must be anesthesized prior to any kind of gyn exam. Don’t expect your team, if this is what you require to get through this, to be all-female, as the bs of the medical community recognizes them all being “professional,” and need I go on? I wouldn’t be surprised if doctors ask/require you to be seen by psychiatrists to “explore” why you won’t allow them to violate you.

    All I can say is the sacrifices we make having babies. ANY of that bs I’ve heard about taking the pain, sacrificing my privacies, doing whatever they want to put me through, just so I can have a healthy baby? Where are all those do-gooders when a marriage sours right afterward thanks to what pandora’s box is opened on an otherwise healthy husband-wife relationship after one of these “experiences” having a baby? I cannot count how many women have written letters around subject matter like this. How they hated exams before; and then they get pregnant or want a family. And men/husbands? Those who really care and voice it aren’t much different than you are. My husband for one.

    Worse yet, it’s impossible for women to stand up to doctors/nurses during labor/delivery because oxytocin rules our minds. We are chemically set to take whatever crap dished out and hurriedly make peace. Then pregnancy #2 happens, if our marriage goes that far.

    Stand up for yourself, and don’t give in. Whatever/whomever you have in support, bring all that to bear in your favor. If you require meds, and the chaperone of your choice, including you telling them the plastic pediatric speculum will be warmed and lubed, so be it. They work for you, be it in tax dollars or private insurance. For whatever the reason. You have this life cross to bear; that a gyn exam is something your body and mind knows better than to comply with; only our stupid society with its arbitrary laws doesn’t have room for you. Nurses who in public demand respect for women treat you like trash. You are special. A special person who might teach them something about or remind them about the caring they are supposed to and mandated to provide. I’m sorry for adding to your terror. Maybe this info will help you. Otherwise, if there’s anything I can do, I will. Don’t hesitate to ask. And again, my prayers and love.

    • thanks for your reply. i don’t have any support. i can ask someone from church from for a ride if a dr would sedate for an exam, of which none will do.
      i have taken a 1 mg of ativan before an exam , does nothing! i have asked for the pediatric speculum. they tell me they are using the smallest one, speculums freak me out! my first exam was bad too. i had abuse before that didn’t tell anyone.
      i will see what happens today. i wish my apt was in the am, hate ds offics worse in late afternoon,
      its hard to stand up people in drs offices, its an asembly line.

      if i am not comfortable today i will leave.
      i tried o make endro apt, i had to cancel it and when i called back the bitch on the phone said i can’t see any of the drs there, i am calling back i want to speak to a supervisor and see their policy in writing.

      i can’t prove it but i feel i am black listed by drs because of my dr anxiety. maybe its florida but
      i can’t believe there are so many rude office staff. i am poliete, though anxious.
      i can’t stand the whole medical system. i am glad i don’t have to go very much.

      i will let you know what happens today, just want it over with, have all my papers done , i hope.
      it seems they always forget one.

      this is it, if i get no results today i am done, not putting self through this anymore.

      i so agree we need to stand for self ourselves when it comes to medical care.

      i did write a dr a letter about myissue with his staff, but she was so verally abusive.


      • I’m grateful to have the chance to help. The metal speculums I’ve seen all come in one size. I hate them most b/c they are always cold and I don’t care for them visually either. The plastic speculums are cheap at med supply. The pediatric size has white plastic, adult light green, and the huge one blue.

        Re Ativan. This is important. Is it generic? If so, some are useless. By that I mean very little effect. The brand works quite effectively and sedates me. I’m disabled and use a lot of meds. I’ve found that generics, almost across the board, are 50-75% effective at best, across the board. An antibiotic may work, but it upsets the stomach or causes itching where the brand doesn’t. This is especially true for narcotics, muscle relaxants, tranquilizers. If I cannot get brand Ativan, I request Watson brand Lorazepam. That’s the only generic I’ve tried that does anything. Sometimes Xanax works better too. Again though, if generic be careful.

        The generics coming out of India are TERRIBLE. Red China equally as bad. I try, if no other choice, to use a generic made by the same company that makes the brand drug. And here, Qualitest and Apotex make JUNK; sometimes dressed in bright capsules to make it look powerful.

        To get a doctor to write for brand here’s what you do. Obviously the generic was useless. Call the doctor and have the Rx written, with the box checked that says “do not substitute” and also initialed. Your insurance carrier may deny still. In that case, the doctor’s staff fills out a Prior Authorization. It lists what you tried in the past, and how well it did or didn’t work, any other alternatives if necessary, and that due to these things and that this is the best med (short acting vs long acting) the doctor feels it is necessary. Usually this suffices and it’s approved.

        Pharmacies stock the cheapest **** they can sell. Oh, they say it’s all tested, the same, and works the same. Like a baker who uses the best ingredients vs a car mechanic doing it in his garage between tune-ups with ingredients he finds in dumpsters. Also, the binders and excipients used heavily influence how the product dissolves and is accepted by your body. Also, many generics, once approved, are pirated meaning the active ingredient is watered down. Companies make huge profits…

        My husband, every year, goes out of his way renewing my PA’s, and recently did an appeal so I could get a med covered which I rely. If not, I wouldn’t be here helping out. My doctor’s staff are angels too, and we reward them with goodies too.

        It may also help you to get this exam done under sedation to have an evaluation with somebody higher than a GP; whether it be a shrink or whatever is necessary. I’d see a gyn specialist who understands the condition afflicting you. To a degree, we all have it, which is why they try to have us do all the bs breathing exercises so we’ll relax, flushing our brain’s common sense down the toilet, and trust “them” as they assault us.

        If your insurance is a PPO vs an HMO that may be helpful as well. You might call the insurance office and inquire for a specialist. I hope this gets to you in time to help. Please let me know.

      • well i had the same response, no exam no help. asked for sedation again was denied.
        it wasn’t worth the anxiety it produced. causes too much ptsd.

        thanks for the support anyway.


        lad i am home going to have a drink.

  4. Sometimes doctors just don’t get it. After all, they’re so used to a clinical setting that it becomes routine to them. Also, if something does not bother YOU, it’s hard to imagine someone else being bothered by it. Case in point: I learned to swim about the same time I learned to walk. I love to swim, especially in the ocean. My husband has a phobia about water, especially ocean water or any other rough water. Someone who is not particularly bothered by gynecological exams may not understand how anyone else could feel afraid or violated. And a lot of them don’t even try to understand.

    Back in the mid-90s, I called my health provider to see what could be done about my phobia of exams. I was curtly told that no one would be willing to sedate me and that teenage girls do this, so why couldn’t I? This last September, though I had post-menopausal bleeding, and my doctor was vey, very cool about it. She sedated me, no static about my husband being with me, and all went very well. (Don’t remember a thing, which was even better!)

    Most of the trouble with medical stuff is that we’re trained to accept whatever the doctor tells us and just go along. It’s time to stop reinforcing the idea that women are,just bodies to be worked on like we’re cars or other machinery. Stand up to them, and be as much of a b as you need to until they listen.

    Good luck! *hugs*

  5. I recently had a pap smear & pelvic & breast examine by a male doctor I hadn’t had one in 15 years this doctor was so rough tried to use a large instrument to do pap test after I said I had c-section so I was really small there so he then switched to the smallest one & he examined my breast like he was kneading bread dough really rough & squeezed my nipples like he was pinching them off to check for discharge & there were 3 nurses in this small room I thought I would pass out first time seeing this doctor too it will be another 15 years before I will have this done I told my husband I am so freaked out now I am 49 years old too I don’t trust women doctors either had bad experiences with them too …I am glad I found this website knowing other women went through same ordeal and I know now I am not alone

    • i can relate, i have fear , and the drs are so rough. its an assbembly line, you are no longer a person just
      a machine being checked. i am done too. can’t take the panic it causes.

    • Debbie,

      They ARE checking for discharge from your nipples when they pinch/squeeze them. Nevermind that many women lactate slightly under ordinary circumstances, at certain times, or even something as simple as eating foods high in phytoestrogens (soy and flax are among the highest). If you DO have something of a discharge with this hard pinching, even if someone has just weaned a baby and may be partially lactating, she’s going to have a TON of tests, probably including some sort of surgical intervention for a normal occurrence.

  6. Ladies, here in the UK, and indeed many other countries in the world, routine pelvic and breast exams are not recommended. They may have been many years ago but have since proven to be ineffective. Even if you have symptoms, they’re not much help. There’s only one reason why your doctors insist on these antiquated practices – money. They are basically acting like a bunch of dodgy car mechanics who insist on poking under the hood and looking for non-existent ‘problems’ so they can charge you through the nose for it. Such a scam. You’re paying through the nose for their services and they behave as if it’s the other way around!

    • yes it a shame that medicine in the us has becom about making money. you pay tons of money , do tons of paper work, and little patient care. its an assbembly line, packing in patients to get paid by insurance.
      i am done with trying to have an exam, and the anxiety it causes.

      i am lad i don’t have to go the dr much, its too nerve racking

    • It’s not JUST about money to keep doing these useless, invasive tests. It’s about getting a sexual peek at women. It’s about exerting power over women. It’s about turning us into “cancer patients” when they can justify some sort of testing or treatment which we don’t need, and never needed. It’s damaging to people, and the ones who don’t need it make good spokeswomen as “cancer survivors” – when there never was any cancer, just treatment.

      • Beth, I agree, a young woman in the office told me yesterday her GP (a locum covering her doctor) wanted to do a “quick breast exam” when she went in for her script for the Pill. She has declined pap tests and has to listen to a lecture about that at every consult, but at 22 she knows it’s risk for no benefit. She plans to order the Pill online in the future.
        Anyway, thankfully, she challenged the doctor, he backed off straight away and said he was just trying to be thorough.
        I’ve always felt a casualness when it comes to access to the female body makes us even more vulnerable in the consult room.
        This young woman is very attractive, so I suspect he just wanted to get a little something out of the consult for himself. I wonder whether the same thoroughness would be evident with other patients, or is it only young and attractive women?
        I know older women who request routine breast exams, (the doctor should point out they are not recommended, are of no proven benefit, but can lead to excess biopsies) but a doctor suggesting or doing a routine breast exam on a young woman is concerning.
        I suggested she lodge a complaint with the surgery and the Medical Board.

        An unnecessary exam is just that, and does not mean the doctor is thorough, I’d say they’re incompetent, out-of-date or taking advantage.
        Doctors don’t do a quick check of the penis when a man wants antibiotics, yet some still feel they can do a quick breast check on a woman who wants the Pill.

      • I’ve done a lot of reading, research, and talked to lots of women. Most don’t care, can’t think for themselves, or go anyway b/c they just trust and rely on their doctor. Or they actually enjoy the exam but won’t publicly admit to it. Case in point. On another site, women readily write how much they lie to their husbands, and actually primp and look forward to being told what to do, stared at, groped, and it turns them on. Makes them feel empowered, especially if the doctor is old or if young and they make him nervous. LIke giving him an erection shifts the power of being assaulted back to them. I don’t understand.
        Most amazing is a woman, the second I’ve read about (this one I asked questions), who’ve said her female doctor masturbated her after the exam. Each said they enjoyed it. The whole exam was more invasive, slow, and they climaxed intensely . One ended up hooking up with the doctor and her husband. The other said she will return and feels flattered. Any comments?
        These women no doubt would loudly object if it were a man doing that.

      • The mention of “assembly lines” has come up quite a bit & I thought I’d mention something: There actually is a tradition in that with science. It’s not “kind of/sort of/almost,” it’s actually ingrained in the “culture” of western science. I distinctly remember hearing about how the body started getting looked at as a machine when the clock was invented.

        If you were to look into “Indigenous Knowledge, Ecology, and Evolutionary Biology” by Raymond Pierotti, it gets into that in the first chapter. “The Reenchantment of the World” by Morris Berman is another one that seems to get into the hows & history a bit (admittedly it can be a hard read in terms of vocabulary- you might want to have a dictionary handy for that one). Haven’t read all of either, but those two seem to trace history a bit.

        One more is “How It Is” by V.F. Cordova. That one gets more into depth with the workings & the styles of things than the dates & specific figures in history.

      • Absolutely. You know, control freaks are everywhere, and some say that these kind of people are naturally drawn to professions such as the police force.Yet few (present company excepted) are willing to accept the idea the medical profession could also attract unsavoury types. But it’s the perfect profession for those with a abusive nature.

    • i’m copying and pasting this comment and keeping it my wallet as a reminder. Ineffective is the key word!

    • Cat and Mouse
      Some of those accounts might be spam and there is also, a website dedicated to medical porn. I was reading an “account” and was about half way through when I realized it was porn. So there is a market for medical porn. Women are treated so poorly by the profession though, I was half way through before I became suspicious.
      Of course, there may well be women out there who enjoy these exams, like the attention etc. but far more find these exams humiliating, uncomfortable etc.

      • My cousin is a midwife, they see a woman regularly, she’s not interested in children, but enjoys the attention she receives from everyone when she’s pregnant. There are lots of problems and issues there…

  7. I am a man and i have been married With a wonderful woman for almost 30 years.She is a nurse,working in a Norwegian hospital.My wife has never in her Whole life ever been consulting a male doctor for any reason.She says that she has seen enough of whats happening With women in the hospital during examinations and she says that she never want to be one of these women.Here in Norway patients can choose their doctors and if a woman dont want a male doctor or male nurse,her wishes will be respected.My wife is very much conserned about dignity,moral and privacy.She was a Virgin when i first met her and i am the only man who has seen or touched her body.And she says that the thinking of another man,also Health care staff,shall touch her body,will make her feel sick.And she also says that she thinks male gynecologists are creepy and that there are something suspicious With them.well,this is my wife and i feel very happy for beeing married With such a wonderful woman.She also says that her body is her property and she,and only she,can decide who shall see or touch her body.And she wants respect for her Choices.

    • i agree women should be respected if they choose not to have their body examined.
      why have i suffered for yrs with an attemp to have an exam. I am done! NOT TORCHING my self any more. i am listening to my body who ha ben staying no to exams for yrs.

    • It is amazing to me that women would allow a male doctor to perform intimate exams on them. Common sense would indicate that there is MORE than medicine being practiced when a strange male examines a female’s genitals. Oddjoe’s wife shows good sense in her awareness of this basic genetic fact. Very little research has been done on the subject of male gynecology and sexuality. Here is a link that does show some look at medical studies:

  8. Well obviously woman don’t care about ovarian cancer, cysts, or HPV. Or the health of their reproductive organs. Of course it’s uncomfortable but 10 minutes of pain, and nerves, and fear is much easier than cancer. I haven’t seen a suggestion in this article about making a Pap smear any better. If you’re that afraid than don’t do it. But, if you don’t than you won’t be aware of what’s going on in your body. Doctors don’t do it to personally humiliate you and control you. They’re here for our health. I think some of you are a little too paranoid. I’m honestly shocked that some women think that doctors give pelvic exams to get a “look” at women. Wtf the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.

    • Anna. Please consider this site a “continuing education” place where you can learn new things. You like to use the word “obviously.” Obviously, why would we women want to have pain, be violated, not make decisions about our bodies w/o informed consent, endure useless tests which can spread disease, have our most precious parts hacked out leaving us unable to birth children and without adequate pain management, why, obviously, why I ask you?

      This site isn’t about making the pap better; it’s about eliminating this useless, invasive, disease-spreading, painful, stupid, doctor-entertaining test. We can find out if we have HPV by urine, blood, or self-collected mucus. All without a doctor violating our bodies. And we are aware of what’s going on in our bodies; that’s why we’re here trying to change the things we don’t like and the things that don’t work!

      Doctors chose their profession because they like money, prestige, authority, and working on other bodies. Some of them, male and female, enjoy sexually exploring us women during exams. That’s why so many of them are in prison or have lost their licenses. Doctors aren’t there as charity to the public good. Every test they perform puts more monty in their pockets.

      Anna, perhaps you could read what’s going on here before deciding what we do is stupid. Because, when you write uneducated tripe you alone are the one who appears stupid. And doctors love stupid female patients. Those patients look to doctors as perfection, and they do anything doctors want them to do. I’d like to think you are smarter than that. Time will tell.

    • Hi Anna,

      You may want to reflect on what is stirring such a vitriolic and energetic response in you. What troubles you about knowing that sometimes people abuse authority? And how is it that you are unmoved/disbelieving of the many women, myself included, who have experienced serious trauma during these exams and have had the courage to speak of it here?

      In response to your comment about being in touch with one’s body, you seem to be missing the point that all of us who are speaking out here are doing exactly that- listening when our body says “no” and feels violated.

    • Hi Anna
      I’m sure women care about ovarian cancer, but I’m not going to spend my days worrying about a fairly rare cancer or an even rarer cancer, cervical cancer.
      You might be surprised to hear that the pelvic exam and pap test are not screening tests for ovarian cancer, in fact, there is NO screening test for ovarian cancer.
      Ovarian cysts are a normal part of ovulation and only require treatment when the woman is symptomatic. I know some American doctors make out they’re a “possible” threat or “precancerous” condition and “treat” the woman, this IMO, is deceptive and highly unethical conduct. (if not more) Some of your doctors have even spoken out about this practice, stop pretending you’re saving women! I’m sure you’ve seen some of the many articles that have appeared in US papers and on TV over the last few years, warning women about the routine pelvic exam. Rest assured, this exam will harm you sooner or later.

      Routine pelvic exams are NOT recommended AT ALL, at any age, in the UK, Australia, much of Europe, NZ…why? They are not evidence based, are of poor clinical value and carry risk, even serious risk, including unnecessary surgery. It’s probably part of the reason why American women have poorer health outcomes, including 600,000 hysterectomies every year, 1 in 3 will have one by age 60, and the loss of healthy ovaries. Both of these surgeries occur at more than twice the rate of countries who don’t do this exam. (see articles by American ob-gyn, Dr Carolyn Westhoff)

      HPV – you can easily and reliably self-test for HPV, (no earlier than age 30) almost all women aged 30 and older are HPV- and cannot benefit from pap testing, biopsies or treatments. The Dutch will shortly only offer a 5 yearly pap test to the roughly 5% of women aged 30 to 60 who are HPV+
      The other 95% cannot benefit from pap testing and will simply re-test for HPV in the future, 5 or 10 years later, depending on age.
      Those under 30 are not tested under an evidence based program, see Finland and the Netherlands. Pap testing does not prevent these very rare cancers and condemns large numbers to excess biopsies and over-treatment, young women produce the most false positives of any age group. HPV testing is also, not recommended before age 30, as about 40% would test positive, almost all are transient and harmless infections that will clear in a year or two. It’s the roughly 5% who are HPV+ at age 30 or older that have a small chance of benefiting from a 5 yearly pap test. (at least until they clear the virus)

      So there IS something better than population pap testing, MUCH better, but most women will never see it. Billions is made in the States doing unnecessary pap tests, biopsies and treatments and then treating women harmed by those procedures. (damage to the cervix) These women may go on to have a premature baby, miscarriage, need a c-section or cervical cerclage…and then add the income from routine/unnecessary pelvic, rectal, recto-vaginal, TVU and breast exams that might be tacked onto a “well-woman” exam. Too much money is at stake. The healthy symptom-free female body has been turned into a commodity to be exploited by vested and other interests…and calling it “healthcare”, nothing could be further from the truth, this IMO is medical abuse.

      Hope you do some reading, there are plenty of medical journal references here, that way you can better protect your health and well-being.
      I can also, see why it may be upsetting to find/hard to believe you’ve been misled by doctors and others, put through unnecessary and invasive exams, perhaps, even procedures, biopsies or “treatments” etc.
      I can assure you the informed women on this forum know exactly what they’ve rejected, the point is: do you fully understand what you’re accepting?

    • Well, “obviously” you’re a bit naive. First of all, properties don’t change by designation. If a doctor were to poison someone with a needle, it’s still murder. This is an interface with sexual areas as a product of someone else’s decision-making, which is an attack. It also doesn’t work as advertised (high risk, low utility, and directed toward something that is massively rare to begin with). They shouldn’t be purveying things that are untrue or unsafe in the first place & it’s not someone making their own decisions if someone lied to them (deception vitiates consent), given the dynamics it’s a bit worse then a scam.

      Doing either one is bad, but both together certainly amplifies things. These people are selected, trained, and certified. Since that obviously doesn’t get filtered out & the occupational community doesn’t come down on it, it makes sense to presume that it’s something that’s endorsed. Even if they were trustable, someone’s not going to get what they’re after.

      These things are frequently imposed on women & girls, whether through coercion (forcing women into these exams for birth control, for instance), deception (usually there is not a situation of full disclosure with regard to risks, inaccuracy, or alternatives), or on occasion physical force (this would, of course, include taking liberties in someone’s sleep- as has been the case recently, and perhaps currently, in Canada & Australia).

      Another thing is that doctors might very well do these things for all the reasons you mention. That’s the dumbest thing you’ve ever heard? That the overlapping property of interfacing with sexual areas might be a reason for the doctor doing something? Really? One doctor had even given “shared decision-making” as a reason for doing exams in spite of them not being as useful as advertised! That’s not to “control” someone? Certainly sounds like they want to make their own decisions & edit someone out of what does & does not happen to them. This is self-elected penetration, but somehow that’s NOT the case?

      How about how damn-near everything medical is either useless or causes a problem, now? The allopathic tradition more or less amounts to trying to attack the body in some way that generates a benefit to it. This is antithetical, but more & more the things that come from this source are harmful in bizarre, sometimes science-fiction like, ways. The constant trend of it not doing what it’s supposed to (or doing exactly what it’s supposed to, that just isn’t announced) is a point.

      As it stands, it’s basically illegal to sue pharmaceutical companies in America- so there’s no accountability to worry about. The government, apparently, is also not allowed to negotiate prices with pharmaceutical companies- so they can charge whatever they want. Doctors themselves get financial incentives for various things, but they also get a massive part of their whole profession from this angle. There’s nothing to say that what they are taught is not designed for money or malice, or both.

    • The real problem is pushing these tests to the exclusion of any real medical problem that the woman is having. That leaves these other problems untreated for much longer – perhaps until it becomes a crisis.

      Kidney cancer is about as prevalent as cervical cancer. There is no huge screening program anywhere for kidney cancer. Why not? Perhaps, there is no evidence-based indication for any sort of population-wide screening for kidney cancer. Do you not care that you might get kidney cancer?

      Cervical Cancer is rare, and we get a lecture each and nearly every time we go to a doctor for any reason, these tests are pushed. I don’t know about you, but I don’t go to the doctor to have a high-pressure sales pitch given, and to not have the medical problem addressed. Heart disease is the #1 killer of women in the US, and most women are not urged to get an EKG every time they go to the doctor. Heck, women presenting at the emergency room of a hospital with chest pains are likely to have her mammogram history looked at – along with questions about her last pap and its results -before they look at such things as abnormal heart conditions, call for an EKG, oxygen, or recommend any sort of heart surgery or the like. As such, women are more likely to die of her first heart attack than men.

      The bimanual pelvic examination cannot feel or palpate the normal or somewhat enlarged ovaries on any but the thinnest women. By the time the ovaries can be felt or palpated during one of these exams, the cancer is seriously progressed to stage 3 or more likely stage 4 and spread. At THAT point, it’;s hardly curable or survivable by any means. The best advice to give such a woman is to get her affairs in order.

      Ovarian cysts are a normal event that happens to any woman who is ovulating. These also CANNOT be felt.

      A person has a database of over 6000 medical professionals who have been convicted of sex crimes in association with their medical duties. Some of these are sexual assault, but over the past few years it has also included a significant number of medical profes sionals who photograph their patients or the parts of their patients, and keep or distribute them through pornography channels – WITHOUT THEIR CONSENT. Really – how about if a woman ran for president, and somebody could dig up pictures of her on a porn site? It would diminish her chances of election, simply because her doctor had a tiby camera in his pen, wristwatch, or Google Glass (TM) – let alone pulls out his cell phone where the patient cannot see.

      10 minutes of discomfort is one thing. If someone has been attacked, was injured or damaged, the person has years of PTSD to deal with, along with nightmares, and flashbacks.

      The cervical cancer it detects is only found in women who are HPV+. There are less or non-invasive tests for HPV. If she is HPV-, not/no longer sexually active or confidently monogamous, she has a 0$ chance of benefitting from these exams. Since there is a high rate of false positives, and referrals for biopsies, LEAP, and hysterectomies, the risk of harm is significantly higher than the 0.68% chance that someone EVER gets CC.

      If you’re that concerned about cervical cancer, perhaps you should consider the odds of being hit by lightening (1 in 6250 (0.016%)) (NOAA), or hit by a meteorite (1 in 3200 (0.03125%) (NASA). The odds of dying of cancer in the US is 4092 (NHS) in 160 million (US census), or 0.0026825% – or other low-probability causes of death in the US during 2012.

      IMO, I’d be better off worried about such things as heart disease, or iatrogenic-caused deaths (250,000 in 320,000,000 or 0.07% (2010 Johns Hopkins) )

    • Anna I won’t bash you and say you’re stupid or naive. You have a different opinion and if you are ok w a vaginal exam then more power to you. In a way I don’t blame you and wish I could be more like you because it is MUCH easier to simply go along w what you’ve been told and be able to believe that everything is ok. For alot of us that illusion has been shattered. IMO the worst part of the whole womens healthcare debate IS the attitude that we don’t know what’s going on w our own bodies and that we need to be told and examined and treated . No one can ever know your body the way you do no matter how many degrees they have. If something is wrong your body will tell you all you have to do is listen. The real kicker is most of the things we can’t feel on our own are never found by Drs either because of very outdated and inaccurate methods. cervical cancer is quite rare and most of the time the other issues aren’t as big of a deal as Drs make them out to be. They often omit the risks of these exams and tests and don’t tell us about the other options we could and should have. Not to mention the treatments themselves often cause worse problems than the one being treated. It’s not that we don’t care about cancer etc the problem is that alot of time Drs don’t respect our feelings. It doesnt really help a person if the process of checking for or treating a physical problem creates an even worse mental/emotional problem and unfortunately for some of us it does. Many of the issues Drs cause such a fuss over never actually harm us and HPV is often transient and harmless. HPV goes away on its own most of time but PTSD doesn’t. Just remember that.

  9. Anna, tell the truth – aren’t you a doctor in disguise? Come on, come clean.
    It’s sheer nonsense what you wrote, you know?

    Cat&Mouse – Bravo for your true words written to Anna.

    Doctors, doctors and doctors again – they know better than we do – hahahahaha – goodness me! By the way, my hubby has just rejected statines which horribly deteriorated his muscles, but doctors, ”dear” and educated doctors told him that he would die without taking statines as his bad cholesterol would be too high. What a joke. Do you know what he did? He went on fruit and vegetable diet and his bad cholesterol went down considerably within two weeks of the natural diet! I still can’t believe it.
    Hahahaha – the GP who told him about death was so annoyed that she didn’t want to speak, but she didn’t forget to try to talk him into taking the killing statines, which he OBVIOUSLY refused to do saying that he would be on this diet as that is the best medicine ever! The GP shut her mouth – a poor doctor and poor pharmaceutical companies – what a shame.

    It’s high time we trusted nature – it works for everything, not only for lowering the level of bad cholesterol, but it’s for every single organ in the body!

    • Jola – “It’s high time we trusted nature – it works for everything, not only for lowering the level of bad cholesterol, but it’s for every single organ in the body!” I couldn’t agree more! This is a fantastic comment. I was doing some research a while back, and it turns out that people of Nordic countries on average have a longer life span and a happier life. After looking into it, I found that typically Nordic countries have a much more natural diet, exercise very often, have easier access to better naturopathic health care, and have less stress in their lives. They certainly seem to be doing it right, statistically speaking. The rest of the world could learn a lot from them. There’s most definitely something to be said for relying on nature and trusting your body to heal itself with the proper nutrients.

      • Thank you Ro.

        This diet is very simple, but may be hard for the first week. It DOESN’T CONTAIN:
        flour products (only whole meal bread is all right)
        cottage cheese
        pasta (only brown pasta is all right)
        light margarine
        black tea
        salt (if yes, very little, preferably Himalayan salt which is the best instead of the typical one)
        Preferably no potatoes, and if yes, then with skin

        Fasting for one or two days. In the case of cancer, it is advisable to starve longer than two days. Cancerous cells are eating themselves then as the organism starts to feed itself from its internal sources. Generally speaking, eating meat is very unhealthy, the same relates to too much protein – adult people’s organisms don’t need milk at all. Sugar is one of the best source of food for cancerous cells. The only acceptable milk is straight from a cow – warm (for me disgusting 🙂 ). We don’t need any cheese at all. As for cottage cheese, it can be only half with linseed oil (6 spoons of linseed oil – the oil must be bought from a fridge, not a grocer as it loses its nutritional value when not kept in the fridge). These 6 spoons of linseed oil and half of cottage cheese mixed together gives us plenty of Omega 3 which fights off cancerous cells – this mixture is called dr Budwig’s paste. It is worth reading about – Dr. Johanna Budwig’s Diet (the lady who was nominated to the Nobel Prize several times but never got it and died forgotten). She was a great person.

        This diet is the same as dr Gerson’s (US) and dr Dabrowska’s (Poland).


      • Any info on the Mediterranean situation with all that? I know it’s not unheard of for Mediterraneans to live a long time, but I’m also wondering about how the other things are. It doesn’t seem too medically dictatorial or incompetant.

        I’ve noticed how every damn thing is seen as a health risk in America & yet, the people here are not generally very “solid.” They abstain from everything & yet they can’t really do anything without snags. Having dissatisfactory situations or encountering obstacles when trying to do things would pretty much be what a “health problem” is.

        They might not totally die very early, but whatever the general age of death is, that number doesn’t reflect that they’re frequently kept alive by machines at that point. Or that they’re falling apart years before that. Or that they have all kinds of problems before that, even while young- lots of those are engineered, though. Antagonism or incompetance, both cause lots of issues for people in this country.

      • Jola: I’ve heard that raw milk is good for you. The milk from animals other than cow seem to be especially so. I know the Mongols would make a lot of things from horse milk, including booze!

        Another thing that I heard was that the kind of cholesterol that clogs blood vessels actually comes as a response to toxins. When there’s a lot, the response starts piling up & that causes problems.

      • Jola – Thank you so much for all of the great info! I don’t eat meat or drink dairy milk. I used to drink dairy milk, but a few years ago it started to taste odd (probably from new added chemicals). Lately, I’ve been drinking and using coconut milk. I don’t know much about nutritional value, but I personally like the taste and I’ve found it goes along great with a nice cup of tea :). I will definitely need to work on cutting out sugar, salt, and potatoes as those tend to be vices of mine. I’ve cut back on sugar quite a bit, but I’d like to do away with unnatural (added) sugar entirely. Do you know of some foods that naturally contain sugar and are good for you? I feel like eating those when cravings hit would help me to break the habit. I’ll go for the Himalayan salt from now on and try to eat potatoes sparingly (but the potatoes will probably be the most difficult for me to give up LOL).

  10. Anna sounds like a classic troll to me: posts inflammatory remarks on a forum, just for the pleasure of upsetting people.

    Seriously, though…I second the previous responses to Anna’s post: read and learn. Even if you’re comfy with intimate exams, it might benefit you to try to see the world through eyes other than your own.

  11. I think you may be right, Elaine.
    I’ve noticed women who are “comfortable” with these exams or even promoters of these exams usually have a fairly poor knowledge of the evidence. Many just repeat the screening story promoted by these programs and the medical profession. Others are so trusting of the medical profession, they’d never question the need or benefit. Even if you cite medical journal references etc, their minds are closed, they “think” they know it all.
    It shows the effectiveness of decades of brainwashing, repeating the same story over and over, one that’s rarely challenged…in the end some are so convinced they’re right (or perhaps, fear we’re right) they’ll never check the “facts” provided about this testing or check our facts.
    I think that’s why some women get very upset or even aggressive/rude when we question this testing. I accepted long ago that some women are unreachable, they’re destined to spend the rest of their lives climbing into stirrups for tests, biopsies etc.
    You can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink…

    • It kind of reminds me of the story, “The Emperor’s New Clothes.” At the end of the story, no one at the court could admit they’d been had, even when the evidence was before their eyes, AND if you’ve been a victim of a confidence game or scam, I can imagine that rather than confront the people who’ve conned you, you might lash out at the people pointing out the fraud.

      *sad sigh*

  12. Hi Alex

    I am not an expert, but as I can see and prove, fruit and vegetable diet works. As for raw milk – yes (I wrote about it as ”warm” – for me horrible, but it is not pasturised so it is the right one).

    Cancer can be treated with a proper diet without parts of the body being hacked, cut out, gouged, or whatever.

    By the way, diabetes is a common problem nowadays – all because of improper diet.

    Aren’t the Mediterraneans medically dictatorial? Yes, it seems to me they aren’t. Judging from what I read here from time to time, it’s mostly the US that is so obsessed with medical totalitarianism – honestly. Next, Australia – look what Elizabeth writes about the situation there, and Canada as well. However, when it comes to childbirth in Spain, one midwife from the UK had a Spanish apprentice who was very surprised why women in Britan do not have their pubic and perineum hair shaved before childbirth – a very instrumental approach to women in labour. I once read a story writen by one lady who gave birth in Spain and she wasn’t allowed to use the TENS to relieve her labour pains because a midwife said they have no time for something like that. Well, again when it comes to women’s situation in hospitals, it doesn’t seem good. Italy may be the same – I have no idea, but it just seems to me it is more than likely.

    • Jola
      There is a program here called “Catalyst” and recently they did a 2 part program on gut bacteria. It was a fascinating program.

      “Now, we’ve been hearing for years how we should be eating healthy food. But this research is different. It’s all about the bacteria that live in our intestines. Eat good food, you end up with good bacteria. Eat badly and you get bad bacteria in your gut. Now, it turns out your gut bugs have an enormous influence on your health.”

      “The remarkable new discoveries are telling us that our current eating habits could be making us sick. Very sick. Indeed, our food might be contributing to heart disease, cancer, asthma, allergies, arthritis, autism, depression, multiple sclerosis, diabetes – the list goes on.”

      You might find it interesting.

      • Very interesting. I have to wonder if at some level these things ARE known & are aimed to cause harm. I know that’s a little spy-ish, but these things keep happening. There ARE secrets, after all. Maybe some of them are about large-scale things that are low-key?

    • Yeah, I kind of figured it might be a mixed situation in the Mediterranean. On the one hand, they don’t back women into corners with birth control & they seem to see a situation for what it consists of. On the other, they seem to have a little bit of that “old world condescension” & sometimes seem to have a little bit of a religion-driven scorn with women.

      My cousin just came back from Italy & she had said that the guys were a bit insistant for her taste (I guess that’s what she meant by “creepy”). I’d worry that in a medical situation, that would carry over & maybe be in a more bossy, dicatotrial way.

      I’ve noticed that the tactic of simple comportment comes up pretty frequently. Not just medically, but in a lot of other situations. They just say to do something & the person doesn’t feel like doing it, but can’t quite “make thier case” mentally about why not. It’s like if someone told you to jump up & down on one leg, and you said no, and then they said “Why?” Someone usually doesn’t seem to have the answer “Because that’s outside orchestration (or third-party comportment, whichever) and that’s a problem.” Ultimately, it’s trying to make there be no “filling” in the argument section. “Oh, so there’s no reason?” Let’s say someone refused something & didn’t give a reason- that refusal still happened.

    • You’re welcome Jola, my younger sister is trying to cut out sugar, she’s into week 2…we’ll see, she’s always loved her cakes and puddings. I stopped eating red meat a couple of years ago now, after a few days I had an amazing “feeling” of lightness. (I don’t mean lighter on the scales) I liked that feeling so much, I’m still off red meat, and at this point I can’t see that changing, mainly because I don’t miss it at all. Zero cravings.
      That’s surprised me, no temptation at all, even if everyone around me is eating steak. I still eat white meat, no pork, but free range chicken and turkey, and I occasionally eat prawns. I tried to give up bread a few years ago, had very strong cravings, and really missed my toast, sandwiches etc. We now eat rye and wholemeal bread from a local baker, wood fired ovens, delicious.
      Then I tried to give up caffeine, that was incredibly hard, felt flat and miserable and had headaches for a few days. Sugar is another thing, when I cut back, cravings, I’ve always had a sweet tooth. I will cut back more, I’ve already found some great no sugar options from a local vegan bakery.
      The issue for me…some of these things are so pleasurable, they feel good for my well-being. I’d forever mourn their absence. I love my morning coffee, enjoy every drop…and a glass of wine every couple of days.
      I fear if I found out these things shortened my life, I might ask, how many years will I lose?
      I saw a documentary a few years ago about a couple who hope to live until they’re well over 100, they believe the secret is to eat very small meals, no meat, alcohol, sugar…on and on. It sounded like a fairly ordinary 100+ years. I also, didn’t think they looked healthy OR happy.

  13. Not about psychology at all.

    I just wonder about the composition of sexual lubricants. How do they differ from the composition of natural secretions? We are told that we NEED these because we are supposed to be so ready for sex (like males are always) or that when we are older that we have “dry vagina” and that is some type of disease. Older women are told to get some lubricant and a speculum and insert it regularly so that they will find their pelvic exam less painful. Really? Who does that benefit?

    So these vaginal lubricants are full of artificial sugars (glycerin) and preservatives. Do they upset the pH or microbial balance of the vagina and promote disease? Are there healthier alternatives?

    • I’d imagine. One of the things I heard about cancer is that adding baking soda to the diet changes the pH to make it less hospitible to cancer. Sugar, on the other hand, does the opposite. I think the body might also response to the situation better if the pH is different. Anyway, I’d think sugar may or may not feed bacteria & such- just another consideration.

      I don’t usually get into the biological stuff too much, but I’d be real cautious about what is used in a situation where a membrane can absorb one thing or another. Especially considering how they always find a use for something that’ll cause harm to people. Add to that the general antagonism or disregard that the medical profession tends to have toward women, it might turn into a situation that leads to a doctor visit (which can go any number of ways).

    • “Older women are told to get some lubricant and a speculum and insert it regularly so that they will find their pelvic exam less painful” – this is beyond insane. Older women should keep their vaginas in a rape-able condition (I wonder what sort of obligatory blurb follows such advice about “being responsible” and “awareness”) for the benefit of the medical profession, of course.

    • Moo,

      >I just wonder about the composition of sexual lubricants. How do they differ from the composition of natural secretions? …
      So these vaginal lubricants are full of artificial sugars (glycerin) and preservatives. Do they upset the pH or microbial balance of the vagina and promote disease? Are there healthier alternatives?<

      IMX, "Dry Vagina" is only bothersome during intercourse or when something else is inserted. I have been puzzled about why it is that elderly women who are widows, no longer sexually active, or are institutionalized with dementia or the like are being "treated" for "dry vagina". There are even over-the-counter preparations for this – which is only different from sexual or general-purpose lubricants in the price. The composition of them is the same.

      A safer, natural lubricant that I've used when it's been a problem is either butter or saliva.

      What is this about using a speculum to insert it, anyway? How about a tube or the woman's own hand? Yeah, I know, supposedly women cannot reach into their vaginas very far, which is why cervices need to be examined by a professional with a speculum. Still, using a tube similar to a tampon tube to insert it should be do-able by nearly all women.

      The only thing I could think of would be if the women have vaginal burning and itching. That would generally seem to me to indicate an infection. Those are mostly caused by something disrupting the PH balance, or antibiotic use destroying the natural microbes that keep the pathogenic ones intact. It would seem far more beneficial to re-introduce the bacteria – mainly through diet, but they can be applied directly – e.g., bio-active yogurt inserted with a tube or turkey baster reserved for that purpose.

      As far as a sexual lubricant, the typical ones are full of gycerin and parabens. As an aside, I knew a woman who reacted badly to methyl- and propyl- paraben. She found a cosmetic company that claimed they could formulate cosmetics free of the allergen that bothered a given person. She went to them, and they told her THEY COULD NOT HELP HER. It was *legally required* that they put these substances in cosmetics! They have been implicated in breast cancer and skin treated with methylparaben is more prone to damage when exposed to the sun's ultraviolet rays, and MAY contribute to skin cancer. This stuff can get in various body organs, where it becomes p-hydroxybenzoic acid. It's got some disturbing effects with breastmilk or in-utero exposure of infants (let alone baby care products!)

      • Elizabeth, too bad that AU ABC show Catalyst wasn’t shown in US. I’ll watch it.
        RE vaginal lubricants. Absolutely lubes can upset our balance. Glycerin fuels yeast infections. And the parabens & such can work but be irritating. Ending up with burning cracks & fissures is not the fun I want to repeat. Saliva, used that… Butter, novel idea; but it’s a fat and I don’t know how the body would deal with it. Any problems?

        Our vaginas are used to having some kind of acidic moisture barrier. The lactobacillis produces hydrogen peroxide which aids in our health and our smell. The low ph kills almost everything, including sperm, except when ovulating when it becomes thicker and a bit more alkaline. Our own moisture made during sexual stimulation is equal to blood plasma. makes “The Natural” a lube based on carrageenan, aloe, agave, and inulin. It does have preservatives. We tried a few and this is closest to my own, least irritating, and I like the ph balance. Hubby says it feels “real.” Has a pleasant neutral taste. They are upgrading to a thicker formulation.

        Preflavored coffees are something I avoid. The beans are marinated 24 hours in propylene glycol and fake flavoring. The plastic bins can’t be used for anything else they are so gummy and grimy. Flavored coffees can have the worst beans too. Also, chemically decaf coffee is done with a carcinogen. Only Swiss-Water processed coffee beans avoid that exposure. In my area, this process is done in Vancouver BC, Canada.

        I do douche. Not as much since menopause, but always after sex. I usually use 1-3T white bottled vinegar; but if I have a yeast infection I use baking soda. I’ve found these “reset” my body to what makes it hygienically happy. I also eat a lot of yogurt, and what you say about foods and our bodies’ health is spot on.

      • On lubricants: I haven’t had any problem with butter. Many of the lactobacilli present in a healthy vagina normally live in environments where there is fat from milk – which includes that from which butter is made. The excess fat will just be absorbed.

        I don’t douche EXCEPT when I believe I have a bacterial or yeast infection. Then, either with an iodine solution (bacteria) or vinegar (yeast). It’s pretty easy to tell the difference!

  14. Finding this article made me feel so much better and less alone. I had a pelvic exam and Pap smear almost a year ago and was absolutely traumatized. I was told I had to get one in order to get birth control and thought that it couldn’t possibly be that bad. But the entire thing was awful and the whole time I had to hold back from pushing away and kicking the doctor off of me. But the worst part came after I left the doctor’s office. I don’t know how to explain it. I just felt so….wrong. I felt so dead inside, but depressed at the same time. Like I wanted to curl up under a rock and die. It got worse as time went on. My self confidence hit rock bottom and I was almost always depressed. I had horrible nightmares and cried all the time. No matter how hard I tried to put the exam behind me, it would constantly replay through my mind all day, every day. No matter how hard I tried not to think about it. I would have panic attacks sometimes. Especially if I saw a rape scene in a movie or saw or heard anything about gynecology on tv. I tried to hold in my feelings, but I honestly felt like I had been raped. The worst part, is that it didn’t just impact me, it impacted my sex life with my fiancé. We used to have a very good sex life and both of us would initiate sex very often. But now it is very rare for me to get aroused without having to try very hard. And sometimes thoughts of the exam pop into my mind and ruin the entire act. We have sex maybe 1/4 as much as we used to. I can’t even go to the regular doctor anymore or even the dentist without freaking out. I have always wanted children and now have second thoughts because of this whole experience. I will never ever let them do that to me again. Even if they deny me birth control. It’s a year later and I am just now starting to feel normal again. Sadly, I don’t think I will ever be 100 percent again. There will always be that little corner of my brain that will hold on to that trauma.

    • Its wrong for doctors to tie birth control with pap smears. They have no right imposing and exam on woman for unrelated care or bc.

    • Haley,

      You’re having some typical PTSD reactions that any rape victim would have. Penetration by coercion IS rape. You were coerced by having the threat BC withheld even though there are NO findings in a pelvic exam which could effect the decision whether to prescribe hormonal BC, the dosage, the brand, or much of anything else. The only test that is required is a blood pressure check.

      I’m sorry that your trying to get something which should have helped your sex life by reducing the worry of unwanted pregnancy has turned into something that has all but destroyed your sex life. It’s also scared you off of having children someday when you want them – which should not be the case. If you have a hospital birth with an obstetrician, such “birth rape” is inevitable. A home birth under the right conditions might be the way to go – just make sure that you understand what sorts of interventions or when the midwife will send you to a hospital, and agree beforehand.

      Rape counselling or rape survivors groups may or may not help. They may help, in that the probloem is a penetration which was imposed upon you. It may not help because these exams are a blind spot in our society – an instance of what happens is not believed to be what occurs. The therapists and group members have also been so brainwashed into accepting this cultural blindspot that they may or not help.

      You say that it’s taken a year for you to feel “almost normal” again. That’s a good thing. It’s one reason that these exams are recommended on a yearly basis – to keep women constantly in a state of mental trauma from sexual assault – and all of the things that come with it – psychiatric issues and somatic complaints. Thus, women come back to the doctor more and more, use more and more products and services, and are more lucrative.

      • I guess the term “unconventional abuse” or “iatrogenic attack” doesn’t tend to make it into discussions of this nature. Neither does “sexual dissonance” (when things are against the grain in this way). It definitely IS a blindspot & the weird thing is that people are quite astute about all manners of domestic abuse. If there’s any hitting at all, it’s a problem. If there’s any threats, intimidation, or sabotaging of someone’s ability to do things for themselves- that’s all an issue. There’s even a concept of mentally terrorizing someone & psychologically abusing them!

        It’s actually illegal for them to back women into corners to get birth control & if anyone gives you shit about “Oh, it’s a doctor though” just make the point that reality doesn’t take a coffee break for doctors. Properties don’t change by designation & an interface with a sexual area as a product of someone else’s decision-making is an attack (I know that isn’t the perfect way to phrase that, but there’s no way to say something so that someone else can’t lie or twist your words). If the doctor poisoned someone with a needle, it’s still murder. All this applies to risks & inaccuracies, too.

        Over here, if there’s any claim of potential utility or charitable intentions- someone can more or less do whatever they want to someone else. Medical personnel aren’t usually liable for what they do, since there’s always someone else to pass the blame onto & whoever that is just simply doesn’t want it.

    • Haley, please don’t think you are alone with these feelings, as I had a very painful smear test forced on me at a postnatal assessment, and I too felt I had been raped and assaulted. As I was 35 and had already undressed from the waist to have a childbirth tear inspected, I felt so stupidly naive not to have guessed that this would have happened, I felt too embarrassed and sucked in to make a complaint. My way of dealing with it was to get out of there as quickly as possible. When I got home I cried a good deal for some time afterwards, and I was physically shaken by the ordeal for weeks afterwards. As you say, these horrible feelings are with you all hours of the day and night, and you would give anything to get them out of your brain, but you can’t, and any reference to gynaecology in the media sets your warning lights off again, and it takes days to settle down again. I was so embarrassed at falling into this trap, that I couldn’t tell a soul about it for 17 years.
      I’ve never had a smear test since and never will.

      I had heard about a process of trying to think about putting these experiences into a “strong box” in the recesses of your mind, of keeping that box shut and not letting it get open, until years in the future you feel bold enough to take a peek and try to overcome those feelings. I kept my box shut for 17 years, when I got my diagnosis of endometrial cancer, and I had to confront what had happened so long ago. It has been hard, but I’ve found this website has made me feel I’m not alone. There are women all over the world who are feeling as I do about these tests.
      What makes me so angry is that if you had been assaulted in this way by anyone else it would be a crime and you would get support for taking legal action against the perpetrator, but because it was a doctor who did this to you, they conspire against you to say, it was nothing, and that you need to accept it as a normal part of being a woman. I have since made complaints about my experiences to the health authorities and they dismiss my experience as if I was at fault for not being relaxed enough to accept it as a procedure to save my life. I could go on, but it heartens me greatly to read posts on here, which show that the tide is turning, and so many other women are abandoning this dreadful, barbaric, useless test.

    • I’m praying for you and your fiance. You are now a member of a terrible club. Please find a way to talk to your fiance. This is an early test of your relationship. Whenever you go to the doctor, TAKE HIM! Even if it’s for a cold. Do same for him. Outnumbering the doctor helps and unites you as a team. I’ve been to over 60 offices due to my disability, including these exams, and I’ve learned not to go unless my husband accompanies me. He feels the same way. Learn your body, and learn medical terms, including medications. Read about my experience at Kaiser shortly after my marriage. Above all, talk to him so he won’t feel rejected and punished sexually. I almost lost my husband before marriage over the same thing, but he pressed me until I talked.

      Elizabeth wrote about the rhythm method. She relied on it, using condoms when pregnancy might occur. Worked for her. Best, she avoided doctors offices entirely. When married, you are a team. Committed, the two of you can achieve anything.

      When you become pregnant, you CAN refuse paps. After delivery, you can also refuse them. The only answer I have for you to avoid this mess giving birth, is to seek a water birth delivery. This is easiest on mother, and if you have a normal delivery, aside from pain of first time this offers you more control than anything else.

    • Hi Haley, I’m sorry you had to go through this. There really needs to be awareness to the side effects, I didn’t know about any of this until it was too late. I was actually wondering if you or anyone else had any advice for coping as I just went through it yesterday and would be grateful for any help. I feel sick, I have no appetite, I have painful palpitations in my chest and feel stressed, depressed and distracted all the time. Just like you all I wanted was birth control and went of of respect and trust which is gone. Also now I don’t know how to go about having a kid in the future in terms of labour, I’m most certainly not going to have any below the waist checks ever again.

      • Hi Becky, Welcome to the forum. Sorry to hear about what happened to you and the effects it had 😦 I wish I knew what to tell you in terms of advice. Many women on here are looking for some solutions to the problems with women’s so called health care, and many have suffered too. Each woman seems to find her own way to heal. Reaching out to others, talking about it, and learning about others’ experiences has helped some. The discussion forum and other posts on this site have many comments related to personal experiences. I’m glad you found your way here and I hope you find some peace soon.

      • Sue, you wrote such kind words to Becky. Whatever you have suffered in the past, your website has helped very many women, over distant continents. In desperation, some of us have been forced to vent our anger online, only to be found by someone on this site who has helped to inform and help us work our way through our anger. I knew very little before I was invited to join this site. I have learned a huge amount and am still regularly researching academic journals and learning. This site has given me the confidence to ask questions and tackle the screening authorities head on. Sometimes my emotions get in the way, and at other times I can put them aside and make intelligent comment that can put these screening zealots on the back foot. Your contribution to women’s rights has been immense, and I can only hope that it has gone some way to help you as much as it has helped many of us.

      • Thanks Adawells for your own kind words. You made my day and then some. But if not for the comments, links and more from everyone this site would most likely be flat lining. Everyone here is contributing to getting the word out. A community of informed women!

      • Thank Sue, just typing it out helped immensely, and I’m not in as much shock anymore, I know with a lot of time eventually it will heal. Thank you for all the support and hard work you’ve put in, I’ve directed a couple of people here and they’re a lot better off for it so thank you again. I know for reserved people like myself its a hard topic to bring up but its so worth it to warn others so they don’t have to go the same thing.

  15. I honestly cant belive doctors are still doing this to woman in 2014. its not ok to impose inturnal exams on woman. its rape when they take chice away. like no pap no bc. thats rape.

    • i went through that yrs ago my self. i have been tramazited too. ignoed by drs cause i can’t have an exam. its not worth the anxiety attack it causes. i feel these exams are inturistive to women.

  16. Thanks for this caring honest article.

    I too am victim of this.

    Also as child and adult was abused, falsely accused, unjust punished, hit degraded helpless, beaten into false confessions, dependent, and no religious leaders, doctors, political parties, unions, foodstamp office, mental health services administration, has ever fought for me and my rights, to where some of them actively oppose me and my rights, and/or abuse me also.

    And the economy/society of USA EuropegGaza Afghanistan Iraq Libya today in 2014 does not value/ reward honest hardworking pragmatic compassionate humble people. Thus we live in fear, powerless,

  17. Children have to have a gynecologist exam when they are between the ages 13 and 15. This is how it all went down. I had a male pediatrician at the time. I was told to take all my clothes off and change into a gown. I did as I was told and laid flat on the table. He came in and I leaned up. He said I want you to lean back bend your knees and spread your legs. I was scared. I really was. He starts touching my vagina, he puts his fingers up my vagina as well. He also does a breast examination. I felt so violated on so many levels. I felt like I was fingered and groped by my male pediatrician. It left me traumatized. I felt so insecure, violated, loss of self-confidence, loss of control. I was a big mess. Didn’t help any, when later in life, I was sexually violated (touched) by two men. I still struggle with the emotional pain.

    • Welcome to the forum, Alexandria
      I’m so sorry, I consider this child abuse.
      There is no evidence to support this as any sort of health measure, IMO, it’s purely about medical profits and getting us when we’re young. I also, think it’s about early violation in the hope we “get used to it” and just accept this sort of thing right through life.
      It makes me furious to think of so many girls being damaged before they even reach womanhood…how many are left with psychological and physical damage as a result?
      I have nothing but contempt for the “doctors” who carry out these assaults.

      The shocking thing is with so many women brainwashed, they think they’re being responsible mothers taking their daughters for this first exam, like some weird right of passage. If only they knew the damage they were causing and the risk that accompanies this “exam”.
      I would have been a mess too had I gone through that ordeal…at any age, let alone at the tender age of 13.
      Have you thought of sending an email to the doctor and to ACOG setting out the damage caused by that early “exam” and perhaps, even to the media, it could even be sent anonymously. ACOG and other medical groups know these exams are unnecessary and harmful; more needs to be done to stop this abuse. There needs to be more critical discussion, so often it’s dismissed, “well, she’ll have to get used to these exams at some stage”…umm, that’s absolute nonsense, routine pelvic exams are NOT recommended and are more likely to harm you, routine breast exams are of no proven benefit but lead to excess biopsies and pap testing is elective…and now we know only 5% of women aged 30 to 60 can benefit from pap testing anyway AND we can test ourselves for HPV, no need for speculum exams.
      The fact is almost all of these exams are completely unnecessary, there is no need for women to get used to anything. This notion that the asymptomatic female body needs to be medically managed is warped and convenient thinking.
      There is no doubt in my mind this is about medical profits and paternalistic/perverse attitudes that have never been addressed within the medical profession. (I also, imagine some doctors enjoy carrying out these exams)

      • To “AB” yes, now we can confidently say that performing this on young girls is abuse. Abuse for what it does physically and psychologically; and for that it’s of no medical benefit. Allow me to reiterate what my husband overheard growing. A family friend was seeking advice from his RN mother. Her daughter, then aged 14, was being seen every 6 months by the mother’s gynecologist. Why? BC her paps were “borderline” abnormal and she needed monitoring. Her breasts were asymmetrical.
        Most girls that age have uneven breasts. Further, her reproductive system is still maturing. Guaranteed to show “borderline” pap results! This girl felt terrorized and violated, exactly as you did. At some point in her life, she turned off to men altogether. Conclusively it began with these exams. Was her doctor really concerned or just a dirty old man?

      • Elizabeth, thanks again for posting the ACOG “guidelines.” Ambiguous nonsense! How much time is spent in med school and speciality training on this issue? An hour? During which time they sleep, eat, do homework, or peruse golf catalogs? They’re supposed to ask, then they go ahead & perpetrate their own rape under authority. Nowhere does it say “do not examine.” Oh, postpone the exam; but how many do unless a loud meltdown occurs? Otherwise, all the excuses or BS talk yet examination job one. How many women report they don’t stop when we tell them to? The victim will have yet another bait & switch experience, painful to body & mind, and will not return for future care. A scar on top of a scar. From the 70’s & early 90’s in USA, it was practice to introduce a girl to her first exam in her early teens. Especially if sexually active in any manner. You know the fear propaganda.
        Kids will explore. However, nobody’s mind is ever geared to process a pap/pelvic exam; sexually active or not. Think how many women develop a “freak out” tendency when their partner wants to discuss this. Later in life they refuse to allow their partner to accompany them to exams bc they still have not processed this terror from so many years ago. This is where urine, self-collected cervical mucus, or blood HPV testing is necessary. Bring rational back to medicine.

  18. No one “has to” have any exams they do not want at any age. I can’t see how those exams helpt u or any other healthy girl. Its all for profit. I will never let a doctor do and gyn exam on my daughter when I have children. Esp if she is symptom free. That’s bull.

  19. If nothng else, ome would hope that the child’s mother would be protective. Trouble is, many of them are brainwashed, too and may insist that the daughter go through it. Thr young lady still has the right ti say no, of course, this sort of thing could lead to trouble of another sort.

    • Very good. Refuse it, especially if it’s the child voicing out, and the doc will quickly call CPS. Then the femanazi social workers show up, demanding the child be taken away. The kid will be forced into a colpo molest exam, with pap & STD testing, rectal,…complete with a video taped interview using the anatomically correct dolls and temporary foster care. There will be a therapist bought and paid for by CPS, telling the kid to say yes abuse happened if she/he wants to go home again. The coercion will be intense. Especially if the kid comes from a good middle class family, gets good grades, and is well behaved. Those are easiest to place into foster care. The social worker gets a $$ bonus in the tens of thousands, the County/State gets to raid the family finances and good private insurance. The kid will be “cured” just when benefits top out. The parents will be dragged through Juvenile Court, possibly made to divorce in order for the mother to regain custody. The father would have to plead guilty to “something.” By the time it’s all done, nobody will know what really happened. This is how it happens in CA, FL, TX…good ol’ USA!! Hope the kid is over 10yrs old. So long as the kid can speak for herself in court, not having the MFCC (lowest on therapist food chain) speak for her, chances are this can be avoided.

      • Two cases; both from San Diego CA USA. In the early 90’s, a career sailor named Jim Wade found his family in a similar situation. Except his daughter was taken out her bedroom window in the night, raped, then returned, tucked back into bed. The parents woke her up for school to discover her ripped from stem to stern. The Navy clinic, and others, noted his daughter clung to both her parents. She related the story over & over, saying it happened on a baseball field, and in describing the guy said he drove a green car. A footprint was found outside her window that didn’t match any family member. Jim Wade made police take a pic; they otherwise ignored it-their minds already made up. However, when the girl was transferred to hospital for surgery, the father was excluded; mother’s contact supervised.

        The SW threatened the mother their other son would be taken if she didn’t cooperate with CPS and took her husband’s side. The daughter, then age 7, held her own, through rare family contact (none with dad), for 18 months. Finally all the cajoling got her to turn saying dad did it [she later described constant pressure from therapist]. Rewarded by foster parents taking her on vacation. Jim Wade was arrested on his ship for rape; and later the mother was threatened to be charged with approving and watching the molesting. Ritualistic child abuse. He both ate & flushed his papers down the toilet to keep other inmates from finding out. All the while, the DA prosecutor claimed he did it; assuring the court nobody else could’ve been involved. One lie of many. Factually however, she was involved prosecuting the real perp, a repeat offender who preyed on some of the girl’s friends from that same Navy housing complex.

        Eventually, Congressman Duncan Hunter referred the matter to the San Diego Grand Jury. The GJ ended up taking complaints in the thousands, a bunch of them involving the same social workers, lawyers, CPS therapists (MFCC is lowest in education on therapy food chain), all acting in cahoots. As if scripted. The mother attempted suicide. Wade finally took his family’s inheritance, $275K, and hired an attorney outside of the court appointed “paid pretender.” The DA said no dna on the panties & nightgown. An independent lab noted the panties were “stiff,” and dna on both excluded Wade. Alicia was within 2 weeks of being adopted out to the foster parents when this Grand Jury intervened. Foster-adopt families are a legalized way of holding very young children hostage, on a finite clock, making parents capitulate to whatever made up guilt demands just to try and get them back.

        Turns out dna indicated one man, in CA prison for multiple molest offenses. He cut a deal, validating Alicia’s original story. Quickly SD County backpedaled, and began reunification proceedings. The family sued everybody, attorneys, SD County, CPS, therapists, ending up with a few million minus 40% to the good attorney. Nobody representing the system was criminally penalized. The GJ wrote a scathing report recommending severe changes. This GJ was threatened with lawsuits for doing their job.

        The next GJ claimed that this GJ was full of shit. That CPS worked just fine, and didn’t have a crooked perversion trying to prove massive, ritualistic child abuse taking place.

        The Dale Akiki case happened. This guy had severe physical birth defects which also effected his cognitive functioning. Church goers & young kids at Faith Chapel didn’t like his looks, where he and his wife volunteered with daycare. Eventually, remarks became rumors became complaints, and CPS swopped in. The kids were sent to the partner of the therapist which engineered the Wade fiasco. [an equal tragedy, the 70’s McMartin case from Anaheim CA should come to mind. the “therapist” in that case only held a driver’s license as credentials.] Akiki was arrested at gunpoint at the bus stop he used commuting to work. His next two years spent in jail. Gang members figured out he was innocent, protecting him from others who, well, “wanted” him. He later remarked if found guilty he’d have committed suicide. Dale had to prove his innocense, which was done via sodium pentathol interrogation. Truth serum. Meanwhile, a third consecutive GJ took up investigating CPS. The church? It spent $250K digging up its plumbing looking for “bones.”

        At trial, the kids testified to what else, ritualistic child abuse. They recounted gross stories of bloody animal slaughtering and sacrifices. Involving rabbits, elephants, & other zoo animals. Hence the search for bones. They told of Dale renting them out for sex during church services, delivering them via his scooter. Dale’s wife was also threatened with prosecution. The trial stretched days and was locally televised. The jury came back soon thereafter and outright acquitted him. He collapsed. The Sheriff’s deputies running the jail hired a limo to drive him home. He and his wife spent the night at a hotel. The next morning, a restaurant recognized him, comping their breakfast. Dale was so shaken it took him nearly an hour to figure out what to pick from the menu. Eventually he sued and like Wade settled for a few million less fees. The system refused to police itself. This GJ made findings reflecting those made by the first following Wade’s case.

        Eventually, a brave Municipal Court Judge read the first GJ letter. He filed a complaint against Kathleen Goodfriend MFCC, therapist in the Wade case. Three months later, Goodfriend surrendured her license, admitting to over 10 malfeasances. Juvenile Court is a closed loop. Secrecy. No juries. When somebody admits to an invented farce, just to get their kids back, what they admit to is then regarded as true, rock solid evidence. They then face criminal charges in a very public Superior Court. Couples are forced to divorce. Kids abused in foster care. SW’s tell parents while ignoring these offenders, using the leverage against parents. The monetary costs are staggering. SW’s are paid bonus in tens of thousands $$ to place kids. Twins being a two-fer. I’ve condensed this as best I can. If you like, look up articles in the San Diego Union, Evening Tribune, San Diego Grand Jury which has several lengthy reports over many years. These two cases took place between 1990 and 1994. However, this terrible legacy lives on. Whatever recommendations adopted to satisfy public outcry have been watered down to uselessness.

        Personally, I know the judge, a now retired reformer. Jim Wade retired and took his family away from San Diego, back to Missouri. He remarked to a newspaper that parents don’t know what they’re really getting when a social worker is assigned to an elementary school. One day years ago I met Dale Akiki at a picnic. Last year his wife passed away.

        In the US today, one must have vast resources to survive any legal encounter. We have a great justice system for those who can afford it. Besides CPS, there are three murder cases here reflecting these concerns. One is David Westerfield, convicted (on death row) of killing a little girl. This guy was witnessed to be “staggering, swaying, stinking drunk;” after consuming massive quantities of alcohol. Yet two hours later that night he was accused of sneaking into a home with active alarm system, past a sleeping family dog, up stairs, carrying off the 8-yr old girl, going back down…past the dog again, leaving no fingerprints anywhere. Another is the American Beauty killer. Kristen Rossum was convicted of poisoning her husband. After her conviction, word came up questioning the actual amount of fentenyl [she was accused of stealing it from her job as SD County toxicologist] she put in her husband’s drink. He slowly died over a 12 hour period. However, the amount in his blood she was convicted on would’ve brought death within 1 hour, not 12. Her former employer also processed evidence in her trial. There was no tissue samples saved to double check the findings. Gross conflict of interest? She had a court appointed attorney. She had admitted to falling back into a childhood drug habit after his death. And another case similar to hers. In that one, on appeal a poisoning conviction based on arsenic was overturned. The widow in that case was accused of having too much fun while mourning. She used funds to hire a private attorney. In her case, he proved incompetence handling tissue samples plus a secondary source, her husband’s employment, for his exposure.

    • The prosecutions of the two widows are chilling. Both women were prosecuted chiefly for how they “mourned.” My husband and I agreed that if one of us out lives the other, and funds are available, the survivor is to do something nice for him/her self in memory, as a gift or dedication to surviving. We love each other such that just knowing the other is gone is a terrible enough burden to carry. That one thing, to improve our lives for while we’re here before we meet again in Heaven is one last kiss. Mourning, especially after a long illness just prolongs suffering. Writing this is the most difficult thing I’ve ever done.

  20. Thank you for sharing this. It really helped. Most of the time when I google “panic attack during pap smear” all I get is a bunch of “inhale, exhale, think about a peaceful place, talk about something nice, and stare at a fixed point in the ceiling”.
    Not helping. I am in Xanax too now. I was diagnosed HPV two years ago and have to go in every 6 months for a paps smear. I have an appointment tomorrow and I am already freaking out, with tears in my eyes. I feel vulnerable, violated, so humiliated. Last time I could not stop crying like a baby while I had my legs open. This is the worst part for me, opening my legs in that bizarre chair. Its good to know I am not the only one. I have had horrible doctors that have been really cruel to me about “not keeping it together”. Hope tomorrow the xanax works the magic and my exam comes out just fine.

    • Anon, could you refuse the chair and insist on a flat couch if there is one available? The gyn chair is very much an American thing, and they aren’t used here in the UK. I’m mid 50’s and never seen one. All pap tests are done on a flat couch, with the woman putting her legs in the position of her choice: either knees bent vertically, both knees sideways (foetal position), or one knee up and the other flat on the bed. This “3 o’clock” position was what I always used on my very rare visits. With my right leg flat on the couch, it gives you a clear view of the doctor and what the bugger is getting up to. The other 2 positions give you hardly any view at all.
      I read a medical paper about different positions for pap tests and the chair and stirrups came out worst for instilling fear, vulnerability and pain in women. It is rarely used in Europe.

    • i can so relte i took ativan my last few attempts at an exam. no they don’t understand those who have trauma regarding these tests. i agree they are over testing you. please consider not going. i am not gong anymore too much trauma, and its so difficult to explain to office that i will discuss my issue withe dr. these biches gurd the dr like he is a god!

      i have aked many times to be sedated, they refuse. please don’t let them give you any more trauma not worth it.

      hang in there


  21. Anon, sounds like you’re having far too many pap tests, HPV+ is not a big deal for MOST women, it rarely results in cervical cancer, that’s why it’s a fairly rare cancer, lifetime risk is LESS than 1% while HPV affects 40% of women under 30 and about 5% of women aged 30+

    The new Dutch program will offer the 5% of women aged 30 to 60 who are HPV+ a 5 yearly pap test, and when these women test HPV- they’ll be returned to the HPV primary testing pool.
    So 6 monthly pap testing sounds like overkill to me, and it’s clearly putting an enormous strain on you, hardly surprising.
    I’ve never had a pap test and feel so sorry for women caught up in non-evidence based programs, there is no need for a horrible chair either, women here have pap tests with no stirrups or horrible chair, that’s completely unnecessary and says to me your doctors don’t care about the dignity and comfort of women.
    I assume you’re American, but excess is a problem with this testing in lots of countries.
    It’s concerning that you’re taking Xanax to help you get through a difficult experience, which is probably completely unnecessary. Please, be careful.

  22. I agree with the trauma part. Im 23 and had my first pap smear two days ago. Im still a virgin. I can say that I have personally never experienced a physical pain so sharp and intense in my whole life! That is not an exaggeration. It felt like my dr was shredding my hymen to pieces over and over again. I only decided to do it because i wanted to know why my menstrual cycle was so irregular. I left feeling completely traumitized, humiliated, embarrassed, and questioning if I would become asexual. I dont recommend this test for those who are not sexually active (like myself). The purpose of the test has good reason but I personally will never do this again. I cried for hours and I feel extremely insecure.

    • am2000, please do this. Google the UDOTest, Delphi Screener, and Trovagene. Personally, I used Trovagene a month ago. Simply sent a sample from my first morning urination; two weeks later I found out I’m HPV negative. NO PAP. No inaccuracies–pap is 53% vs Trovagene 90+%. Simple as or 858-952-7570 (USA). Cost is $120US cash or they’ll bill insurance! You can’t go wrong; and best yet the result is something your doctor can’t deny. I have opted out of pap and pelvic exams. Why not help yourself? Better yet, tell your friends and write your government representatives.

      • Cat&Mouse
        Some doctors are still telling women they need pap testing, even though they’re HPV-
        Women need to know this is not true, and in fact, if you’re no longer sexually active or confidently monogamous, you can forget future HPV testing, you have nothing to fear from this rare cancer.
        I know a couple of women who were told by their Australian GPs that the HPV- result did not mean they could forget about pap testing, thankfully, both women were informed, challenged their GPs who gave up and backed down. (both women used the Delphi Screener in Singapore)
        It is so important to be informed, it’s our protector from the madness and abuse of women’s cancer screening.

      • You’re posilutely right! So far so good. I haven’t had any issues with my doctor. My husband and I tell every woman and couple we meet about Trovagene, this site, and how I’ve opted “out” of pap/pelvic exams. What’s neat is handing over a copy of my test results to an educated woman and watching her reaction. We’re informing my other doctors, and watching their reactions. I’ll keep you posted, and let you know if any get back to us reporting they too have kicked the pap habit. Thank you, God Bless you, for providing this forum, for my liberation!

    • Sweetie, pap smears have nothing to do with your menstrual cycle – I hate to sound harsh but you obviously have no idea what the pap test is for. Pap tests are only recommended for women who are sexually active, so you should never have had the test in the first place. Even women who are sexually experienced can find pelvic exams an ordeal – it’s no wonder you’ve been traumatised. Even if your doctor wasn’t aware of your sexual status, he/she had no valid reason for performing a pap test on the basis of irregular periods!

    • A pap test on a virgin is completely useless. The test is to detect for the HPV virus, which is only transmitted through penetration. It can be sexual, but it can also be with a contaminated object, hand, glove, lubricant, or about anything else. It put you at some risk for becoming infected with HPV. You are also at a risk for getting a positive result, and being referred to more tests, with higher risks. All of this risk is completely without benefit.

      Cervical cancer is very rare, and always has been. The types which are not related to HPV, which virgins can get, are not detected with a pap smear.

      The pelvic exam did not tell them anything about your menstrual cycle or why it’s irregular. The bimanual pelvic exam is too nonspecific for diagnosis of anything. There are numerous reasons for irregular cycles, most of them hormonal, so hormone-detecting blood tests would have been the gold standard for such diagnosis.

      If you were not informed of any of this, you did not give informed consent. What do we call penetration of a vagina without consent….

    • Not to “jump on the nerve,” so-to-speak: but whether you’re sexually active or not doesn’t matter. It’s still high-risk, low utility, and there seem to be alternatives (at the very least there’s self-testing options). There’s also the concept of it simply being a problematic methodology, it IS an interface with a sexual area (specifically a penetrative one). If this is a product of someone else’s decision-making, that is an attack. I think it would just be called an “iatrogenic assault” at that point.

      Speaking of sexual activity, there is the risk of miscarriages from injury (which can be deliberate or not- at the very least there’s the potential for lying to generate a repeat cost).

    • Unless you are trying to get pregnant or have pain of other issues with your menstrual periods there really is no reason to worry about irregular menstrual periods. If it is just a matter of convenience and surprise your period shows up when you do not expect it then there are a few ideas you can try. Purchase or sew some cloth mini pads to wear just in case or use a silicone cup such as diva cup around the time the red is expected. You could also visit a herbalist and see what they recommend. Getting onto prescription hormonal birth control pills to “regulate” your cycles is not often a good idea. It increases your risk of breast cancer, you will battle with doctors to continue your prescription unless you get yearly pap and pelvic exams most places and other pitfalls.

  23. It’s interesting that American doctors are being told there is no need for a pelvic exam in a “non-pregnant” women, but it seems MOST of the pelvic exams carried out during pregnancy and labour are unnecessary too. I know women here had a breast and pelvic exam (and a pap test) at their first pre-natal visit, some doctors have dropped that exam now. (but still ask about pap tests)
    I know some American women endure a pelvic exam at every pre-natal visit, I watched an episode of “Deliver me” and was shocked at the number of pelvic exams, it seemed at every visit, legs in stirrups…why? How does it help to be constantly doing pelvic exams?
    I know one woman posted on Dr Sherman’s site that she returned to the UK to have her pregnancy managed by a midwife because American doctors were obsessed with pelvic exams.
    I’ve always felt that almost every medical intrusion on the symptom-free female body is unnecessary and does nothing more than expose us to risk.
    If a doctor suggested a routine pelvic exam, I’d assume she was incompetent and get up and leave, I might even report her, concerned she may harm some of her patients.

    • It seems American doctors ARE obsessed with probing people. Doesn’t seem to matter what the conditions are. Another thing is that they can be very doctrine bound- if somehting’s on the list, they plod toward it. This is a definite indicator of incompetance, because they don’t actually understand the workings of the situation- they just do things (add in the Joker’s voice & hand gestures from that Dark Knight movie- although it seemed he DID plan plenty of shit, I guess that also applies).

      • YES. Call it an obsession, obsessive defensive medicine, training women, breaking us down, getting off on us in stirrups, an abusive addiction, all the above. If a patient is undesirable, she won’t be probed nearly as much. But if attractive, might as well make us appear at their conventions wearing nothing but a gown, shaved and ready to submit. Oh happy doctor!

        A self promoting (bragging) Canadian doctor of Mid Eastern origins posted his own pictures with newborns. He included BS about how wonderful and necessary paps are. A woman commented back, bringing up several points why paps are useless and should be banned along with the equally useless pelvic. His avoided directly answering anything she said, instead suggesting she made several “good points,” but claimed lacking procedural evidence he had to stick with proven established protocols until alternatives are established.

        Another post from a Mid Eastern originating Canadian doctor (same one?) posted a picture of his own surgical handiwork. The woman “used,” spread and posed, clearly from an earlier procedure had her clitoris and inner labia surgically removed. Shameful!! A beautiful woman transformed into a “hole” for mens’ gratification. Since she can’t participate in receiving pleasure he doesn’t have to worry about being inadequate. This is all normal to that asshole. It made me sick and wanting to cry. These jerks are reasons why we need to persevere.

    • I have read numerous accounts of women having miscarriages within 72 hours of getting a pap test during a pelvic exam at their “6 week prenatal exam”. The manufacturer’s insert for most pap transport media says that certain types of collection devices for pap should not be used at 8 weeks of pregnancy. What study backs that up? -because it is not published. Anyway how can the number of weeks pregnant be confirmed? Usually by the crown rump measurement at transvaginal ultrasound which is done after the first prenatal exam.

      If a pregnant women does have cervical cancer then it is risky but the rates of cervical cancer for pregnant women are about the same as every woman. Treatments for cervical dysplasia cannot be done while pregnant anyway so why bother? But some women will advised to have an abortion.

      Getting a midwife would be no different for me. Because where I live (ontario) midwives are regulated. They have to follow certain protocols to be insured. They are not allowed to take high risk pregnancies as these will be referred to ob/gyn. So they order every test under the sun.

      • Moo, I’ve been on sites where you post and help victimized women (actually couples as the husband’s suffering is equal) suffers emotionally equally), and I appreciate your work. You do more for them than their own doctors do. And yes, first thing I wondered is “how do they know?” Meaning the colpo brush manufacturers.

        I have to wonder how many “accidental” abortions or to them-miscarriages-take place due to the deliberate use of these devices during the first pap/pelvic exam? Are they accidentally on purpose intervening on pregnancies where the baby isn’t desired?

        And yes again, how do they (manufacturers) know that the device should not be used during pregnancy? Certainly some kind of study or very confidential study took place before these were cleared for clinical use. We’ll never know unless it’s leaked.

        In USA, paps are done at first pre and last post natal visit; and I believe it is for defensive medicine. I’ll call a local clinic and let you know the answer; no, I’ll share whatever BS flies off their pitchfork. This is the same approach as ordering episiotomies on every woman regardless of her body’s capabilities or her own desires. These useless procedures make deliveries easier and “on-time” so doctors can stay on schedule. Go to a vaginal rejuvenation site and just stare and gasp at the destroyed vaginas.

      • I’ve got to say it: Suppose you do die of cervical cancer? So what? Nobody gets so cranked up over liver or thyroid cancer. Nobody gets so damn concerned when someone eats themselves into a heart attack or if their foot’s about to fall off. They start playing all kinds of emotional games & mailing out manipulative advertising (at least in England) over some situation where they’ll be probing somoene & possibly fucking up their reproductive abilities for life or just fucking up their life, in general.

        It’s interesting to me that so many women aren’t about to put up with a backhand, but they’ll be just fine with other people telling them what goes where & what’s a priority in their life. I guess there’s no way to point that out without shooting yourself in the foot, but there’s a major issue with self-determination when in a medical setting.

        Just a thought: Maybe they subconsciously worry it’ll offend the enemy?

      • Also interferring with pregnancies of women they think are too old or too poor or too fat. I was asked my family income because that apparently is one of the data fields that cytobase collects along with race (who determines that?), number of pregnancies and abortions. The cancer care ontario cervical screening cytobase needs all this info for “planning” purposes. I have an inkling it is shared with other government for different reasons just the way that they get women’s information from the voters rolls or census to send them their first invite letters.

  24. Whether or not it’s a “female” exam, most medical office staff I’ve run into seem to be in a sort of “fast food” mode when doing patient procedures: weight, blood pressure, temperature, take off clothing (dependent upon reason for visit), put on paper gown, doctor will be with you shortly. Want fries with that? Next, please? When I refuse to be weighed, for example, they just sort of stand there and stare at me for a couple of moments, as if they can’t beleive their ears. (I’ve had a couple of them me that I don’t have to look at the scale. Ha ha.) They don’t expect resistance or being questioned.

    It also seems to be “routine” for a woman’s partner to be excluded from exams. “It’s routine” seems to be a vry popular phrase, but “routine” for them should not be routine for patients. Don’t want to do it? Just say NO.

    • I refused to be weighed for a referral to a NHS eye specialist. When I queried why the good doctor would want to know my BMI , the nurse couldn’t answer. She refused to process my referral until I jumped on the scales. I chose a private doctor. She managed my laser surgery without further reference to my weight.

      • yes i feek medicak treat tou like stuff on an assembly line. some of these women un drs offices are rude! yea they don’t like to be challanged! i have been refused an apt becaus i questioned them in us there is no patient care. its gey paid and get th papers filed.
        i rarel go to the dr. have to every 5 months for thyroid med referral. apt is is bp , wtc, 5 min get script.

        no other sevrice has pay before treatment execpt drs, walking in there and you pay!

      • So…you might have “fat” eyes? I can actually see where weight might matter in some cases, but if you’re going in for an eye exam or bronchitis, weight really does not matter. Kind of like the doctor suggesting you have “female” exam for a twisted ankle or allergies.

    • I refuse to be weighed because the scale is in the public waiting room. Sometimes weight is needed to calculate dosage for some medications. It makes sense that a 90 lb woman might need a different dosage from a 250 lb man. However this might be handled more discretely. In fact I have never been asked about my weight and had dosage adjusted. It seems most medications are one size fits one of two age catagories either adult or child (under 12 yrs old not matter the size of the child). Doesn’t something tell you that body mass and dosage should matter?

      Usually the lecture is to lose weight but never exactly how. The 3 minute consult doctors are never going to have time to discuss nutrition with patients even if they knew anything much about it. Most people over a certain age are heavier and the height/weight charts are ridiculous.

  25. I’ve heard about instances like these as well. I am a virgin at 34, and, since I was 16, doctors have been trying to force me into pelvic exams. Once, I broke my finger and needed an x-ray and the doctor withheld the x-ray saying that she would not do it until I get a pelvic exam and she sent nurses to get the stirrups ready! I was only 20 at the time and told her that I was a virgin and she didn’t care!!! I quickly left as she went to check to see if the room was ready.

    Another doctor was obviously lesbian but kept questioning my sexual history. When I told her that I was a virgin, she demanded that I get a pelvic exam, even though I was only there for sinus infection. She told me that I could not leave until I scheduled it. I left anyway and for weeks, she called and called asking me to schedule it. I stopped answering her calls and I kept receiving letters in the mail from her to schedule it. She went as far as making the appointment herself, but I did not show up.

    Yes, done people are attracted to gyno for power, lust, etc. I also think that some of these women doctors were raped and by shoving speculums into virgins, they think that they are raping other women… or they are ashamed that they didn’t wait until marriage and they want to ruin the other women’s chances.

    • I didn’t think of that- like someone that was abused as a kid doing the same thing when they’re older? I think that’s a definite possibility. Especially if they’re thinking that they’re the ones “behind the gun” so they’re safe from “shots” like that. Stupid belief, since they only make themselves deserve it at that point & someone can always shoot at someone that’s holding a gun.

      I think there’s also the potential for envy- the other women are younger, prettier, more fertile- maybe they’re expecting children or already have them. It’s not unheard of for someone to take issue over someone’s race, but they could also take issue with their condition. I think sometimes there’s also a situation where someone wants to victimize someone that’s in some kind of vunerable situation to make themselves feel dangerous- like when someone is hurt, unconcscious, or in some kind of weird furniture for instance.

    • That doctor had no right. I hear of doctors and receptionist making appointments for paps and mammograms with out asking the woman all the time . that is wrong and some places charge the person even if they don’t show up. A male doctor refused me a cheast exray a few years ago if I didn’t take a pregnancy test first even tho I told him I was a vergin. Other places like dental just take your word for it. They can’t charge for preg tests. A pelvic exam is over the top for a exray. Its for extra money and they hide behind “she’s a woman of child baring age.”

      • Yeah, charging someone for not allowing them to probe them is plenty fucked-up. If man decided to say “I ain’t leavin’ ’til you give up that ass or that paper” that would definitely qualify as an abusive situation- especially if either thing happened, not just the threat.

      • Here is the truth about pregnancy and xrays.
        I had the experience of going to a walk-in clinic for a flu shot. I thought i might be pregnant and told the nurse. I know there is sometimes a different vaccine for pregnant women (which is maybe better). The doctor was annoyed. They did a pregnancy test which was just a dollar store urine test. I never saw the result. I am sure he probably did not stock the other vaccine. I got the flu shot and I was not pregnant. However now I am refusing flu vaccines because I see them as mainly useless. (They are free where I live).

  26. I am almost 36 years old and still a virgin. I had my first PAP done when I was 17. My mom felt it was time I see a “woman doctor” so took me to see an OB-GYN. This doctor (a female) said she was only going to look at me. I was so afraid lying in that position – I get panic attacks when I cannot see what is going on. the next thing I know I felt unbearable pain that was complete torture. Whatever she did to me left me in a great deal of pain – I could not walk well for several days – and I was bleeding really bad. For all I know she may of broken my hymen. So many have tried doing PAP tests on me since with the use of Xanax; some gel that was supposed to numb the surrounding tissues before they opened me; a pediatric size speculum; you name it. I figured if I stayed a virgin than no one can make me have one done – I just found out I was wrong. I told the doctor I saw yesterday that I refuse to have one done unless I am out of it. It freaks me out just to think of being touched there by anyone.

    • Sorry to hear that happened to you.

      Just to ask: Why get them at all? They don’t work as advertised, if you’re thinking they’ll save your life from your “ticking time bomb” anatomy. there’s quite a bit about that on here (there’s a whole references & education section, actually).

      Just to say right off the bat: Properties don’t change by designation, just like if a doctor poisons someone with a needle it’s still murder. Even if something is a means to an end, it can still be of a problematic methodology. This is an interface with a sexual area- not something that’s a normal situation with someone that you aren’t “like that” with (recreationally or seriously). As a product of someone else’s decision-making, it’s an attack.

    • Traci, ALL so unnecessary, if you’ve never been sexually active, you cannot benefit from pap testing, more than that, we now know that only about 5% of sexually active women aged 30 to 60 can benefit from pap testing. So MOST women are having unnecessary pap testing. ZERO effort is made in most countries to confine this testing to the small number actually at risk (HPV+ and aged 30 to 60) no effort is made to protect the vast majority of women who cannot benefit from pap testing (HPV-) but can be harmed.
      It’s horrifying to think you were tested at 17, 1 in 3 pap tests performed on women aged under 25 WILL be “abnormal”…false positives, so you were lucky that test didn’t land you in day procedure.
      Sadly, some women have been trained to believe this testing is a must or they’ve been trained to greatly fear this always rare cancer or consider themselves “survivors” (when almost all have simply been over-treated) or they believe cc is rampant so being a good mother means getting your daughter into this testing…nothing could be further from the truth, they’ve been misled, they’re risking their child’s health, emotional and physical health for NO benefit.
      Xanax! Why? Pap testing is a pointless and potentially harmful exercise for virgins.
      It’s simple, leave virgins (women who’ve never been sexually active) alone and OFFER (not demand or coerce) women aged 30 to 60 a HPV test or HPV self testing kit, the roughly 5% who are HPV+ could be offered a 5 yearly pap test.
      That’s what should be happening, but the reckless use of this test has left huge numbers of women with damage/trauma.
      I’d urge you to get informed, that’s the best way to protect yourself from the medical profession.
      I’m sorry to hear you’ve been negatively affected by this testing, it’s HUGE club, but almost all of this damage was avoidable….if they actually cared about women.

    • It doesn’t matter what a doctor sees. No one can force you. You might have to stand your ground and be firm.

  27. i don’t like being touched either. i understand where you are comng from. i have asked for yrs for sedation always reused, lookd at like i am nuts. i ave yet to get any medical help. i decide i was was done tourting my self, no more gyn’s!
    i hope you find a solution and not suffer for yrs like i have

  28. I can so relate to all of this. I’ve never been raped, but it basically feels as if I have. It’s true, they hold birth control captive unless you get the exam. That’s not even giving me an option to consent to the exam! It’s more or less saying you can risk an unwanted pregnancy, horrible cramps, insane mood swings, depression and suicidal thoughts or be raped. It’s even become a sort of psychological rape for me at this point. My options are basically to arrive drunk or locate some Xanax to get through the exam, because that’s real healthy, that’s just want I wanted to be driven to…

    • Hi AM,
      Welcome to the forum.
      Things are changing, you could try another doctor, call first and check their requirements, the only clinical requirement is a blood pressure test and your medical history. You could take some references with you. I don’t know how many groups have to say these exams are not required for the Pill, before it sinks in with some doctors, I suspect some don’t want to hear it.
      If you’re American, in California you can buy the Pill over the counter, Oregon is not far behind….might be worth a trip.
      You can also, buy the Pill online…some of the women on this forum do that to avoid excess and pap test pressure.
      I’m so sorry you’ve been coerced into excess (breast and pelvic exams, pure excess that carries risk) and a screening test (pap) the law and proper ethical standards says is elective. So many women have been abused simply because they want the Pill.
      Don’t put yourself through more, make some enquiries and get the Pill another way. I hate to think of you getting drunk or taking Xanax to cope with something that should NOT be happening. Hopefully, these ugly days are drawing to a close.
      I’d also, consider writing a letter to your doctor explaining why you’ve changed your doctor, (if you do) that you know these exams were unnecessary and how they made you feel.

    • Hi Anx Mess. You must not submit to these exams anymore. Eliz is right you need to source them from elsewhere. But you must write to your doctor tellinb them how you feel. Only by more of us coming forward will things change. A few months sgo I started getting flashbacks when a practice nurse started going on about paps all thd time. I refused. I worry that a lot of young women will reach 50 as I have done and start having these flashbacks as well. Its a horrible thing that blights thd lives of women. You are right to liken them to rape. They are rape.

      • Linda you’re so right. I’ve posted I found smears painful humiliating and violating. I think I’ve consciously blocked it out after thinking after last time never again. I’m also realising how angry I am, that I never stopped it before, and ignored the invitations before finally sorting it. Then you feel you’re the only one feeling this way, it’s a regular routine test isn’t it?- then,you’re right, you turn to the the Internet and find out you’re not alone. Then feel sad for all the others. But comforted in the support we give each other.. May we all find our own way to healing x

      • Kat
        That’s why I hope we reach those women who can’t face any more, who’ve walked away and hide from this program. I hate to think of women living in fear, when the risk is so small and they’re probably not even at risk. (HPV-) I also, want to catch women before the testing starts so they can make an informed decision from the start.
        For the first group of women, well, it usually means every time an awareness month rolls around, these women have to block it out, they may feel anxious and afraid. Every article about an UNscreened woman dying “unnecessarily” from cc and urging you to get screened, makes them even more anxious. This was THEIR plan, to isolate and terrify “non-compliant” women, make an example of them.
        It’s a very different matter when women have the evidence, it puts risk in perspective, it puts the individual woman in control, you can act on real information, not fear, emotion or propaganda. A woman who’s very worried (often after a traumatic treatment or biopsy) about her non-screening status, might choose to self-test, find she’s HPV- and knowing what that means, can then confidently walk away from the program…and hopefully, finally, get on with her life.
        It saddens me to think so many women live a sort of half-life, living around this testing, dreading the next “invitation” whether that comes through the post or delivered by an opportunistic GP.
        I’m mindful of these women, that’s all the motivation I need to go out and look for them, some WILL turn to the internet to look for real information. Once that wasn’t possible, so these women lived in fear and dreaded the next time they might be “captured” by this program. Now thankfully, most women have access to the internet and real information.

      • Elizabeth, I am eternally grateful to you for finding me. I was never in to social media before, and had posted on a health website for the first time, when I realised I was facing gyn treatment. I was amazed to get your reply inviting me to this site. So glad you found me. My education about these matters has soared and continues to do so still. I am sure there are many women out there who have also opted out of screening, but not having had any problems, don’t realise there are sites like this one. A while ago, we had a student nurse from the UK on here. I am now convinced that this site is under the surveillance of the NHS and being used for “training purposes”.

      • We are so lucky these days to have the Internet, so there is no excuse for not doing a quick search and getting some facts. It is much easier today than a few decades ago when one had to dig through books in the library! The medical profession often cautions against using “doctor Google”, but there is nothing wrong in trying to get the true facts rather than being fed medical bull$hit.

        I found these numbers and logical conclusions on . I hope the author doesn’t mind me reposting it here, and I also hope these hard-fact numbers will help to ease many women’s anxiety that peaks during the CC awareness month (aka CC bull$hit and scare-mongering month). No fear-mongering, emotional scare campaigns or propaganda can beat pure maths!

        … Take the long-standing obsession of Australian health care system — pap smears. It really is an obsession, to the point that it makes women feel like their bodies have the only organ — cervix, because no matter what the reason of their visit to the doctor was — be it a broken arm or inflamed tonsillitis— the women are asked when they had the last pap smear and pestered to have the next one of they are “due”. (Once the women get older, they add breasts to their anatomy, as they start being pestered about mammograms and breast cancer, despite the research showing that the radiation and pressure from mammograms may cause or aggravate that very cancer). The hype around pap smear screening deceives women into thinking that cervical cancer is a rampant disease and should be the focus of their health care, diminishing the importance of much more common and dangerous health problems. Pro-screening doctors never tell women that the lifetime risk of developing cervical cancer is only 0.68%. Neither they tell that for those who regularly submit to routine pap smears, the lifetime risk of being sent to further investigations, painful cervical biopsies and undergo harmful “treatments” for false positives or minor cervical abnormalities that would otherwise heal on their own is shocking 77% [Kavanagh A M, Santow G, Mitchell H, “Consequences of current patterns of Pap smear and colposcopy use”, 1996]. Formally, these medical tortures are called “minor and simple procedures”, but one should try to imagine how they would’ve been called if anything of the like was performed on men. Most of those harmed-for-nothing women are misled to believe that they had a mortal illness and the “treatments” saved their lives. Simple maths show that this cannot be true. If it was true and the 77% of referred women were indeed treated for a mortal disease, the incidence of cervical cancer amongst the women who managed to avoid screening would be 77%, which is far from the truth, because according to the medical officials only about 60% of targeted women participate in pap-screening, and those 40% who don’t screen make up 3/4 of all cervical cancer cases. Which means that the highest possible risk for those who don’t screen is 1.275%, and the lowest possible risk for those who screen all their life is 0.283%, an therefore there is less than 1% difference in chance of getting the cancer no matter whether one screens or not. So, 77% or 1.275%? The difference reveals a huge mismatch between the truth and the brainwashing medical propaganda.

        “Invasive cervical cancer is a rare disease. The annual incidence was below 15 per 100,000 in Australia even before the National Cervical Screening Program began, but current screening is detecting some kind of abnormality in about 5000 women of every 100,000 screened” — Australian Institute of Health and Welfare statistics (2003) given to medical professionals in the cervical cancer screening guidelines. “Cervical cancer is the second most common cancer in women worldwide” — this is what women are told to get them into screening. A bit of a difference, isn’t?

        To add insult to an injury, according to the same medical officials, “up to 90% of the most common form of cancer of the cervix could be prevented if women had pap smears every two years”, which means that pap smears are even more useless for less common types of cervical cancer, and that more than 10% women with cervical cancer got the disease despite having all the pap smears, and probably ignored early symptoms due to erroneous reassurance given by the unreliable test. Which brings us to the final score: 77% of those having regular pap smears are harmed for nothing and 10% with cancer are missed by the regular pap smears. Now, how many women are offered to make an informed decision to take part in this screening program to reduce their risk of cervical cancer by less than 1%, with 77% chance of being harmed for no benefit? None! Every woman is ordered she “must screen because it saves lives.”

        One may ask, why is the truth so skewed and twisted? Because it is easier and cheaper for the system to butcher 77% healthy women than to treat 0.68% with cancer, and hiding the truth is the only way to make the population comply. There is also too much politics around women’s health care these days. And, perhaps, the astonishing amount of painful and harmful (but very quick, cheap and simple for doctors to perform) “treatments” makes it look like pap smears really save lives, and so the screening program keeps going on, securing medical employment and keeping female patients on a short leash and their reproductive organs under the government surveillance, which may sound ridiculous, but it is the only explanation why HPV-vaccinated women are told they must continue to get pap tests because the vaccine prevents only up to 80% of cervical cancers, Amazing, isn’t it? Pap smears that detect less than 90% of cancers and lead to harm of 77% of women are advertised as wonderful life-savers, yet the vaccine that can prevent 80% of cancers is not good enough to stop pap smears. Unless of course, the System rolled out a program it is still unsure about and needs to keep the guinea pigs coming to finish the research.

      • Heather, I agree with your comments, but I also, think we horribly over-screen and engage in a LOT of over-treatment because it makes a fortune for vested interests. These people are advising the Govt and the program, so they’re in the best place to take advantage and shape/influence the program to best serve their interests. It means worrying and harming a lot of women, but they couldn’t care less, it can be dismissed as, “saving lives” or “sadly, we can’t tell what lesions will progress so we have to treat everyone”…not that anyone challenges the program in this country anyway.
        When the Kavanagh et al study came out, I thought, FINALLY, we’ll do something about this harmful program, will it prompt more research? Will it get into the papers?
        No, No and No, I couldn’t believe this study went by without causing a ripple, it’s often referred to in later research, safely locked behind pay walls, but it wasn’t concerning enough to make immediate changes to the program or warn women. I found that deeply concerning and still do…

        We also, got the ridiculous nonsense that the Finnish program is irrelevant to Australia. (The Finns have MUCH less screening and have achieved better results)
        We were told, “you can’t compare Finland to Australia, we’d have to do our own research before making any changes, our program has been hugely successful, we don’t want to mess with that….”
        Successful? For whom, certainly not women. The evidence is the evidence, except when vested interests don’t like the sound of it. We’re told 7 pap tests (the Finnish program from the 1960s) would be inappropriate here because we have high risk groups, including some aboriginal communities. This doesn’t hold water either, high risk women don’t benefit from over-screening. (now we know you’re either at risk or not, HPV+ or HPV-) Over-screening provides no additional benefit to women, but greatly increases the risk of a false positive and the ugliness that so often follows. The Finns start screening at age 30, we’re told, FAR too late, “quite a few young women have lesions”.
        The evidence does not support screening before age 30 and definitely not before 25. Young women produce the most false positives. We’re not that stupid, we understand the evidence, what we’re doing to young women, (all women) but they know most women can’t see through their “concerns”.

        So it seems to me everyone feeds off this program and with women firmly in the dark, they could easily ignore the Kavanagh et al study or make weak excuses. (usually in medical journals when someone mentioned less testing) I was surprised to see that study because I don’t believe any research that might negatively affect the program would be funded and supported. (read: put women off testing, read: anything that informs women)
        We have virtually no research on the number of excess cone biopsies, the number of women harmed by these treatments, how many go on to have premature babies? Needed cervical cerclage etc. They don’t want to know, they couldn’t care less. We have heaps of funding though to ponder why some don’t have pap testing etc.

        So I believe the new program will once again throw young women under the bus, HPV testing before 30 is a firm NO-NO, basic research is all you need to do to confirm that evidence, BUT we’ll ignore that and test women from age 25.
        Again, we’ll do FAR too much testing, and they’ll be no self-testing unless you’re informed and pay for it yourself or refuse the invasive HPV test for 6 years.

        Huge profits have been made from this testing, excess colposcopies, biopsies and over-treatment, they’ll fight to keep as much of that in place as possible. Our program is a commercial and political exercise that worries and harms a lot of women, I call it medical abuse.
        We’ll extend breast screening, forget the damning evidence (that mounts ever higher) that the risks of screening exceeds any benefit. I’m sure vested interests are drooling at the thought of even more over-diagnosis.
        There’s a reason we continue to ignore the evidence and often act against it, it’s better for those who benefit from these programs…and that’s certainly not women.

      • Ada,
        I’m very pleased our paths crossed, you’re an informed woman, but more than that, you’re now an absolute authority on the subject. NHS v Ada, the fight hardly seems fair!
        This is the thing, all of their tactics, slogans, campaigns fall flat with an informed woman/audience.
        I love the fact there are now more informed women out there, challenging these programs and warning other women. I think the NHS, AMA and others must be very concerned about this forum and the increasing number of negative comments appearing elsewhere….I’m sure they can also, feel something is happening, and that spells trouble for these them and their precious programs.

      • Ada re: your comment about this site becoming an NHS training ground: I highly doubt they would be so innovative, or they would have the means… but who knows. One thing is for sure, the design of the focus group research that has gone into the making of the crying boy smear test poster is now offline, which is a shame, because I intended to write about it and publish my writing, and I don’t have a saved version of the site.

      • Elizabeth, I couldn’t agree more! That nonsense about the Finnish program being irrelevant to Australia has been irking me for years. Their mantra “you can’t compare Finland to Australia, we’d have to do our own research before making any changes, our program has been hugely successful, we don’t want to mess with that…” doesn’t hold any water. Are Finnish women different species or what?

        At the same time, the Australian government is not worried about quickly implementing the privacy-violating and spying programs in telecommunications, copying them in a flash from USA. They didn’t need any research for bringing mass surveillance to Australia! It just proves that they will twist and turn the law and their promises depending on what fits their agenda. [Another reason to avoid they myHR/eHealth lake a plague!]

    • Anxious Mess: (WARNING: Long Post Ahead)

      It seems to actually be illegal for them to force you into these exams to get birth control & you might try bringing that up. It believe the technical term would wind up being something like “coercive iatrogenic assault & reproductive endangerment.” Properties don’t change by designation, just like how it’s still murder if a doctor poisons someone with a needle. This is an interface with sexual areas (specifically, a penetrative one) as a product of someone else’s decision-making, which is an attack. It really doesn’t have to be a conventional variation to take place. If you want to REALLY get wordy about things, you could phrase it as “a third-party comportment of a situation that generates visual access to or physical contact with sexual areas.”

      One woman on here was actually able to get them from her psychiatrist- maybe that’s who you get the Xanax from? I don’t know where people get that. At the very least, you might try telling them that you want it in writing that they won’t give you these pills unless you let them probe you. Recording things can be a good idea, but check the laws on that first.

      Keep in mind that anything at all can be sanctioned & you’re only dealing with actions, anyway. Cops do a lot of things that run along these or similar lines or simply get doctors & nurses to it for them. A lot of people don’t realize that plenty of police responses include some amount of imposed nudity and/or penetration, with or without coerced participation- this includes “just sorting things out,” instead of being limited to when someone is convicted of something . Plus, they seem VERY quick to side with subtle attack.

      Then again, it doesn’t always go this way. Someone can’t very well say “what happens isn’t what occurs” while still looking credible or even sane, so it might work out in a courtroom- if it even got that far. What’s someone going to do? Say that reality takes a coffee break for medical personnel?

      It seems with “people” that get pushy with things like this, a big thing can just be sustained resistance. This applies with more conventin aggression, as well. Think about it: if someone like that whole “taking a sledgehammer to a teacup” kind of thing, wouldn’t it be againt their tastes in situations if someone was counteractive? If nothing else, it generates more of an obstacle than NOT generating an obstacle.

      • Heather and any other Australians,
        Have you managed to opt out of ehealth?
        I went to the website and went around in circles for 20 minutes, I know they often do that so people give up, trying to make a complaint against a doctor can be difficult too, trying to find the right procedure/dpt.
        The Govt recently made it opt out, presumably because too few were opting in…more of the same. Honestly, some think we’re very relaxed down here, when the reality is, control from above keeps coming. The pressure to screen, the pressure to breast feed, the pressure to have HPV vaccination, don’t smoke (say that 100 times) etc. etc.
        I don’t smoke, never have, but at this point, I almost feel sorry for smokers. Last time I checked smoking was still legal, like drinking alcohol…but as far as the Cancer Council is concerned, there is NO safe level when you drink alcohol, another legal activity.
        So pour your evening or weekly glass of wine down the sink…advice I won’t be following.

  29. Hi Kat. The internet is a very powerful thing isn’t it. I would never have found the women I have found anywhere else. I am so very angry at the system but mostly angry at myself for allowing it. I just have just said No. Why didn’t I? At least we can get comfort in the fact other young women will read these posts and have the knowlegde and strength to say, No,

    • Linda.. Don’t be hard on yourself. It’s very very hard to challenge a doctor or nurse, we are taught they are there to help us. Some of us are in awe of their supposed learning. As women we are brought up to? Do as we’re told? Or fed crap about our responsibility to family ( my mum missed her smear test)
      I knew I’d not be thrown in jai or sacked for refusing to smear but it was very hard for me to finally come out and say NO! I avoided the invitations but as I posted it was only this year I finally opted out and I was nervous.
      We had the courage to end the torture is what counts and you, and Elizabeth, should be very proud of what you do and just look!! At all these women you are reaching and helping

  30. Elizabeth, can’t see a reply button for your above posts. I’ve just dug out the Kavanagh article, “Embodied risk: my body, myself”, so that’s my reading for tonight. Is that the one you are referring to?

    You are right that the whole programme is one huge experiment, which needs vast numbers to comply because the disease is so rare. I think that the reason the UK (England, Wales, Scotland) has such different screening ages is so that they can compare the differences in HPV vaccination with those not vaccinated. Scotland will not jump to age 25 at first screen until May 2016. It is currently age 20, but if you are aged 20 in Scotland now, you will still be called for your next test at age 23 and not 25. You will not be allowed to wait 5 years as it messes up their experiment. They raised the screening age in England in 2008, so they’ve had plenty of time to implement this in Scotland, but they didn’t, even though the test was proven to be harmful for under 25’s.

    I’ve also seen many research papers looking at HPV prevalence in paps taken from women aged under 25 in Scotland in the cohort just before vaccination began and in the the following cohort, which had been vaccinated. This testing hasn’t been possible in England until this year because the screening age doesn’t start until age 25, so they are using the Scots as a test to be able to identify early on the impact the vaccine is having. That’s why they didn’t want to raise the screening age earlier. It gives them groups of women to carry out experiments on. Nothing to do with real health care. If there was a real medical need the same age would have been implemented across the UK years ago.

    • Hi Ada
      No, I was talking about this article: “Consequences of current patterns of Pap smear and colposcopy use”
      It was this article that finally gave me the figure I’d wondered about for many years, especially after watching so many young women heading off for colposcopy, scared to death their days were numbered.
      This study stated that the lifetime risk of colposcopy (and usually a biopsy) for a woman following our program was just under 77%
      I couldn’t believe that figure, it still shocks me all these years later, how in your right mind could you do colposcopy and biopsies on so many women as a result of screening for a fairly rare cancer? 77% v 0.65%…madness.
      If you speak to women my age, you won’t doubt that figure, it certainly seems like MOST women had at least a colposcopy and biopsy, and some went on to have a cone biopsy or other treatment. How many went on to a cone biopsy? I don’t know. How many had a normal cone biopsy? Don’t know.
      My younger sister was told by her specialist that for every 50 cone biopsies, one turned out to be necessary, the rest were false positives. My sister’s highly abnormal pap test was probably caused by a new brand of tampons causing irritation/inflammation. My sister had no idea so many things could cause an abnormal result. Her cervix was damaged and she was told she might have trouble if she got pregnant.

  31. I was so desperate to talk to someone a few months ago, that I talked to my mom’s pastor’s wife. She works in an ob/gyn clinic. I knew I had to be careful with her because obviously she sees nothing wrong with it. She tried to explain that childbirth is not humiliating and how natural it is. I’m thinking she just doesn’t get it! Childbirth itself is a beautiful thing. It’s all these procedures and exams that make it unpleasant and sometimes traumatizing. Anyway, she told me about a girl in her early 20s that came in for her first exam and cried all the way through it. The girl wouldn’t tell them what was wrong, and I guess they never thought the poor girl felt violated or humiliated maybe. I told her that I had found multiple websites of women that felt just like me, but I don’t think she really got what I was trying to say. I told her many women are too afraid to speak out about how they feel. I just don’t see how even the nurses can go home feeling good about their work when they were apart of so many women’s pain. I’m not nursing now, but when I was in school, they taught us that medicine should be holistic, to take care of the total person. Well, if a woman walks out humiliated and traumatized, that’s not holistic medicine if they don’t care about her emotional and psychological well being. Let’s just say women were at a great risk for cervical cancer, they should consider our feelings and make an attempt to create a better way. My husband still thinks doctors are wonderful. He was a little more compassionate the other night though. He suggested that maybe if I contacted the one involved in my delivery that it might help me to heal. I had been thinking the same thing. The nurse that I have written about goes to my mom’s church. Btw, is the same church type of church that I grew up in, but I cannot go there because of her. We went out to eat the last few weekends and saw her. My heart raced and I felt that same humiliation. I couldn’t even look at her. Well, we know a lot of the same people. I found her on facebook, and private messaged her. She probably thinks I am insane, and maybe I am. I told her a little about how I was feeling and that maybe it would help to talk to her. I thought it might help to let her know how it made me fee. At least maybe she could do things differently with the next patient. It’s been a few nights now and still haven’t heard back from her….

    • Hi Laurie,
      I think you are doing the right thing to let the nurse know how you feel. I think more of us should be speaking out against the practice of medical people helping themselves to the most private parts of our bodies. I was assaulted by my doctor who forced a pap on me weeks after the birth of my first baby. It brings me to tears now just thinking about it 18 years later. A couple of years ago I wrote to this doctor in great detail about this assault and how it made me feel. I’ve never heard anything since. I think these people are shocked and troubled when you confront them about it, and not getting back to you is a sign they feel guilt. If you’d accidentally hurt someone, you’d automatically want to apologise and put things to rights, wouldn’t you? I think the more of us who speak up about these assaults and even go public about it, the more we will get this stopped.
      By not saying anything, things will continue. I’m sure this nurse is feeling very guilty right now, and is wondering how to get herself out of this corner.

      • Thanks Ada. I had already been thinking about it when he suggested it. I had another nurse also, so may maybe I can at least talk with her.

    • Laurie: Not to be nasty, but why would you think these people would be motivated to help you? They’ve already harmed you. This would be like asking a husband that just gave you a black eye to get you an ice pack.

      I fully believe they know what they cause & that they love it. They (and others) get off on the theory of usurpation of reality through discretion- they basically feel that they imbue a situation with extantness & make something non-existant despite its existANCE. More accurately, they like the FEEL of this non-existant situation, so they do things that are congruent with it to get a high.

      A major point is that they tend to feel mentally superior. They think that what comes from them is an “A” and what comes from everyone else is a “B” (at best), and that because of this what comes from them overrides what comes from someone else. It’s like a boxing match where they are both opponent & referee, at least in their own heads.

      The concept that they are wrong about something is not congruent with the greatness they feel, so not only will they be unlikely to catch their own mistakes- they won’t have any ability to see something they are doing being of a “stop-worthy” consistency. If nothing they do is wrong, then there’s no reason to stop.

      You know how guys (especially young guys) will goad someone else into doing something by implying they’re chicken & saying “What? You’re not SCARED, are you?”? Like that, but with more of a grading dynamic. If said aloud, it might be something like this: “What? You’re not WRONG, are you? You’re not something that can be THAT way, right?”

      Considering that someone that looks to cause problems would look to embed themselves in a situation that is associated with doing the opposite, since the incongruency would provide a camouflaging effect- I think it’s pretty likely that these people are doing exactly what they set out to do.

      My stance is that they are simply playing stupid in a different way when subtly attacking someone gets brought up. They’re not too likely to say anything that warns people of “medical menace,” because an it sabotages the effort. If someone “from that side” were to actually alert people to these things, the whole group would have a hard time ambushing people.

      Another thing is that “proof by indication” isn’t typically trusted as much as a confession is. I think some people tend to rely on someone confession, simply because it’s easier to just listen to something than it is to make deductions. There’s also people that seem to be quite excited by seeing someone “repent.” It’s like some dramatic “good overcame evil” scene for them.

    • I think that nurses who go along with this may have been brainwashed, too – remember, most of them are women themselves, so they’re pressured for paps along with the rest of us.

      I’m guessing that on some level it doesn’t even faze them when people get upset during procedures, because they’ve been trained to think that’s a part of the business. You give a kid a shot or a blood test, they cry, but it’s for their own good. Etc. I know that now there’s a lot more of a push to get painful procedures such as bone marrow biopsies and spinal taps done under anesthesia or sedation – before, it was always just “well, YES, it’s going to hurt and be unpleasant, but you need it.” So I think that for a lot of nurses, they view paps and pelvics and colposcopies the same way.

      There isn’t a lot of thought as to the psychological harm that medical procedures can do to adults, or even that they might need reassurance. My Mom had major surgery last year and was in the ICU for a few weeks. None of the nurses there even considered for a moment that the woman in the bed might be really frightened about everything happening to her. They’d walk up and start taking blood or fussing with her lines and not even speak to her. One of them was actually annoyed when I sat there and explained all the sounds she was hearing and the tubes she had, because they were scaring her. Every time the nurse came over and did something I’d ask what was happening, and she got pissed off. I ended up going to the head nurse and saying “this is my Mom. She’s a human being. I WILL stay with her and explain things to her, and these nurses WILL remember there’s a person in that bed.” And they ended up changing my mom’s ICU nurse to another one who was a LOT nicer and really went out of her way to explain what was going on. The only other one who even thought to work with her was one of the chaplains (from a very liberal religious group), who gave her a pen and paper so she could write things down.

      I think this is something that they should really be working with medical professionals about, extensively. They’re not just treating bodies, they’re treating real people with real emotions and pain.

      And in terms of paps/pelvics/etc. more nurses and doctors should read up on the fact that they’re really not needed, so they could advocate for their patients. When doctors and nurses recommend and aggressively push unnecessary procedures it absolutely does show that they’re not interested in their patients as people, and it also shows that they are not staying current with the most up to date medical information.

      • Diane you are absolutely right about the nurses. In the UK the screening programme is pushed that a single test could save your life. We hear that everywhere and the charities are forever going on about it. Not having a test is compared to a form of suicide and instant death. I can clearly remember being told when I refused a pap: “Oh so you want to die do you? Can you imagine how your children would feel if you told them that?” The assumption has always been drummed into women that death is the only alternative if you refuse a pap, so they feel justified in carrying out any amount of pain to spare you this. It is no different to those who carry out FGM as they also believe they are doing it in the woman’s own best interests.
        I was sorry to hear that you mother was treated so poorly in hospital. I also had a bad time last year here in the UK, but the nurse also gave me a pen and paper to write down my questions, and the consultants did come round to answer them afterwards, although not as thoroughly as I would have wished.

      • Ada, I’m sorry about what you went through too! And with the nurse who tried to pressure you into a pap by bringing up the “you’re going to die” chestnut and mentioning your children — funny how often they do that. They try to guilt women out by making them believe they’re failing their families if they don’t get the tests. Like that NHS poster last year or so with the little boy who was crying because his Mum missed a pap and died. They try to go for the emotional angle.

        In thinking about this more, I think that another thing is that medical professionals do *not* take pain seriously and they tend to downplay it. Or they think that if one patient has a pain free experience the next one will, too. There’s no acknowledgment that people have different pain thresholds. How many times have we seen descriptions of procedures that say it will be “mildly uncomfortable” or “have some pressure” and then when you ask people who had the procedures, they tell you it was horrendously painful? Or the doctors think the pain is acceptable because it will be short in duration? It’s not. That’s the defense they give for endometrial biopsies — and I know someone who had one who told me that the pain was so severe she passed out on the table.

        Another anecdote from my Mum in the hospital: when she needed to have a certain procedure, she asked for pain meds first. The doctors (who were stupid residents) were all huffy and kept saying “this shouldn’t hurt.” The nurse who was with my Mum that day was the good one, and she asked them, “and how many times have *you* had this procedure done that you know it’s not painful?” She managed to get the doctors to back off until my Mum got her pain meds. If she wasn’t there I might have ended up calling the attending or the patient advocate.

        I read an anecdote of a doctor who had a bone marrow biopsy to see what it was like — and after that, he always, always ordered sedation and pain meds for anyone who was going through that procedure. Because he had seen for himself that it hurt.

      • When they started the “do it for your family” thing in the US, showing a woman with children, husband, siblings, and parents in the picture, it seemed rather creepy. How is being probed and prodded going to in any way benefit them? Even if you go along with “you’ll die without paps”, there are plenty of other ways women can and do die – auto accidents being the #1 killer of young women, on top of a myriad of other things which are far more likely to kill a young woman than cc.

      • Diane
        My SIL had a bone marrow biopsy many years ago, she worked as a nurse/midwife (before she retrained) and knew it was a very painful procedure. So she demanded pain relief, I can’t recall what they gave her, some sort of sedative, no pain was the result. It wasn’t a huge inconvenience, add 10 minutes to the procedure. She regularly heard people screaming out in pain during that procedure.
        It means everyone should be offered pain relief and warned ahead of time that some people find the procedure painful.
        I think they tell women these procedure are minor, painless etc. so women will assume there is something wrong with them if they find it painful/intolerable. That’s the standard response, “it’s painless and maybe, a bit uncomfortable”…”you might experience mild cramping”…they TELL us.
        I’ve also, heard that some scoff at women who find pap testing painful and make comments like, “wait till she has a baby”…”does she have children?”
        How is that relevant? Because women might have a child, why should that mean we have to put up with pain when self-testing is available or pain relief? Is it some sort of punishment for women?
        Honestly, it comes down to the unacceptable attitudes that exist in women’s healthcare, we have to complain, object, refuse…over and over…until they get the message, treat me with respect, as an individual, and don’t TELL me how I should feel.

      • I’m so glad that your sister insisted on getting pain relief for her bone marrow biopsy, Elizabeth. From what I have read about that procedure, it’s absolutely barbaric that offering people pain control and sedation would not be standard practice. I mean, when you have a tooth filled they numb it up and will even sedate you if you’re antsy, usually. If you’re having a procedure where a doctor is literally using a mallet to drive a needle through your hip bone, they don’t?! It’s horrific.

        And that is such an excellent point – I think you’re 100% right that it’s all an illustration of how women are invalidated and treated without respect in healthcare settings. If they tell you a procedure just causes “mild cramping” and you faint on the table from the pain, well, they will chalk it up to your being as “hysterical female.” I have read a bunch of articles on studies that have said that women actually tolerate pain better than men but are less likely to have their pain appropriately treated and validated by healthcare professionals.

        And yeah, what does having a baby have to do with ANY other type of pain? Not to mention that expecting that every woman even wants to have a child is way off the mark for these doctors. And a lot of pain and distress that women experience during childbirth in maternity wards is, again, often due to the trauma they endure at the hands of the healthcare professionals who are supposed to be helping, but instead treat them like pieces of meat and don’t recognize their rights to dignity and respect. There’s a lawsuit happening in the States right now with a woman who was given an episiotomy during her child’s hospital birth even though she clearly said both before and during the birth that she didn’t want one. The doctor cut her twelve times.

  32. Hi All. I think a lot of women on this site are carrying trauma around with them. Contacting the nurses who do this to us is a good idea. Eliz said another woman here wrote to hers as a way of healing. I think I will go with this approach to tho my old doc and his nurse are both retired they visit the same garden centres I do. When I see them I always say hello as if everything was Ok in my world. They have no clue in hell how I really feel. They both live their lives happy that they saved mine and many other lives. They probably think having their hands and tools in my vagina is a small price to pay. They would be amazed to know that I carry trauma with me because looking back I should have been asked if I wanted smears. They tricked me really because I wanted the pill and kept ghe pretence up for twenty five years even tho they could see I was upset. Are they really healers? NO!
    If the Nhs and the American equiv just had smears as a choice that women could have if they wanted them. As much as we are against this testing there are huge numbers out there who think they are brilliant. Some of them have been hoodwinked by the system but there are still women who would want them even with the full facts. It should always be about choice otherwise the Nazis actually won the war all along and we only pretend we did.

    Why destroy the peace of mind of one half of the human race?
    I need this site so much writing and communicating with you all everday is my way of healing.


    • Hi Linda,
      That’s horrific that you sometimes see your ex doctor and nurse when you are out. I never have mine – maybe they know how angry I am with them and they keep out of my sight!
      As you say, they don’t seem to have any idea how women feel about this whole business, and I do think that the more of us speak out the better. For too long, those who don’t seem to mind them have had the upper hand. Of particular annoyance to me are Julietta Patnick and Jane Wardle, both in charge of screening programmes who regularly write about how “women love their screening and that they couldn’t reduce the programmes if they tried, because it would be so unpopular with women, who love them so much”. Yes I have actually read them spew this vomit in academic documents. Jane Ellison, MP also spoke at the select committee into screening last year that she has never heard of “any women being pushed against their will into screening, so the incentives aren’t a problem at all”. There is a huge mismatch in what women think of screening, and what they think women think of screening.
      We have been quiet for too long, and I think it is important that we let people know what we think of screening. Margaret has done a marvellous job with her website, and there are a lot of good doctors out there who are in agreement with her. She has given us all the encouragement to speak out, and she has also said that it is up to women themselves who need to push for change.
      We really need to shame these people for what they have done to us.

      • Hi Ada. I don’t know what i’d do without you. I think you and Eliz have saved me. I will be forever greatful. The reason you never see your doctors is becasue they probably only go outdooors wearing fake beards and dark glasses!!!!! Lol.

    • Linda- I don’t think applying the choice rhetoric here about women still wanting their smears makes much sense. After all, we are talking about decades of aggressive brainwashing and emotional blackmail. How far would publishing the facts on some website enable real choice?

      • Consent cannot be validly given in the face of years/decades of lies which include aggressive brainwashing and emotional blackmail. That is fraud by deception. Accessing one’s sexual organs through deception, when such access would not have been permitted otherwise, is still rape.

      • Hi. Oh yeah i dont know why i wrote that sorry i must have had a brain freeze. What i would like to do to those who invented smear tests is illegal and i would end up in a maximum security wing of a special hospital. I get so angry i don’t know what im saying or writing some days. X

      • I’ve listened to them lie to women for decades and watched the manipulation and coercion. I’ve always felt the only women who can make an informed decision about pap testing (and mammograms) are the women who do their own research, and look beyond the propaganda. (brochures, Screening Authority websites etc.)
        It’s not informed to just do as you’re told without a clue about the risks and actual benefits of the test or your own risk profile. (now that would be HPV- or HPV+)
        If you listen to women passionate about screening, very few have made an informed decision to screen, they’ve either accepted the official discourse or they’ve been “treated” and consider themselves survivors, almost all have simply been over-treated.
        Not many informed women would have pap testing without first testing for HPV, not many informed women would test before 25 or 30 etc. Some women call for earlier screening because they or someone they know died from cc at 22 or 25, but an informed woman would understand you could start screening at 16 and these same very rare cases would occur, you’d just end up harming a lot of teenagers.
        Get past the emotion and propaganda to the evidence – then you can make an informed decision.

      • “Some women call for earlier screening because they or someone they know died from cc at 22 or 25, but an informed woman would understand you could start screening at 16 and these same very rare cases would occur, you’d just end up harming a lot of teenagers.”

        An informed woman who knew someone who died of cc in their early 20s would know that nearly all of the cancers which (quickly) kill young women very quickly are not the squamous cell cancers which pap smears can detect. In fact, many of those young women who die of cc had a negative pap smear within the past year.

        You’re right. Early pap screening would end up harming a lot of teenagers, and not save a single life.

      • Linda
        I was chatting to a woman online (she might end up here) and she said something very interesting, she remembers EVERY detail of the 4 pap tests she was forced to have, it was coercion during a consult for the Pill. EVERY detail is seared into her brain, while other consults have blurred over time, these remain sharply in focus. She remembers how she felt during the “capturing” stage, when she gave in to the pressure, during the exam, the doctor’s smugness, how she felt as she left the Clinic, how she felt the following day, week, month…all these years later.
        I recall an attempted assault when I was about 21 in sharp detail, it was a traumatic and terrifying experience. (thankfully, I got away and was physically unharmed) I put my experience and her experience in the same category, VERY bad experiences tend to stay with us, especially when the attacker gets away scot free or in the case of pap tests, is congratulated and rewarded for capturing another woman.

  33. I’ve got to ask: Do women think they’re killing this other woman who “might have been saved” or is it just thinking that they’re going to die?

    I know a man doesn’t think he’s going to get testicular cancer just because he’s a male. Same with getting shot in a war. Same with getting stabbed to death in prison. These things are associated with males, too- but no one seems to think they are going to happen just because the guy IS a guy.

    • Has anyone seen what. They’re planning in Manchester UK? Apparently smear uptake is mega low there so they are planning postcards of smiling mancunian women “you wouldn’t miss picking your kids up from school / attending job interview ect so please don’t miss your smear it only takes seconds and could save your life “. I’m going to find the vomit bucket now!

  34. This is a copy of a letter that I haven sent to two health trusts in the U.K. today.

    Dear Sir/Madam,
    Re: Dr T – Consultant Gynaecologist
    I was saddened to learn that this ‘doctor’ is still practising and is currently a University Hospital Lewisham. I think for the sake of other women and young girls that I need to speak up about the treatment I received at his hands in the 1980s at the Hospital.
    I went for colposcopy following an abnormal smear in 1987. I was 22 at the time (I am now 51). Once at the hospital I was told in no uncertain terms to , “Get my knickers off now” by the nurse. Dr T inserted the speculum whilst I was in stirrups and then left the room leaving me to a trainee, who then also left the room leaving me very distressed and in considerable discomfort. On his return (I had no covering at all and was completely naked from the waist down), he proceeded to ‘interrogate me saying,
    “Had lots of boyfriends have you?”
    and then
    “I expect you’ve had genital warts.”

    To both things I said, “No”. Without any further explanation or discussion about treatment, he took a biopsy saying, “This will only take a minute”, which he did and blood flooded onto the floor. He then stuck a tampax into my vagina, walked out of the room and that was it. There was no other discussion about what the treatment might be. I left shaking and on the verge of fainting.
    Sadly, I was convinced by my then G.P. who I didn’t know me at all because I had only just left home to go to university, to return and she would write a letter to him. I also felt under pressure to have the treatment and save my life as the biopsy was extremely abnormal. What could I do?
    On the second visit I took my Mum who Mr T very promptly shut up when she complained about his approach, him saying,
    “Yes, yes, yes.” In a very sarcastic manner.
    After having lazer treatment with my legs falling out of the stirrups at one point as they hadn’t been adjusted and again feeling terribly distressed, he rubbed his hand up the outside of my naked bottom and leg saying,
    “Still hate me eh?”
    I did try and write to the doctor who blamed the nurses for being, “Chauvinistic” and that no other women had ever complained.
    Needless to say what followed was a terrible mental collapse resulting in years of problems for me notwithstanding the fact that no doctor would talk to me about what happened at all. In which case, how could anyone help if they don’t know what the problem is. I now know however that I suffer from post traumatic stress disorder and have had flashbacks for the past 28 years. It was terribly sad; I had worked very hard to get to university and my life was in ruins.. I still suffer to this day and probably will do for the rest of my life now. As a note: I only realised that others had complained when I saw a snapshot of his suspension from the aforementioned hospital that occurred in 2000 (I read this in 2011), so that fact has not affected my writing of this letter today. However, I would say that a young girl that came out of the room before me was unsteady and gagging and vomiting; hence there must be many others in my situation. I do wonder how they fared?
    As a mother myself now I know that the behaviour of Dr T was wrong. However I know deep down that I feel it was all my fault and that I am in some way dirty/unclean having been so damaged by the experience.
    I do hope that you will use the above information wisely and I do wish that I could have spoken up before but it has taken me so long to even get to this point. Or have the courage to write. Everything I have said is absolutely true – and I will put my address and email address on this letter so that I am not considered as an anonymous nutcase. I also know that excuses will be made in many respects, however I have a right to have a say on this matter regardless of rules and regulations that authorities may adhere to. (Or indeed the passage of time – ironic as I still feel that I am trapped in that room to this date). I have paid into the NHS for 35 years and have been poorly treated.
    Yours faithfully

    Mrs Lock

    I would welcome any responses to what I have done if only for a bit of support.

    • Hi Laila,
      Thanks so much for sharing your story. I’m saddened to hear about what happened to you. I wanted to let you know I moderated the names that were included in your comment due to concerns about lawsuits. No one here would think you were an anonymous nut case, far from it.

    • Dear Laila,
      I was left feeling very sad and angry reading about what had happened to you. It is absolutely shocking that nowadays, with the screening age raised to 25, no-one aged 22 should ever be sent near a colposcopy clinic at all. The harm and distress caused by the NHS cervical screening programme has been completely swept under the carpet and disregarded. I know so many of us have complained about events way back in the past, and very little is ever done about it. There must have been many thousands of complaints about these doctors, but it is all kept secret from patients.

      I think our best course of action is to use social media to connect with other women who have suffered and make it known that these were real incidents which went on. Linda has talked about doing a book. Perhaps a website similar to this one based in the UK might get women to unite and expose what goes on, and stop this kind of treatment. During the 1990’s I was very badly treated by my GP and I have actually written to her recently outlining the pain and distress which she inflicted on me to “reach her screening target”, but she has failed to respond, which I take as a feeling of guilt on her part. I found the following article on Ian Treharne:

  35. Hi Laila. I’m so sorry about your experience it myst have been awful yes i will refer to it in my story. However you could write your own. The more of us that are vocal the more impact we will make. I’m so glad you found ths site, it has saved me.

  36. Hi laila. I am going on hol now for a week or so. I truly hope you will be ok. Its not easy but you have found us snd we are all here for you. Please get strength from all that you read here it will help you to know you are not alone. The nhs raped me as far as iam concerned and caused s lot of problems. Writing about it is really helpful. Post here as often as you can because it really helps. I believd every word of your story. I am thinking about you very much. You will be ok now no o e can hurt you anymore it will take time to fully recover as you have carried this awful pain for so long. Take care of yourself sister. X

  37. Thank you so much. It took a lot to write this down and have never told anyone about it – so feeling very rocky at the moment. Am going to have a day away to try and distract myself from it all. Lots of flashbacks unfortunately!!! It does help when other women understand, it truly does.

    • Laila. Respect to you you. Are amazingly strong. You never have to go through that again though it’s atrocious you ever did. We all of us here have our own story and we are all here for you and each other.! Thinking of u..

  38. I just saw on keven MD called pet goats and pap smears. I made the mistake of clinching it to see a smiling woman in stirups with a goat between her legs. It upsets me to see people making it into a joke and it upsets me to see woman up in stirups and smiling how degrading. I don’t know what that was about BC it disturbed me that I clicked off of it. I don’t know if any one goes on keven MD or has seen it.

    • Kleigh I couldn’t agree with you more. I’ve seen this book by Pamela Wible is available on Amazon and I was also greatly upset by the cover. The pap smear is a test for cancer, but it is portrayed as a cheeky fun thing to do. Do we see book covers with women laughing their way into MRI scanners, chuckling at the cheekiness of having a mammogram, or smiling their way through other tests for cancer? It makes me ill just looking at this photo. Just appalling.

    • I don’t even want to type that in! What was the article about? Did they just randomly throw two things together or what?

  39. I have arthritis in both of my hips and I don’t wish to get up on a table and expose myself, I don’t like removing my clothing it is too much for me to deal with. I don’t like wearing them damn gowns I feel uncomfortable wearing them. I also have bladder control issues which is not nice to deal with. What do I do to get the doctor to listen to me? I am a sexual assault survivor at that. I don’t want to be touched or have that speculum inserted into me that is what is the scare the shit out of me is going to be.

    • Hi Linda T.
      Welcome to the forum.
      You don’t have to endure anything you don’t want to. The women here don’t have unecessary intimate exams. We don’t see a need for them, especially pap tests. It doesn’t matter if you have loads of physical things wrong with you or you are completely well if you don’t want intimate exams you don’t have to have them. Arm yourself with all our arguments you find on this site and be strong.
      Doctors will want to give you paps even tho you have been assaulted. I’m afraid they don’t care about your emotions and the inner person you are , they believe that paps in that circumstance are warrented even more. They have even set up some ridiculous clinuc called ‘st Barts’ where they continue to rape vulnerable women.
      On this forum we give a lot of time to denouncing doctors but we should be very wary of practice nurses. These vile creatures will try to spring a pap smear on you at every opportunity so be particularly careful if you have to see one of these for anything. pap smears is a kind of religion to these little ‘despots’.
      If you go to the doctors take someone with you into the consult as they are less likely to make a lunge for your vagina if someone else is with you, or try to avoid doctors and look after you health via the internet. Its all they do anyway as they never gave a clue whats wrong with you until they’ve looked it up themselves. Get into natural remedies and self care.
      We are all here for you.
      I had to go to the doctors recently for sciatica. When I went I imagined that everyone here was in the consult with me. It gave me so much confidence that I remained in controll of everything and even got the pills i wanted having done my research on the internet already.
      Best wishes. Linda Z

      • Linda,
        Your set of conditions sounds similar to mine.

        To get them to stop with the pap crap, just say, “No”. You know why you are there. You continue to insist that they treat your (purpose of visit). If they continue to insist that you “have to have the pap”, you ask them, “Does the pap/pelvic have to do with my (purpose of visit)?” Or, “Does my (purpose of visit) exist inside my vagina?” If on the offchance that they somehow do, get them to put it in writing then sign it. Then RUN. Take it to the State and show that this person is incompetent. More likely, they’ll lay off it. If that doesn’t work, insist “I am here for (purpose of visit). I want, and am paying (or my insurance is paying) for you to evaluate and treat (purpose of visit). Your continued insistence for a pelvic/pap test, which I have refused now x times, appears to have no purpose other than to upcode the visit while failing to address my (purpose of visit). I will report this to insurance company and the state board of health/state licensing board.” Insurance companies or government payers do not appreciate having office visits extended/upcoded, and their costs increased in order to “sell” another procedure that costs a couple hundred dollars more, and is unrelated to any medical condition.

        Take someone with you. That is your right to have them with you and keep them with you. When they start the pap crap, they will most likely ask your friend/family member to leave. Make sure that they do NOT leave.

        I haven’t had a pelvic or pap test since 1998, when I saw through a very badly botched one, with an opportunistic follow-up visit offering me some real quack cure. Then, I learned what these are and are not – that I’d been lied to since I was a pre-teen, that these cause harm rather than “save lives”. Pelvic exams are unspecific and are clinically almost worthless for the diagnosis or treatment of any condition, cervical cancer is exceedingly rare (about 1:10,000 women per year in the US – lower in most other industrialized countries), paps have an unacceptably high false positive (as well as false negative) rate, making them almost useless. In fact, if someone has had a recent pap, it came out okay, and she has symptoms, she will be less likely to seek care, and her cancer could worsen just because she got the negative pap result, and she does not get actual medical care when needed. All of this pap crap sales job makes some women (myself included) less likely to seek medical care when indicated, posing health risks for other unrelated medical conditions.

      • On the subject of sciatica.. Can anyone give me any advice on joint pain and stiffness? I think it’s menopausal and don’t want to risk the doctor because obviously, to them it originates in my cervix so I need a smear..

      • Advice about looking into natural remedies and self care is spot on. When it came to my own bladder control issues, the internet was exactly where I went to instead of taking my urologist’s advice (he wanted to do pelvic mesh surgery). I discovered Kegel exercises (which really do work!) and bladder retraining. After a few months of doing Kegels and retraining on my own, I was better than ever. It went so well for me in fact that I ended up writing and self-publishing a short e-book on it. I had thought I had “overactive bladder” in my 20s, and in my mid-40s it had gone horrible awry. Now I’m left wondering if pelvic exams may have caused this harm to my bladder in the first place.

    • You have a friend here. I need a right knee total joint replacement. For me, the hell exists that my knee could lock, and I could find myself being taken from the stirrups to an ER, than to OR. Not good thoughts. So here’s a solution. I’m monogamous; being married now 30yrs. My husband found a solution. The doctors don’t care much for this; but I don’t care.

      Go online. This is a urine-based HPV test. It’s 93% vs 53% accurate pap. It’s coded for insurance payments. If you live in US, call 858-952-7570. Located in San Diego CA; PST. If you pay cash, $120. Your doc orders it. They deliver the test to his office. You p/u there. Next morning, save some of your first urine. You bottle & box it. Fed-Ex delivers it to them through their mailer. Simple. Two weeks, via antibody collection & PCR technology you have the results. If you’re positive, they tell you which strain. Unlike pap, where there’s so much human error to screw it up either way, this company does it right. This made me feel liberated and whole again.

      As we age, one would expect that docs would want to provide more intensive exams. Including a rectal. But no. As if we have cooties. But when attractive, skinny, and young? Doctors can’t seem to keep their hands outside our orifices. I remember receiving very thorough exams. The need to be thorough, ruling out everything, verifying the position of my uterus, double checking…both male & female doctors are guilty of this. Hope my advice helps.

  40. Hi Beth. On the two occasions I have been the docs since finding this site I take my phone in with me recording everything. I wouldn’t go in now unless I was doing that. There is no excuse for anyone now not to be recording the consult in this day and age. When I go in to schools the cameras are watching me for my safety so why shouldn’t I take care of my safety when I see a doctor or practice nurse. To not record these conversations is stupid.

  41. I had the worst pelvic exam today…I’m 31 and have had vulvar cancer… I’ve had several pelvic exams, I have to vet an exam every 6 months to check for cancer .. but this is the first one I’ve ever had that was done by a female Dr. Even after explaining to her about the scar tissue I have from surgery and radiation treatment, she was rough, and aggressive. My skin is prone to ripping and peeling and it felt like she didn’t use any lube… I went through medical menopause after cancer treatments but I am now bleeding heavy. I believe due to her ripping me during the exam. I literally screamed out in pain and the Dr didn’t stop even when asked. She just kept saying almost done… The nurse that was in the room acted like what was happening was completely normal. I know in my situation I need exams to make sure my cancer doesn’t come back, but I don’t ever want another one.
    I have had male drs who were more gentle and didn’t make me feel violated after an exam.. male drs explain the steps they are taking , and don’t make me feel uncomfortable.
    today I cried.. I feel violated. I just want to curl into a ball and rock my self to sleep.

    • I am soooo sorry. All I can do is pray. Where do you live? Using the word “vet” I don’t think it’s in the USA, but if so please tell me where. This female Mengele needs a letter and a complaint.
      Friends have told me of female doctor gyne providers who were extremely rough, quick, and having no compassion whatsoever. And the nurse? Proves what a bitch she is.
      My husband emphasizes over and over that every woman needs her lover, whatever the sex, in that room with her at all times. My gosh, is this ever a reason why.
      I’m sorry. For all your suffering.
      I’m a chronic pain patient. I know what you’re going through; although in fairness I’ve not had a fraction wrong in my vulva as you have. But I do know what assholes some doctors can be. When it’s our own sex? Even worse.
      Please, with your valid conditions, she must be taken down in public. Hope you are able to go to the media with this, whatever to warn others. I fear for the girl going in there her first time.

      • Yes I am in the USA.. vet was a typo oops .. it was supposed to be get.
        I had the Dr today refer me back to my oncology doctor. He was so much more gentle and understanding. It’s shameful to say that the female doctor I saw today was so inconsiderate and rough with me.. she has lady parts she should understand. I am making a full complaint against her and the nurse. I would of done it today but was so traumatized I didn’t want to spend another minute in the building… I ran out if there crying and struggling to catch my breath. Completely taken over by anxiety.
        As I said before I’ve been through lots of exams.. 2 pelvic exams a year for the last 6 years.. and I’ve never felt more violated… In the past my oncologist asked if I could have 4 medical students observe my exam for their teaching program… I agreed.. I was embarrassed but didn’t feel violated like I did today. I know I need exams and I understand the importance of them to screen for cancers… But they need to find a less abusive way to accomplish them.
        When I got home today I googled about being violated during pelvic exams.. and that’s how I found this blog, I’m mortified to find that I’m not the only one who feels traumatized by an exam. Something needs to change…
        I wish more women would speak out on the issue.. but unfortunately to many think it’s a normal routine experience.
        It’s not normal to feel violated, or leave the exam crying and struggling to breath.

      • We live in Southern CA; near San Diego. If you don’t want to share where you live, I’m cool with that. If it’s ok with you however, do you live near me?! If so, would you please coach me so I could somehow recognize the facility or office? So glad you’re filing the complaint.
        It’s interesting in how men can be better at performing a pap. Whether it’s compassion, respect, fear of consequences from a complaint, love of women for what we are, sometimes the opposite sex is better for an exam. I’ve heard of a female urologist in my area who’s very compassionate and pain conscious to men who trust her in her ability to do their vasectomies. She even gave Rx pain meds afterward most male practitioners recommend Tylenol.
        We discovered this site after my horrible experience having a uterine biopsy. Months ago I described it in detail. Cousins have reported to me their own sadly comparable experiences. No excuse for the lying we endure. Telling us to take two Advils 15 minutes before or claiming we can’t feel pain on our cervix’, or the BS that others don’t complain like do, or worse the excuse for ignoring our pain by saying “almost done, protect you from cancer, etc.” Or an office nurse telling fathers (accompanying their wives at the first visit) they “aren’t needed” in the rooms. Pisses us off big time!
        Once educated, my husband and I sat in my ob-gyn’s office watching the patients come/go. Women leaving, some wiping tears and staff members all giving them the customary nod. Others getting out in a hurry, wide eyes refusing to make contact with anybody, blushed faces, flustered. Believe their involuntary arousal zones were stimulated. And a lot mouths open in shock. So many emotions. Nobody there to support them. Nobody to explain the other side of decisions they are forced to make. I don’t like thinking what happens when they go home to face their spouses. Do they talk? Or keep it inside, suffering silently? Or do they take it out on their spouses? The latter is what drove my husband to insist he accompany me; even before our marriage.
        Another was my husband catching a doctor “checking me out” at a local Kaiser clinic right after our marriage before deciding to do a full exam. Doctor didn’t get his happy ending however. When my husband insisted in accompanying me, the doctor changed his mind re the exam!
        We came here for information after that bad uterine biopsy experience. We learned so much so fast. Alternatives to pap?! What?! Suddenly we began asking intelligent questions. Not being afraid to deny permission or demand analgesia. We found inspiration to research alternatives to pap; and found Trovagene. Then we forced my present doctor to prescribe it. My wide smile at finding liberation from the pap stirrups. Now we understand “informed consent.” Better than ever before. We are no longer afraid to challenge.

      • This is where we must get more militant, or put our words where our feet are. If a husband or advocate is present, then have a previously mutually agreed upon “word” ready to say. Something out of the way, but one which is easy to say and the meaning instantly recognized. So if said the friend, spouse, or advocate immediately goes into action. Getting into the doctor’s face, making noise, doing whatever necessary to stop the exam.
        Which is why I don’t like doctors trying to tell me they don’t want my husband near my vagina. They’d prefer he sit or hold my hand. I prefer he goes where he feels necessary; and watching what’s going on. He can always come hold my hand.
        The other is this. Once you say it, be immediately prepared to follow with action. Get loud and MOVE. Take your feet out of the stirrups, close your knees, sit up, or if they prevent pull up a leg as if you’re going to kick the practitioner in the face. If it gets to this point, what’s the difference between it and rape?
        If you’re told it won’t hurt, etc (we all know that BS lie), and it’s a horror beyond imagination, same thing. Do whatever you need from the above to make them stop. When you start moving or take your feet out any needles will be removed in a hurry. If you have a catheter inside your uterus, such as with the biopsy, this will at least make them stop.
        Then they’ll say the BS about “almost done,” which is another new BS lie. If the pain is that bad, and you were lied to like that, make the procedure rescheduled for a surgery center where you’ll receive IV sedation and narcotic analgesia plus local anesthetic. Make them spend money and time on you. Make them learn and respect you and your body.
        If you don’t follow through, then they have you where they want you. They know how far you can be pushed. If they make you cry, they know they can push farther and you’ll let them and tolerate same. Do they care who this gets vented on later? Nope. They will do it again and again. Not only to you, but to the next innocent, unsuspecting patient.
        Time to take care of ourselves, of our own.
        My husband’s best friend, the anesthesiologist, has showed his true colors. He has been caught lying now about pain during pap, lying about the procedure itself, and regarding surgery lying about all the “free” staring that goes on, the comments made about us that we can’t hear, plus the criminal violations such as groping that goes on. Seems he was awarded the “god” diploma along with his MD.
        He has no cares at all about his girl friend going for pap. “Doesn’t hurt him.” [hahha] His profession has a 2/3 divorce rate; his own marriage to another doctor among them. She cheated on him. Does anybody really wonder why? We used to stick up for him. Be sympathetic to his cries about 50% automatic billing write offs etc. He gets about 25% of his billed services max. Cost him $250,000 for his education. He has a very nice home & two vehicles. Shares the kids with the ex. When we caught him lying to us, and not caring about pain etc (this includes a med school taught indifference to even a child’s suffering compliments of Purdue Med School), we lost our stomach to his issues and he lost our respect. As if he’s more qualified on these things? Because he did well on science and math? Those things don’t make him an automatic good person. He’s a qualified asshole award winner.

    • Nurses are generally just the doctor’s backup. They are cut from the same cloth, just like a sheriff & his deputies or the judge & the bailiff. The concept that they are there to monitor the doctor & make sure they don’t attack someone behind closed doors is vitiated by the doctor outranking the nurse (who can fire who?).

      Another thing to keep in mind is that American medicine seems very much to fancy itself a sort of military establishment- their concept of rank is roughly as extreme as in the military & so is their alignment to follow orders or protocols regardless of situation. A lot of things like to be some kind parody or facsimile of the military, which seems to have more to do with undertones of American culture (which will, of course, expand into whatever areas the bearer of that culture does).

      In keeping with the military theme- What is the person that comes into their “base”? The enemy invader or the enemy captive. Neither one have much pull & both are looked at as the target. This could all be subconsciously, but if it’s there, they likely use their occupational means to attack.

  42. Melissa your not alone. I had my last smear 15 years ago after walking out of it thinking never again. I felt completely violated and dirty and in great physical pain. I ignored the “invitations “for years and finally this year decided I’d had enough of them too so I typed refusing smear test in Google, found a site and one woman on it (Linda!) directed me here. It’s hard isn’t it, I’ve seen women post on other sites they feel violated and they’ve been told they need counselling to feel like that over a non sexual (!)medical procedure. Elizabeth (Australia) posted some kind words that made me feel the way I feel is Ok and and that women who feel this way aren’t crazy. We are all here for you.
    It seems in the UK the number of women “accepting ” their “invitations “for screening is rapidly falling…

    • Hi Kat, I too am fighting so that my daughter will never have to go through what I went through. She has another 6 years to go, and I’m determined that things will have changed by then.
      I’m surprised that you were left on the recall books for so long. My last one was in 1997 and I’ve heard that if you miss 2 rounds, ie 6 years in the UK, they will contact you to ask you why you are not attending. It was this phone call in 2003 that asked me if I wanted to opt out. Like everyone else in the UK I’d never heard of such a thing, and been told it was compulsory for healthcare. It was only when I experienced gyne problems in 2013 that my anger, which I’d buried for years came to the surface. I posted about the bad experience I had, and within a few days, Elizabeth had invited me to this site. I couldn’t look for a few days, but when I did, my jaw dropped open. For the first time in 20 years, I found that I wasn’t alone, but there were women like me across the globe hating this test. I had to flick past the speculum on the page, like it was a big spider. I had no idea what it was called or had ever seen one before. They kept these hidden from you in the 1990’s. So this was the weapon that had caused me so much pain, after I’d had my baby. This was the weapon that quack had forced into me so soon after childbirth. The NHS has now changed the rules that a smear must not be done until 3 months after childbirth, and not 6 weeks as it was during the 1990’s. Makes me wonder just how many complaints they got about that, before they did something.

  43. Ada I’m so sorry what you went through. I changed practice around 6_7years ago so I was ignoring “invitations ” from different places which is probably why i got away so long. When I got my next “invitation ” earlier this year I decided I couldn’t face another barrage of letters so took to Google and read that if I ignored two rounds they’d be ringing me. I would have found that totally unacceptable so I informed practice in writing and signed disclaimer. By then another “invitation ” arrived from NHS England so I rang them and politely told them go to hell. As I’ve posted doc still raises it every visit so he’s next on the list. It’s funny I never realised how bloody angry I am about the smear testing debacle. I used to go home and bath in Dettol I felt so violated. It’s finding this site and all you ladies that’s helped. I don’t think my daughter will screen but I’ll respect her choice as an adult woman.
    I think the programme is in serious difficulty as you posted which is why I suspect they’re pressuring opted out women like me. I live in an area with a large ethnic minority population who I know are reluctant to expose themselves (understandably). I never knew it was illegal to harass an opted out woman til you told me so bring it on doctor!! I’m sorry for the rant!

    • On the subject of sciatica.. Can anyone give me any advice on joint pain and stiffness? I think it’s menopausal and don’t want to risk the doctor because obviously, to them it originates in my cervix so I need a smear..

      • I read somewhere that mothers and daughters should be smear test buddies. We should keep track of each other “invitations ” and “encourage ” each other to attend. Excuse me? My daughter is an adult, shouldn’t u respect their choice? My girl has medical needs, arthritis diagnosed at 9, dodgy immune system, food and medicine allergy an now thyroid problem. Even as a child we involved her as much as possible about her treatment, it’s funny she begged us herself she didn’t want HPV vaccine and we sure agreed with her!! Just another example of the patronising way women are treated

      • Hi Kat. I used to go home after a test and have a shower and literally clean my self out. I had to shove the violation to the back of my mind bevause like everyone else i was nade to feel as tho thus was a natural part of being a women. It just shows its rape because that is exactly what a victim of that would want to do. Its instinctive in us not to have smears as there is something wrong with it. The brainwashing programme they implemented must be good to overide a womens natural self protection instinct.

        I’m so glad i directed you here. I found this place because of Ada and Eliz having posted on other sites. I basically just followed the trail here. Its like a chain reaction i think. Women are findind their way here for ond reason or another. Thankful when they find they are not alone.
        I have had sciatica for the past 8 weeks. I have controlled it through hot water bottles, walking, passion flower from a sleep aid sold at bodycare, ibuprofen. There is no cure for sciatica. All you can do is minimize the effect. It will go on its own in its own time. If you go the doctors they will give you amyltriptiline but they will try and stick a finger up your ar#e first. The doc was horrified when i challenged her she said it was to rule out more serious condition. So i said i will clench myself to see if i’m ok. She just accepted that and prescribed pills.
        Hi Melissa. I’m so glad you found us. Healing is a long process. Some days i am up sometimes down. But they will never get me again. I take comfort in that and so should you. Its a relief to know your body is niw your own and not somebody elses.

        Did some research today. Papanikoloau was tutored by a man called Earnest Haeckel when he was at uni. If you google haeckel you will find this man was a monster.

        He ‘proved’ that black people were inferior to white people. He did this by examining the toes of several black people and showed that they came down from the trees later than white people and were therefore less ‘civilised.’ He did this to show the order in which the different races were ordered. He also studied throats taken from cadavers to ‘show’ that white people had developed language ealier than black people. All of his research was used a couple of decades later by the nazis to implement a progtramme of mass genocide that would leave ony the true ‘aryan race,’,

        No wonder Pap man was warped in the head. He basically got his speculum from gross treatment of slave women anyway.
        Once you do the research it all falls into place.
        I tell you they are all part of some weird hatred mentality.


        Linda, the history of this test is simply shocking, and the fact that Papanicolou was a zoologist and not a doctor says it all about the way women are treated today – just like animals. This article shows how he used his wife every day for this test, and then some of her friends for a wider testing group. When one of the friends got cervical cancer he immediately put 2+2 together to make 5, assuming that the cells on this womans slide were the key, and then decided that others not matching his wife’s must be pre-cancerous.

        There was reluctance from the medical profession to accept this theory as black and white from the beginning, but when doctors realised how much money they could make from this test, it was included as an integral part of health insurance policies across America. How many millions of women ended up with hysterectomies simply from having abnormal cells is a shocking thought, especially during the 1940’s to 1970’s when it was a dodgy operation with a substantial death rate in those days.

        It was the New Zealander, Herbert Green who suspected all along that they were giving hysterectomies to far more women who would ever have got cancer, so he adopted a wait and see approach, and realised that only a very small proportion of those with abnormal cells would go on to get the disease. Many cleared up on their own and needed no treatment at all. Unfortunately, he was vilified by a group of feminists who exposed his conservative approach claiming he was allowing women to get cancer because he didn’t care, and to this day many people in New Zealand discredit him. Linda Bryder has written some very good articles exonerating him. A similar situation occurred at the Kent and Canterbury Hospital in the 1990’s, when a group of women claimed they had got cancer because the smears had been incorrectly read as normal when they weren’t. The hospital was forced to pay damages (taxpayers money, which could have helped sick people), in order to cover up the fact that the pap test itself is a hopelessly innaccurate test, which should never have been rolled out, let alone presented to women as an essential error free test. Although the hospital, quite rightly appealed,the NHS Screening zealots knew they had to keep up the pretence that the pap test was error free, so the hospital was forced to back down in order to ensure blind belief in the programme continued.

        The result of this was that they lowered the threshold of what slides looked the slightest bit abnormal and made all those women go to colposcopy. Result-thousands more in the colposcopy clinics having a dreadful time, but told they have been saved from pre-cancer. Charities claiming that cervical cancer is on the rise again.

        I keep planning on writing an essay on the appalling history of this test. Linda, if you are having trouble finishing your book, perhaps we should all just write a chapter each of our own interests on this topic, and the chapters can all be put together for a book?

      • I’m not sure where I could find it but someone wrote on either this blog or the old one about how the position a woman is put in for a pap test and usually accompanying pelvic exam is one of submission and on an emotional level she will feel violated. The focus on these exams despite how they make women feel and the lack of evidence supporting them is part of rape culture.
        Adawells, your use of the word assume in this sentence “assuming that the cells on this womans slide were the key, and then decided that others not matching his wife’s must be pre-cancerous” is spot on. With the pap it has been correlation = causation with the assumption that it worked and prevented CC without any scientific backing. They have just assumed that it works. What other medical test or procedure in the medical profession has been kept and used and forced on patients without any real scientific evidence that it works.

      • Linda thanks! I like the sound of the passion flowers remedy. I can’t take amitryptilline I tried it for migraine and was back a week later it had worsened the condition!! I’ll try the passion flowers and borrow my daughters heat packs. Thanks again! X I love the way we all support each other here, and have a wealth of knowledge we share so freely. It’s truly a sister hood

  44. This is totally unbelievable! This essential test, vital to women’s health care, was a developed by a bloody zoologist!! I read the link and am still reeling. I would rather have entrusted my cervix to a witch doctor now the times I did screen. If my doctor EVER mentions smear testing again I will have a few choice words to say!! Thanks ladies!

    • Hi All. Very few women know that Pappo was a zooologist. His so called medical degree is on the study of Daphnia fleas.
      Very early on in his research his colleagues pointed out to him that the test had a low specifity. To rectify this he started holding ‘evening classes’ after the other lab workers had gone home for the day. He wanted to be certain that the info on the slides was going to be interpreted the right way.
      How this man went from fleas to womens vaginas must be very contentious. He was taken on by Cornell uni to study alcohol effect on guinea pigs. (basically getting the little furies drunk)

      The idea of a joint book is great. With Sue’s permission if you all upload about 3000 words of your own experiences i will put together a book and put it online. I will put it on for free so more people will download it, unless any money that can be made from it can be donated. I will create a front cover as i can do that. The title can be called anything we want if someone has a good idea otherwise i will think if one. Its end of october now if we aim to put it on just before christmas that gives us each about seven weeks to write 3000 each. It takes about 20 mins to upload so that will not be a problem.
      However, i will also continue on my other one as well but just put it aside for the time being as i have done alot of scientific resesrch such as mefical records of peopke who died and so forth. This book for us would be more a collection of our personal experiences.

      • Fleas and drunken guinea pigs and vaginas equals science. Bring it on doctor!!
        Actually a witch doctor is probably more competent!

      • Don’t know if these is related to the joint book or not, but I remember hearing that a tablespoon of ginger & a tablespoon of turmeric made as a tea is good for weight loss. Jsut thought I’d mention it, since turmeric was mentioned.

    • ADM thanks I’ll check that one out. Interestingly my late mother in law used to use turmeric on bad deep cuts. It really worked when my husband shut his fingers in the car door. Thanks I’ll check it out x

      • Hi Sue. Yes. Brill idea a seperate forum to be completed by a certain date. That would put every file in one place so irs easier for me to get them. We could call it ‘for womens eyes only’ the truth of womens experiences they don’t want you to read’ that way we have a presence on kindle in case people miss us here. I will put links in the book to this site and hopey it will lead to more traffic this way. Thanks your involvement will make it loads easier. Anyone can put between 1000 and 3000 of their own exp. If anyone feels they cant do that they could direct us to a previoys post they feel suitable. A few poster like spirited away have alrwady said we could put their story in a book. It will be great!

      • Hi Linda,
        I will publish a separate post on this site soon, and dedicate it to the book group. I’m hoping this is what you had meant? Once I’ve published it please let me know if you want changes to the post (e.g. picture, wording, etc.). If this is not what you had in mind please let know that too! Thanks 🙂

      • Turmeric is also great for asthma, which is generally caused by inflammation. My eye doctor of all people told me that! It has really helped me. I use it in spice form, which you can get even at the dollar store. For turmeric to be digested properly, mix it in with black pepper, which is also great for digestion system.

  45. kat sweetheart another thing that might help is to drink aloe juice…tastes disgusting but wow does it have some great healing properties!! Any healthfood stores and even some grocery stores will have it.

      • Linda that’s a fantastic title! And I’ll post something for it though my story’s nowhere near as traumatic as some on here! And feel free to mull over my past posts to use anything else that grabs you! And Sue a big thanks to you for designing and maintaining this excellent site!!

    • Hi sue. Yes a seperate section like you do for the articles that we post on, then everyone is clear what its for. It should be an account of their experiences written as an essay. It doesn’t matter if grammar or spelling isn’t perfect due to us using ipads and phones to post, we will edit it before we publish to kindle. Also eliz from aust or Ada should put in one of their posts on scandanavia and hpv. Their posts are often more ‘scientific’. It shouldn’t all be about experiences otherwise readers wont glean anything, it should be about what they can do for themsrlves as well. I think it will take several weeks to do if we are going to do a decent job.

  46. Yes exactally this site explains me to an exact Tee this is exactally what goes through my mind when I think of this I’m only 18 and I have mild autisim I never have had any action down there besides from myself I’ve had such extreme fear of having to have a pap or pelvic exam or any other test that involves having to get naked and be examined by anyone else I don’t give a crap that it would be a trained doctor that went to school to do it like I said I don’t give a F no one is touching looking or getting anywhere near me down there I’ve had a slight dirty smell down there for a while now no pain or discomfort not even an itch and my doctor recommended that I got a pap more then once and also I’ve always had irregular pariods and my mom booked me an appointment for a endo doc and a teen doctor and I looked it up and from what I read they both usually start the visit with a visual of your naked pussy or pap or pelvic exam and I was a nervous reck I started getting depressed I almost stopped eating I hardly had enough will power to bother living anymore but thank god I was plesentally suprised all that they did was ask questions and do blood work and now I know the minimum age of 21 is the absoultally the earliest that il have to worry about any legs spread wide open naked for all to see type of an exam I’m still going to absoultally put my foot down and refuse due to my beyond extreme fear anxiety and hilimilliation and total pepeve of having anyone but myself do anything down there I get so worked up that I thought of ending my life to get away from being forced left with no choice to do it and if it comes down to life or death or an extreme concern down there I’m going to definately going to need to be completely nocked out or so close to it I won’t have any memory of it that’s the only way il be willing to go along with it if not screw it il take the risk of cancer my fears and anxiety about that isn’t something to mess around with because it’s beyond extreme it gets to me mentally and psychologically also if I’m ever tricked into it like going to dhe doctor for a check up and they have the gown and the table all set up and they say u are going to have it done today and you’ll need to get completely naked and put the gown on and let us know when your ready or they just do the gown thing il know what’s up and il refuse and say oh fuck no I know what’s up I ant doin it !!! Il make a scene il through a tantrum and dash out of the room as if the place was on fire I won’t care what IDE look like all I’m saying is that I may be 18 I may be conserved but if u don’t have MY concent than it doesn’t matter what my mom says no one can legally force me with ought getting hurt I’m willing to put up a fight oh btw if I do get sadation but it’s only a paralizer or I remember any part of it I may try to end my life so I don’t have to live with the fact of being taken advantage of or tricked like a tinny little kid that u can trick with no proble I’m smart rnough to know what’s up and to spot a trick at the bigining and that’s pretty much my whole view about that matter !!!! I have less of a fear of a public Brest exam than any type of a pussy exam / any type of rectal or vaginal exam

  47. Very refreshing post. Thought I was alone in using the words “traumatised” “humiliated” “violated” in relation to this sort of examination. Glad that people are challenging the idea of “you’re a woman get used to it” – and also challenging using the fear of cancer to pressurise a woman to undergo this. I’m also amazed that the idea of having a gynaecological examination performed by a male is somehow perfectly acceptable! So when this is challenged – yup – I’m glad again. Apparently just one in five consultant gynaecologists here in the UK are female, not sure about US figures. Thanks for posting this – it’s a good insight that needs to be aired.

    • “Assaultive” is another one. I notice that the term “sexual dissonance” doesn’t really come up much, either. When something’s “against the grain” in that way, it seems that people go with more minor terms- like “uncomfortable.” Sorry to be so crass, but a rock in your shoe is uncomfortable- a branch someone stuck up your ass is an affront.

      Something being antagonistic to your alignment is obviously not a minor issue. Despite what medical personnel might believe. If they DO have a disregardive mentality (or an affirmative one, for that matter), then the patient/client has no assumption of safety. They can definitely be seen as “the enemy” in that case, whether they agree or not.

      I guess they tend to think they have to “accept” a decision by the patient. Not that they are aware of it, but that they think it’s off good quality & would do it themselves if they were in that client’s place. Turns into a whole bunch of ontological turmoil instead of them just backing away from whatever the patient doesn’t want them touching.

  48. My doctor felt a cyst on my right ovary. Had me have a pelvic sonogram and then the next week i started my cycle and when he checked he couldn’t feel the dermoid cyst he stated I had. So had to do the sonogram again. What does all this mean?

    • B.gutierrez, welcome to the forum

      One way to avoid all of this worry and risk is to refuse routine pelvic exams. I don’t know whether this cyst was felt during a routine exam or one for symptoms. If it was the former, I’m not surprised your doctor “thought” s/he felt a cyst – false positives are a risk when you have routine pelvic exams.
      I’ve read a few US health forums over the years and it amazes me how many women have investigations for “something” my doctor felt during my annual pelvic exam – I suspect the doctor is feeling something completely normal – ovulation…and that also explains why further investigations find nothing or it suddenly can’t be felt anymore.
      Some poor women end up in surgery having a healthy ovary removed….shocking.

      You might care to read Dr Carolyn Westhoff’s articles, she’s an American ob-gyn who is dead against the routine pelvic exam, she believes it partly explains your high hysterectomy rates and the loss of healthy ovaries. (both surgeries occur at more than twice the rate found in countries where women don’t have routine pelvic exams)
      Anyway, if you’re symptomatic, get a second opinion, but if it was a routine pelvic that found this “cyst”…then it all makes a lot of sense – false positive!

      Sadly many American and Canadian (and other) women have been led to believe these harmless cysts “could” turn into ovarian cancer. I have nothing but contempt for doctors who mislead, scare or coerce women into routine pelvic exams, find something harmless, do unnecessary procedures/surgery and then leave the woman with the impression, “it might have been something, you were lucky, it wasn’t this time, but remember to come back next year for your women’s wellness exam so we can catch anything early” etc.
      Snake oil salesmen/saleswomen, more should be done to stop these people, they harm and worry a lot of women – all part of a great business model.

    • During ovulation cysts form on the ovaries as part of the formation of the egg. It would have made more sense for the Dr to have questioned you about where you were in your cycle instead of going ahead with further testing. Pelvic exams are no longer recommended because they are not accurate and they have high rates of false positives.

    • Every ovulating woman develops cysts on her ovary(ies), those cysts usually disappear when the cycle goes to the next round. This is 100% normal and healthy. Though nearly every woman, at least once in her lifetime, has the cysts linger longer than one cycle. The reasons are unknown. Sometimes those cysts grow very large and can cause some discomfort or even pain by compressing the surrounding organs. Sometimes those cysts can also cause bleeding, usually mid-cycle, which can be quite heavy and go for up to 5 days. The vast majority of those cysts are benign and disappear after 3-4 months.

      Doctors like to scare women into pelvic exams and “offer” hormonal pills to fight the cysts. This means the woman will have to come back for more exams and another prescription. Just business for medical profession, nothing to do with health benefits for the woman.

  49. B, I’m not a dr so do please take this with a grain of salt but the way I see it there’s two possibilities:

    1: He just wanted to do these procedures for his own reasons (power, extra money, seeing you naked) and had to come up with a convincing reason that he could later retract when nothing solid came up.
    2: I have heard there are some cysts that will grow during the first half of a woman’s cycle and then disappear/ burst harmlessly during her period…also I’ve heard some women’s anatomy is setup such that the various glands in that area can swell quite a lot before her period and then reduce during/after

    I’d say the odds are about 50/50 but it’s not like you’ll ever know for sure…unless the 2nd sonogram shows concrete evidence. For what it’s worth darling don’t let it bother you too much. Many MANY women have various bumps/lumps/cysts that are just there and wont cause any trouble. The best thing you can do is arm yourself with knowledge. Ask questions, do your own research, demand explanations…and above all YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY NO if you feel like he’s taking it too far and don’t let anyone bully you. It’s your body, don’t ever let anyone else make you feel like they have more control over it than you. That’s my 2cents. I wish you all the best…keep us posted 🙂

      You might note that if the cyst is causing huge pain that is not normal menstrual pain that goes away after a few days or remedied with a few ibuprofen, then you might want to do something about it. But usually pain is a huge motivator and there might be some other ways to deal with it. This doctor is trying to justify giving a patient surgery for a cyst that is rarely cancer but needs evidence such as an ultrasound. This is just a way to make money. If there is no “evidence” such as an ultrasound then insurance is not going to pay.
      This reminds me of the case of a woman who did not want a screening mammogram. Her doctor then insisted she have a clinical breast exam (hands on). He said he felt a lump (she had not complained about anything herself). So the next step was send her for a mammogram. She was diagnosed with DCIS in the other breast and forced into the cancer mill. Her breast was removed two weeks later. She did not have cancer. This happened in Canada.

  50. Thank you for this. I almost cried when I read it. I have dealt with various combinations of anxiety, depression, and disordered eating for 20 years and have only recently begun to attribute it to my first pelvic exam–which, due to (alleged) medical necessity, I had when I was eleven. ELEVEN, you guys. The doctor was male and did absolutely nothing to prepare me for what happened. I was scared of medical facilities for almost a decade after.

    I’ve downplayed the incident most of my life because it was a necessary medical procedure, but with the aid of a therapist, I can now recognize it as a trauma that continues to affect me to this day. I have had much more gentle, respectful, informative exams since then, and I think a lot of progress has been made, but I wish there were more research connecting the exams with trauma.

    • Lauren. We are so glad you found us. Our site is a safe haven for you. I am so sorry you have spent your life so ill because of the tryanny of unwanted pelvic exams. Many of us here either don’t agree with them or have been harmed by them. I can assure you unless you have symptoms other than anything you would be able to treat youself you don’t need anyone going in to your private place on an ongoing frequent basis.
      As women we are strong and most of us out live men – and live into a great old age. The thought that some men have set up a job for themselves examining women’s healthy private parts makes me shudder. Its like the some cheap horible porno script. It would be laughable if it wasn’t so harmful.
      Please read all the articles and posts on this site and grow strong and confident avoiding this unwanted intrusion that has hung over you life like a black cloud.
      Please join our ongoing lively conversation. I hope you find healing soon.

    • People keep acting like things like this don’t “count” & yet believe that someone that dies in surgery ACTUALLY dies.

      The properties of the situation don’t change by designation- just like if a doctor poisons someone with a needle, it’s still murder. This is an interface with a sexual area (specifically, a penetrative one) as a product of someone else’s decision-making, which is an attack.

      Even if it wasn’t a product of someone else’s decision-making, it would still potentially be problematic (given the dynamics) & something doesn’t HAVE to be useless to be an issue (although, it could always be both). It seems that people think refusal is off-limits except for approved things. Unwritten rules, of course- but it DOES seem that anything with potential utility is unofficially seen as something that is “wrong” to block from happening to you. Reflexively shooting for the “A-Grade” works against someone in this situation.

  51. I agree with Linda. I hate how the word”need” is thrown around concering pelvic exams on symptom free woman. No one should be able to make woman feel obligated to have thses exam’s. That is abuse.

  52. And don’t let a therapist tell you it was nessersery that is the popular belief . most people are afraid to speak against other doctors or what’s seen as standard care.

  53. Thank you so much for posting this topic on your blog. Now I know I’m not alone with how opposed I am again well woman exam for myself. Just this past week, I saw a doctor for a regular checkup and new prescriptions pertaining to a chronic (unrelated) condition. This is a different doctor/clinic than the one I’ve been to before. After we spent 10 minutes discussion my condition and prescription options, he switched topics and asked me when was my last well woman exam. I told him 5 years ago, and apparently that wasn’t good enough. He didn’t even ask results or anything. He wanted to schedule one, and I said, no I’m good. He looked at me like I was crazy. Then he said, is it a matter of being looked at by a male or female doctor. I said, no that’s not it. He mentioned mammograms and I said I self exam. He said even a doctor may miss something in a breast exam. I didn’t debate it but hello mammograms miss a great deal too. Or they find something that isn’t really there. That’s just my philosophy. One of the comments in the main blog mentions fear mongering of cancer, and I think that addresses it best. They make us fear cancer so much, which for the most part can only be treated, not cured, that we go along with all these tests that cause so much anxiety. The doctor then asked if I would at least consider a general physical, with blood work. I agreed to come back in about a month, but now I don’t know what to think or if I really want to go back. It’s been gnawing at me all week. In a way, I feel like going along with the follow up even though I know that they’ll find the same thing they always do (high cholesterol) that I refuse to do anything about (that’s a whole other discussion in itself). He had also asked me about getting a flu shot which I refused that too. I think I just irritated him when I turned him down on just about everything. They look at us with dollar signs in their eyes.

    • I wouldn’t go back. Seeing as they might try to twist your arm & all (speed-talking so there’s no space for thought or refusal, talking about what they’re NOT going to do if you don’t let them do, general insults, etc…). It’s not a great sign that this guy is looking at you like you’re crazy AND saying that even doctors can miss something (yet, you’re theoretically going to them because YOU’RE not good enough- that seems like “gaslighting” to me).

      One thing that seems real big is talking in fixed terms (like “we’re GOING to do” or “you WILL be having”) to try & convince you that the situation is “fixed” (like there exists no capacity for reality to develop any other way- which is nonsense, since an action has to be ENGAGED in order to occur).

      Another one is to act like you’re somehow the oppressor by baring their actions. Deciding what goes where is, apparently, something they take as an insult & a tyrannical act. I’ve heard they see themselves in a way that’s similar to a military- I guess patients or clients are invaders to them?

      • Thank you, Alex. I decided I am not returning to this doctor. I was on the fence about it, but the nail on the head came when he refused to fix the prescription he had written me for what I had gone to him in the first place. He gave me a dosage amount much higher than what I have been taking for years. He had his nurse call and tell me, “Doctor wants you on the higher dosage and see if that works for you.” The dosage I had always been on works just fine, thank you very much. I just thanked her for calling and hung up. He had also forgotten to write me a prescription for my rescue inhaler (asthma). I have yet to get that resolved (long story) and plus I think they’ve dropped me altogether. That’s fine, because this past weekend, for the first time ever, I tried one of those Urgent Care places and was very pleased at the outcome. I had fallen and twisted my ankle, went to UC, got a prescription for my rescue inhaler with no BS. I’m trying to forego the first mentioned prescription anyway. If I do want it, I’ll go to a specialist in that area. I’ve been trying natural supplements and remedies so I don’t have to rely on Big Pharma and Megalomania Doctors anymore. Sorry for the long comment… I just highly recommend either going to a specialist for your regular issues, or trying one of these urgent care places, which treat all sorts of things.

  54. Me again. I’ve been reading the comments (there’s a bunch so it’s taking me a while). There seems to be a thought process that the male GP wants to do such an exam for his own sexual satisfaction. I just flashed back to my last exam (that I will ever have). It was a female GP. You’d think that would have been all right, but it was weird. I was draped only in a sheet, on the table, waiting for her to indicate to begin. She was talkative, while possible helpful, but at the same time, a little too invasive. She yapped along so long that I actually remained seated up on the exam table, clutching at my sheet, wondering, what the blazes I had gotten myself into. What I remember most is that she asked me how was my sex life. I have NEVER in my life been asked this question by a doctor. I was somewhat shocked and taken aback. I just simply replied, “Well, I am married.” (har har) What was she getting at? Anyone else have that happen? Anyone have an idea of why she asked that? It bothers me to this day and that’s why I never went to her again. For the record, I’m not inexperienced with these exams. In my 20s, I had one every year (as a requirement for the pill). Once I got to my mid-30s, I stopped taking the pill and decided the exams weren’t necessary. Most of the time they’d find something wrong and then I’d have to go back in 6 months, only to be told everything’s fine. What malarkey. So that last exam with the weird conversation was the last straw for me.

    • I don’t think it’s all about sexual satisfaction, although you’ve got to admit that the field of gynaecology is a pervert’s paradise. They get to interfere with women’s sexual organs all day (for their own good, of course), get paid handsomely to do so and you can say ‘just being thorough’ when you go too far. If you don’t really understand how the female body works and can’t fix any problems, just remove the offending organ!
      I do certainly think there are a lot of people in medicine who get off on the power they wield. So even if you choose a female provider you can still be abused. Manipulative and controlling people can be found in every walk of life, including medicine. You’re never more vulnerable than when you’re naked, and some doctors & nurses will take advantage of that. Doctors push their luck all the time – like asking you about your sex life when it’s none of their damned business – but we worry about giving them a few sharp words in case we get labelled ‘difficult’ and are treated badly as a result. They know we’re at their mercy at this point, and will abuse that position of power.

      By the way, on some medical forum there was a student who, while trying to tell everyone what a terrific human being he was, claimed that he’d chosen to study gynaecology because it was the quickest route to becoming a surgeon. That’s comforting, isn’t it?

      • Especially when surgeons supposedly tend to have the highest rate of sociopathy of the various medical professions (although, I’ve got to assume that’s debatable). In truth, the medical community seems to see themselves as a separate community & feels whenever one of them does something it’s their cultural mode of behavior or some shit like that.

        The “ways of their people” also seem to be that they act bullied & oppressed when someone doesn’t bolster them making their own decisions about what they do to someone else’s body. Even if it’s that person, themselves, deciding what goes where!

        Yet, it’s a presumably trustable environment & whether you go there or get brought there, you won’t be iatrogenically attacked. Of course, if you don’t believe this or don’t want to “flip the coin,” you’re “wrong” & you’re answer is basically a target for vitiation. Not the way people generally talk, but it DOES seem like the right word to use. What you’re putting forth is given an “F” & has efforts to dissolve directed at it.

        [It’s interesting, because one has to have some pretty extreme concerns for their safety if someone acting like this in the first place. From antagonism, in the first place. After all, someone IS boxed-in with them in both the ambulance & in the hospital, on top of the fact that whatever medical personnel does is not synonymous with harm)

        There are also concerns from incompetence, since these people are not listening when a problem is indicated. If they’re not paying attention to detail & if it’s not pertinent that what they are doing is a problem, what reason does anyone have to believe that they or the people that work with them are going to be functional in any way for alleviating any issue- IF they even have one. Since it’s not out of the question for them to continue their actions in spite of being told that there isn’t anything to use them on, someone has to worry about “making their case” with someone that’s trying to drag them into an ambulance- a confined space that can be propelled to another confined space or the middle of nowhere. It’s not like their hands are on the wheel or like they have a choice in what’s directed toward them.]

    • I do have one bit of very good news. My doctor moved into a new office. So glad away from the old very pushy pro-pap nurse he shared there. My file came up again at the new office. Again, I was not asked to come in and pap/pelvic exam. He’s continued writing my HR Rx. I’m using Covaryx. It’s a brand name that’s relatively cheap.
      A lady here mentioned that she’s importing her own bc meds from Mexico. Yesterday I spoke with my social worker who has lived in Mexico. There is a myriad of products one can get there w/o having to run the doctor gauntlet first. You simply confer with the pharmacist. He prescribes and dispenses on the spot.
      Something to learn from here. Mexico is like a third-world country in many ways. But due to the poverty and population, the government has been forced to cut the fat out of healthcare. Things are much simpler there. US and UK would be so much better off. Actually the big-brother gov run healthcare & the AMA in USA would be far worse off. And it’s their political clout that must be overcome to secure positive change.
      Switching to a more Mexico like system would also cut what should be the illegal influence big pharma reps have over doctors. Although the lavish vacations & all expense paid seminars at resorts have supposedly ended, there’s still the big free lunches that do happen. In return, docs prescribe the more expensive newer drugs when the older ones were better. Notice how older antihistimines like Tavist are gone?
      Then there’s cost. The social worker purchased a compounded anti-inflammatory cream containing three ingredients for $4. No office visit! In US, an easy $500 plus office visit and hours wasted. Her US doctor stood both amazed and speechless.
      If somehow politically we accomplished eliminating useless paps replaced with at-home urine tests and were able to purchase most simple Rx’s straight from a pharmacist, imagine how costs would plummet. The private sector would provide its own cost controls.
      Until then, if you can’t cross the border, I recommend contacting a Mexican pharmacy via internet. There’s much to be gained; and money saved too.
      Wouldn’t it be interesting to look at doctor’s reserved parking…and see less Mercedes Benz and more Hondas, Fords, and VW’s?

  55. Hi Shana and Penelope. Welcome to the forum. This amazing site saves more people every day. I’ve been sure a lot of women read but don’t post. Since i’ve been a member the site has had nearly 100 000 hits but only a few hundred comments.

    Time will show Papanikoloau’s true legacy to women was not freedom from cervical cancer at all but a life time filled with unpleasant and unwanted genital exams. We are the first generation of women in all of history to be subjected to them on mass. We must make a stand or they will continue for ever more.

    Like circumcision was rechristened FGM to bring home the abhorance of it so Pap tests, smear tests and cervical screening should be called genital exams to make them clear what they actually are. It brings it home when we refer to what hapoened to us as unwanted genital exams.

    During 2016 The World Health Org aims to reach more women than ever before. According to their most recent manifesto outreach workers are going to travel to communities to speak with tribal elders and husbands to persuade the females to submit to genital exams. These are places were a woman’s vaginal integity is often life or death to them.

    The WHO cannot see their programme as the human rights abuse it is. We live in a world were to be born female is to be subjected to unwanted genital attention – this does not happen to men.
    No one considers or gives a damn about our personal feelings. Nothing, only the expectation to permit others to root around our vagina to looking for things wrong with it.

    If we don’t keep pushing one day it will actually become law for all women to have them. Forcing women everywhere to be subjected to this in my opinion is the biggest human rights abuse since the holocaust.


    • Also. When husbands, leaders, elders then having been brainwashed then go on to instruct the women to have them. (Similar to our story, they also won’t be told of harms,
      and the test is unnreliable) A woman who has been given no choice but to have unwanted objects put into her vagina has been raped. The World Health Org far from providing healthcare is now operating a programme of forced mass rape.
      Just like the one already being run by the NHS.

    • A little like getting the mother to “lean on” her daughter. These people are more or less obsessed with “get to” women & girls. I think they look at it like territory- at the very least, an applied influence is seen as a victory.

  56. Hi Linda:

    Thank you for the welcome. Indeed this site is amazing. Not just the site, but all of the people who comment here to keep up this fight. We’re pushing against a tide, and that tide is rolling back – never to return. I understand that around 80% of medical students are women, now, and the current male population is declining. I imagine that is due to all of the publicity surrounding the male doctors who’ve been charged and convicted, lost their licenses and served time (check out the Medical Patient Modesty site). I guess alot of the frat boys in college and medical school who decided they wanted to be over their head in women’s parts (having access to drunk girls at frat parties wasn’t enough) have seen the news or heard the stories and decided that to them it’s not worth it anymore. I really do believe the interest was born of perversion, but once they realized that it’s a real job, that they have to sweat through medical school and residency, they dug their heels in. They learned how to hide their sexual interests in attractive patients over time, and deny it when faced with patients that they’re not attracted to. But since they’re being caught now, they’re dropping out – too slowly for our liking.

    Numerous medical sites out there promote these exams (exam isn’t really isn’t an appropriate name for that anymore, but we use it as it’s the accepted name…), but they still conveniently exclude the informed consent part; they only tell half the story. These medical sites say what to expect in an exam; it doesn’t treat it as what is offered, they make it seem simple – no harms; and fail to inform that there is a choice to decline. They fail to educate that cervical cancer is rare and that breast cancer screenings can and do yield false results. There is a site that condescends to children and teenagers to indoctrinate them into thinking this is what will be done to them and is required as a part of growing up. They use shaming tactics to suggest there’s something wrong with not wanting the doctor to look down there. They try to destroy a young child and teenager’s instincts that it’s wrong. The site addresses boys and girls, but the language is very different. For girls, it’s this is what will happen; for the boys this is what can happen. Truly despicable and disgusting.

    I just wanted to mention also that I was looking at the WHO’s website. I saw that they’re tackling genital mutilation, but I didn’t see info on them promoting genital exams. It would be a major contradiction if they’re doing both. It’s troubling as it seems the male gynecologists who are losing ground in their respective countries are now going to third world countries to “practice.” Third world countries have been places where medicine banned elsewhere, is now practiced, so I’m not surprised. How despicable that they would go to countries where women’s virtue is part of their culture. I hope these elders see the light and run them out of their villages and towns.

    Thanks again, Linda. Be blessed.

    • Hi Penelope i hope you are ok. To access the WHO manifesto go to the one on cervical cancer 2015 – 2017. The Who has a seperate document for each disease or area they want to tackle. I find their work on FGM to be a good thing but in the manifesto on cervical screening they are reaching out to husbands and male community leaders to get their women to submit. Just read through. It seems they think if women as having learning difficulties and unable to make their own choices. While I agree CC is a real problem its not up to the WHO to decide every women is going to have to submit to genital exams because they want to look for it. Thats paternalism gone mad.

  57. Hi Linda:

    I should make one correction – that’s 80% of medical students in going into the gynecology field are now female. That is such good news. I hope they all pass with flying colors.

    • Then again, if they pas with flying colors, might that mean that they’re cut from the same cloth? I figure a woman would be able to get in another woman’s head a bit better than a man, since she is one herself- not the SAME one, but that’s (apparently) omitted circumstances.

      Never got what people were going for by saying “well, it’s a woman.” If a woman were to KILL another woman, no one would say “but she’s a woman, too” in argument with it being presented as an attack. No one would mention gratification as a factor, either- never mind randomly assuming a lack of gratification, in the first place.

      • I have a feeling you are right Alex. It doesn’t matter if they are men or women they all have the same ‘mind set’

        Hi Eliz, Ada, Kat. I hope you are all ok. I haven’t heard from you all in a few days. Keep well friends. X

  58. Hi Linda
    I’m fine, I’ve been busy helping my much younger brother move house over the last week, he was diagnosed with Parkinson’s Disease in his early 40s, he’s married with 2 little boys…it was a stressful exercise but we’ve managed to move them into a beautiful mortgage-free property. He’s having deep brain stimulation in May…we’re all hoping for a great result.
    We hear LOTS about cervical cancer, but not much about other fairly rare conditions/cancers, my brother was told the condition is rare in his age group, so is cervical cancer in any age group, yet the latter gets FAR more resources…and awareness campaign after awareness campaign.
    That’s why I say the pin-up cancers get most of the resources….

    • Hi Eliz and Kat.
      Thanks for replying. I check in here everyday too. More than once if I’m low. I’m not addicted to social media but this site has been a godsend to me. Its great.

      I’m sorry about your younger brother. I hope the move goes ok. I don’t think doctors have a clue how to help really ill people thats probably why they concentrate their efforts looking for things wrong with well people.


      • Hi Linda,
        Sorry if I haven’t been very active lately, but I recently started a new job, which is further away from where I live, so come home pretty tired each evening, although I always find time to check in to this site! As an employee of the NHS it has enabled me to borrow a fantastic range of resources, such as books by Peter Gotzsche, Margaret McCartney and other wonderful people. I’m reading Gotzsche’s book “Mammography screening:truth, lies and controversy” at the moment, and I simply can’t put it down. It is a great read. Don’t dispair, Linda. When I think of the outright abuse people like Gotzsche, Petr Skrabanek, James McCormick, to name but a few who have spoken out against screening programmes, have had to put up with, it spurs me on. We are swimming with the tide, Linda, and theirs is a lost cause, if you ask me. Nationally, the UK is now at just 73.5% attendance at cervical screening, and it is still falling. Will it drop below 70% this year or next, I wonder. I have also read in another of places that women over 50 with no abnormal smears are being quietly “invited” to leave the programme by their GPs! I have read that it costs the UK taxpayer 8 million to smear test all women over 50, and they are looking at making savings by inviting these women to consider leaving the programme.
        I willl keep looking for interesting news items to post and keep you “entertained”.
        Stay fim!

    • Hi Ada. I know how hard it is starting a new job it is exhausting. I hope its going well. I’m really surprised by the revelation about over 50’s tho. I’ll see what i can find tomoz. X

      • it was announced by Julian Peto at the HPV2015 conference in Lisbon that the over 50’s who have never had high grade abnormalities could safely leave the programme. I’ve not been able to find anything published about it, but then a woman on posted that her GP had told her she could leave the programme, and she was given conflicting advice by another GP who thought she should stay in. For the future in the UK, it seems that HPV testing asthe first test will definitely come into operation. When, I don’t know, but it will mean the smears can be spaced out. They have come up with a number of scenarios: a)everyone attend every 5 years, b) double the spacing, so every 6 years to age 50, then every 10 years or not at all after that. They have been doing experiments on how much to space the tests (see the ARTISTIC trials). I think they are keeping it all under wraps because they don’t want the Daily Mail setting up another “We want more screening campaign”.

      • › policydb_dow

        Linda and Kat,
        Have a read of this latest review on the situation in the UK. It looks like they will double the screening interval when they bring in the HPV primary test, so every 6 years until 50 then every 10, but it doesn’t say how long for, or when this might be.

  59. Adawells this is great news. Wasn’t it only last year the papers were proposing testing up to about 70? Thanks authority is kinda sayings cc maybe isn’t so rampant??

  60. Ive commented before about a horrible experience I had having a pelvic exam done by a new Dr I started seeing.. but even after the horrible experience I will continue to get pelvic exams. I was diagnosed with vulvar cancer about 7 years ago… Vulvar cancer effects the vulva.. the area outside and around the vaginal canal, Without a pelvic exam I wouldn’t of known I had cancer until it was to late. When they found my cancer I was already at stage 3 meaning that it was in my lymph nodes and blood, which could of And would have spread my cancer to other areas of my body if left un-treated. There is many benefits of having yearly pelvic exams, like preventing cancers many of which don’t have major symptoms until late stages, diseases, and infections.
    With that being said the way they conduct the exams need to change. It needs to be more gentle, compassionate, and informative. There needs to be a less invasive way to preform the exam…
    No woman should feel violated when leaving the doctors.

    • Haven’t posted here in a while. Good to catch up. Shana if you have the physical be extra on guard-he’ll try extra hard to talk you into the stirrups. There’s a “conquest” reward in their brains whether they are male or female. I prefer 50/50 male/female gyn so that I can select. I’ve known some women, as what i read here too, who rate poor in giving an exam. Who wants to be asked “how is your sex life?” while they’re staring at your pussy? Would a man like same from his doctor? That’s an insult.
      RE vulvar cancer. You should be seeing a doctor on a regular basis. Whether it be a specialist gyn, dermatologist, or oncologist. I’m glad for you. But, at stage 3, you didn’t notice any symptoms? Do you self check, like with a mirror? Was the tumor entirely sub-dermal?
      The point we make here, which I feel you miss, is that while a office visit may offer the chance to catch many things, the way it’s done and the tests performed work against success. Women are violated, scared, and turned off to participating until they have no alternative. The tests, pap in particular, is 53% accurate at best. I learned here that related blood tests for ovarian cancer etc, have similar false outcomes.
      Tests could be non-invasive. Such as Trovagene HPV and STD urine tests at 93% accuracy; and the Delphi Screener which uses self-collected cervical mucus. But that takes away the fun and money making doctors receive for staring at us, violating us, and getting to ask stupid questions while we’re naked and feeling even more vulnerable.
      Dr Papakanou or however it’s spelled thought he was on to something. Once he got off on his tangent, the let’s-examine-the-vagina-virus spread. No room for common sense or double-blind testing which is the norm. Imagine the room of male doctors at the convention.
      Dr Pap speaks, he’s got an erection. They discuss the method how to perform a pelvic? Another doctor stands to speak and half-drunkenly he first gives his two finger boy scout salute. The men jump and shout “that’s brilliant!” No doubt the rectal-vaginal exam was thought up while one of them was buying a six-pack. Hmmm, just where do they put the thumb? Why it can accidentally on purpose rub there; the most sensitive area. For the final vote to accept and force it upon the masses as a CC epidemic needing a cure-all? They stood and counted not hands, but erections. Perhaps they then popped corks to celebrate.
      This is facetious sure. But the intense resistance to change for the better–to save our lives which is their mandate besides the do no harm thing. Ditch the pap and bimanual for Trovagene & Delphi Screener. Offer ultrasound for suspicious breast tissues first with thermography. Tumors have greater water uptake plus the aggressive have inflammation which gives off heat (also due to extra blood circulation). Mashing our breasts is not good to preserve the integrity of a fragile tumor.
      You have a major challenge ahead of you; managing your disease. I’m a chronic pain patient so I understand, sympathize, and I’ll mention a prayer too.

    • It also needs to be a situation where consent isn’t outsourced to the doctor for final review. They seem to think they move with their own volition & are “independent” of everyone else. Their belief seems to be: “NO ONE tells them what they will or will not do to someone else! Not their mother, not their father, and most certainly not the person they’re directing these actions at. They make their OWN damn choices in life!”

  61. Hello Mrsmissmae:

    Welcome to the forum. I’m a new commenter myself to this site – which is really a safe haven for women with all that is out there. It’s been a minute since I’ve posted…Adawells, Alex, Linda, Katrehman, all have posted prior to you and I want to acknowledge them. This site buzzes with new information and informative comments and I navigate eagerly reading new information. However, when I read your post, it felt as if the brakes were put on. This is because your experience once again puts a face on what’s happening to women out there and my heart goes out to you. I’m sure the expert commenters will be responding to you soon. Alex has already. They speak passionately, and I hope what they say will feel heartfelt to you and supportive. Although I want acknowledge everyone, I feel the need to focus on you. First, I’m very sorry about your diagnosis and what you had to go through. It was seven years ago and it sounds as if still very fresh for you. I really hope you are doing so well, now. You left me wondering, though. You hadn’t mentioned if your pelvic was done by a man or woman and if that made your experience horrible; what treatments you had, like surgery or chemotherapy; since it was 7 years ago, if you were cured of your cancer; if you continue to see a male or female gynecologist. You, see Mrsmissmae, this site is all about ending the pelvic exam. The experts here have for years now posted information – factual information that states all of the evidence against annual testing. The harms, the targeted profits from doctors seeing how many exams they can get in, the outright perversion of male doctors who get gratification from seeing nonsymptomatic patients. Right now, Mrsmissmae, it sounds like you’er in the grateful stage of your experience and diagnosis. You’re glad that what you had was caught, so you at this point support the annual exam. I read up on vulvar cancer. Between your blog and the sites, it is very rare. Between – 4,500 and 20,000 women in the U.S. are diagnosed. That is the equivalent of a small town in America. It really – sucks – that you were unfortunate to fall in between these numbers. The problem is that for so many women, these numbers don’t outweigh the evidence that millions of women won’t get this or cervical cancer. It simply doesn’t justify millions of women subjecting themselves so that these doctors can continue with profits, power, and pleasure. This site treads on shaky ground sometimes as women still don’t want to believe these truths (But it’s getting them, one at a time….including me…). I’m afraid because of what you’ve been through, you won’t believe, either. Please continue to read the many many articles on this site that support ending the least severely limiting the pelvic exam.

    Since you want change for this exam, be proactive and take charge of your health and your doctor’s visits. I imagine you’ve been told getting exams is a must since you’ve been diagnosed. That doesn’t mean you should just go and unassumingly drop your underwear and do what the good doctor tells you to do. They can easily take your state of mind about your prior diagnosis and talk you into even more invasive tests, which constitutes abuse. Even if the doctor just wants to look, you’re in charge of that too. You should be sure to research any procedure you think isn’t relevant and decide if you want to get it done. Think – Informed Consent. I’ve counted about 8 procedures for females (pap smear, hysteroscopy, sigmoidoscopy, colposcopy, cytoscopy, hysterosalpingogram…and a couple others not on my mind) to about 2 or 3 that are for males…and males are offered the choice…they’re not told what do. I don’t believe you should be a biology experiment for every intern or student that wants watch or touch, either – refuse their presence and end the exam if they don’t fact find out first if they will be there and if so, then refuse the exam…find another (female) doctor. I’ve read comments about self swabbing instead of the speculumn….please look into it. There are kits that can be purchased. Ask…no tell your doctor you would like to do that as an alternative…or better yet, research these kits yourself. If they put up a fuss..and they do…then, you can exam yourself, you know….until you see something odd or that looks like a re-occurrence, you really shouldn’t subject yourself to someone shoving their hands into your lady parts once a year until you’ve looked and you’re certain you should get checked again. Since you said it was in your blood, certainly there must be blood tests that can detect if your white cell count is up. These are ideas that I hope you’re open to since you’ve found the exam to be invasive and wish for change. And the bimanual diagnoses nothing..the American College of Physicians stated so in 2014. Since your cancer was found externally, you shouldn’t have to get that done anyway.

    If you have a doctor that insists you get exams in the future to ensure there was no relapse, then, please do, go to a female doctor. If you did and that’s what made your experience bad, then find another female doctor who will be gentle and not awkward. Female doctors get a bad rap sometimes, sometimes justified..and I speak from experience… however, they can’t match the perversions of the male doctors..just take note of those who were charged and convicted of sexual misconduct…charged because their patients had the nerve to go forward and refuse to deny what happened to them. You shouldn’t have to subject yourself to males for future exams when the evidence of their perversions and misconduct is out there. I hope that you don’t think, Mrsmissmae, that I was jumping on you or being harsh…it’s easy to feel passionate and want to inform others of what’s out there. I feel – we feel a duty to protect and help. So much to say….but I’ll stop here. I hope you never have a re-occurence of your cancer; I hope you’re doing well and feel blessed.

    • Hi Mrsmissamae.

      Thank you for posting about your diagnosis. It must have been devestating for you. I can’t imagine what you’ve had to go through to be cured. I just hope you are ok and doing well.

      Some women choose to have intimate exams. They genuinely feel reassured by them. And in your case resulted in a timely finding of your cancer. Many women don’t seem to mind either if they have a male doctor despite being aware of the risks.

      Its all about choice. I am very pro choice. As a women’s rights activist I fully endorse your right to choose.

      I came to this site because my doctor and his practice nurse lied to me that genital examinations were ‘mandatory’ for all women and i had no choice. I, like many other women desperately wanted to enjoy my bodily autonomy and my privacy. But they robbed me of that with their lies. Even once when i asked Dr V & later Nurse GG if they were totally necessary they both implied they were. I now know from a post from Ada that doctors in England had already colluded with the NHS and govenment to introduce a programme in 1988 intended to have every woman in the uk genitally examined on an ongoing basis for their entire adult life. No matter how the individual women felt about it they were given no say. Their vaginal details were recorded and uploaded to a national data base. For railroading women into this repulsive thing doctors received 30 pieces of Judas’s silver.

      Because of this unethical manner of treating women, i had 7 forced and unwanted genital exams that upset me deeply. Each one led to awful problems and further unecessary investigations and one robbed me of a baby i refer to as Richard as this is my favourite name for a boy. Nurse GG sexually assaulted me. They took an innocent young 22 year old and raped me with impunity.

      Here in Haydock, St Helens, Merseyside because it is a working class area we are thought of by our doctors as being filled with sexually transmitted diseases and that we must be forced to be checked for them.

      No one thought it important or necesssry to explain to me about false positives, negatives, the low specifity of the test, CC is rare, as a women in a totally mongomous marriage i was low risk. I found all this out last year by accident after an incredible 30 years of swallowing this lie.

      I now realise i should have been given a choice. I didn’t want these exams and suffer because the whole thing about them is horrible. In Britain we receive letters that give you no choice but to make an appointment to have yourself genitally molested by someone you don’t really know. I can not tell you the anger and rage I feel. I now ignore these demands and campaign vigorously to bring an end to unwanted genital exams being forced on women. You may care to read other articles on this site and the many post or even go online to look for our free ebook it may give you an idea of what can actually happen to women when things go very wrong.

      Perhaps if I had wanted them i would feel differently. But i didn’t.

      This amazing site exists to give comfort to people like me and others that didnt want these genital exams and live with the terrible feeling of having been molested by the people we should have trusted the most.

      I wish you well. You should find a site for people recovering from cancer. You will find comfort and like minded people who will love you and take care of you.

      This site is for people recovering from unwanted and forced genital exams.

      Be blessed. Linda x

  62. What is not mentioned here, and my theory is that our brains process and react to these exams and procedures in the same way it would to rape and assault. There is no distinction between willingly participating in this humiliation and picking a random stranger off the street to do it. In most cases, we are no more familiar with the physician than anyone else.

    • Also, a lot of women have faced coercion over the years, in these cases, there is no consent at all. I can certainly understand why some women suffer on-going psychological issues after this test.
      Anon, I think you make a valid point, so many women have said to me over the years, “it was so horrible, I just had to go somewhere else mentally”…some women disconnect, it’s almost an out of body experience.
      None of this is good for our health and well-being…

  63. Oh my goodness, yes, Anonymous!

    You are so correct. They think that because they are in a sterile office in a white lab coat; and that they’ve convinced themselves that they are giving pelvics, bimanuals, rectovaginals, etc. for your own good (never mind they know the truth…..) and they want to get paid big salaries, that they couldn’t possibly be construed as performing medical sexual assault. The websites that explain the procedures conveniently leave out the emotional aspect or downplay it to shaming the woman for not wanting her body to be touched (I hate that!). No – it’s as you said, women and girls are instinctive and can tell that it’s a form of sexual assault, but give in anyway due to the coercion. Rape is defined as using force to have unwanted sexual contact or intercourse with a woman/female who doesn’t want it (although males can get raped, too). It doesn’t say by someone in a dark alley only – of course it can be anyone – especially in a white lab coat.

    You walk into their office; they don’t even know you – but assume they do because they’ve “seen it all.” They tell you to disrobe and put on a gown to get you vulnerable; they walk in the exam room – see your hesitation – and proceed with their rehearsed speech about dying – it seems by the end of the year – from some cancer – if you don’t let them do it. They withhold the truth that would give you a choice. Yes, that is the force that makes it medical rape. The female supporters – the sheeple – deny this. The penetration definition of rape has many degrees; one of which includes penetration by objects. That would be their fingers; the speculum; (especially) the transvaginal probe …(they put lube gel and a condommm on those, just like a penis)….or any other tool they put up there. Combine that with the fact that since the truth about the necessities of these so-called exams is being denied; that the main reason they give for the test – to detect cervical cancer is bogus since only about tens of thousands of women in the country, let alone the whole globe get it, it is indeed medical rape. The “force” that is used is the coercion tactics based on false or innacurate information and risk of dying speech given at the visit. IF women were told the truth, they would not submit – there would be cobwebs on those stirrups.

    I believe what you’ve stated has been mentioned here before. There are thousands of comments on this site. I’m more than certain it’s been mentioned somewhere in a response to the articles – so you’re in good company. I just wonder how long it will be before gynecologists – or better yet the ACOG – since this trickles down, will be forced to acknowledge this. Right, now, it’s a matter of women choosing not to screen. However, at some point, when the screening numbers are so low, or enough watch dog groups come forward, then they will have to admit the truth – and change the policies again – and again. They have once – expanding the screening periods to 3-5 years. They have to revise again as more women choose not to screen. They are strangely silent in the wake of all these perverted male gynecologists being convicted of sexual assault and rape, but change takes time. (hopefully not much more…). I hope you comment again to this site. As women come to this sight and comment and learn, this medical rape will continue to be challenged and fought. This is because we are part of this fight.

    Thanks Anonymous – be blessed.

  64. I’m so glad I’m not the only one that feels this way I thought smothing was wrong with me thank you woman for your stories it helps give me peace knowing I’m not alone.

    • Hi jo. I had a terrible experience and am so thankful to have found the comments on this site. It has helped me move forward and not feel alone.

  65. My lover has gone through Mammography yet she would like atleast to have a baby with me, now my worry is would that sort of X_ray causes barreness to her or we will have children with her? Pliz dont be afraid to share the truth. Thanks

    • Relax, Jacob. Mammography is nothing more or less than an X-ray of the breast. Other than exposing her to ionizing radiation, increasing her chances of getting breast or other cancer sometime in the future, it won’t affect her ability to conceive or give birth.

      It can though, set a horrible set of things in motion, causing her to have to have more invasive diagnostic surgeries, masectomies, and radiation or chemotherapy, all with their own risks.

    • Never heard of that happening, but with other “suggestions” of theirs I HAVE heard quite a bit about miscarriages & general injuries. Honestly, I’m not that astute about the biological stuff. I would say that you don’t fuck with the seal if you want to keep something in. Doctors can try all kinds of “Where, did you get your medical degree?” type of shit, but it’s pretty hard for them to argue against blatantly obvious reality.

  66. About a week ago I had my first pap smear. I’m 23, a virgin and it hurt so bad I was screaming. I’m not a crier, but it’s 4 am and I’m sitting here crying about it. It was all downplayed so much my body was in such shock and the nurse was telling me about her friends who died of ovarian cancer. After the procedure I spent 15 minutes bleeding and crying in my mom’s arms. I thank the Lord she insisted on coming. I felt so violated and foolish. Later that week the same nurse called and informed me I had an STD, after filling out multiple forms saying I have never been sexually active, I could tell she didn’t believe me. After a good 5 minutes of me profusely insisting that was impossible, she talked to the doctor (side note: I have no idea how she couldn’t tell I was a virgin, considering how damn sensitive I was, and poking around in there). She called back and said it was technically an STD, but (I went to talk to her in person) can be contracted from a wet chair because of something to do with bacteria. A wet chair. WTF. She kept mentioning about telling partners about STDs, she was more worried about my effing non-existed partner, she didn’t think twice about telling the virgin she has an STD. I was so scared and frustrated and now need to get more tissues.
    I’m so grateful this site exists because I thought I was alone, as this is a “totally routine” proceedure.
    I’m sorry to all those women who have had traumatic experiences.

    • Hi Molly
      Welcome to the forum, you’re in the right place, many of the women here have been traumatized by this so-called simple life-saving test. (or from the aftermath – false positives, excess biopsies, over-treatment, damage to the cervix etc.)
      I’m so sorry you were put through this pointless and traumatic exercise, I hope you feel better soon. We constantly hear this testing is important for our health, yet they apparently have no concern about the large group of women left worse off.

      For a start, I’d avoid that nurse like the plague, she’s definitely bad for your health and well-being. The nurse knows women who died from ovarian cancer, that’s very sad, but has nothing to do with pap testing or anything else, there is NO screening test for ovarian cancer. Now if she thinks pap testing somehow helps with ovarian cancer, she has no clue what she’s talking about.

      If you’ve never been sexually active, pap testing is a waste of time, it simply risks your health, more than that…the evidence says that pap testing “sexually active” women under 30 amounts to lots of risk for no or little benefit. So some countries do not test sexually active women until they’re 25 or 30.
      BUT…the evidence has moved on again and we know the ONLY women with a SMALL chance of benefiting from a 5 yearly pap test are the roughly 5% of women aged 30 to 60 who test HPV+ (and you can test yourself for HPV, no need for a speculum exam)

      The STD thing makes no sense, ask her the name of the STD, if she can’t give you that, it sounds like nonsense to me. I assume you’re American or Canadian…

      Look after yourself…my advice to you is to read, get informed and then you can protect yourself from the threat of women’s “healthcare”…most of it is not backed by the evidence and simply exposes you to risk. I’ve never had a pap test, routine pelvic or breast exam and I don’t have mammograms either. I stand guard over my precious asymptomatic body, if the test or exam does not pass my risk v benefit test, it’s no deal. Too many women have been harmed and the tragedy is…almost all of this damage was completely avoidable.

    • The nurse acted appallingly and to think she had the gall to tell you that you had an STD afterwards and judge you for something you do not have makes my blood boil. What an ignorant, stupid woman (who should not be practising).

      I agree with Elizabeth – put her on the spot. Ask her to tell you what “STD” you were diagnosed with. You could even play her at her own game and tell her you are so concerned that you want to know what you have so that you can treat it!

      I bet anything, that stance would have the horrid old witch backtracking (as it seems she is beginning to do so already). I am sure her conduct is in violation of her job codes by lying to you or by being so damn ignorant, that she doesn’t know or care what she is saying.

      • sorry to hear what you went through. i suffered for yrs before i said NO MORE EXAM ATTEMPTS!
        its terrible how they treat people. these medical people are just puppets in the system.
        glad you found us

        diane s

      • Yeah, they’re just practicing medicine. I want one who is done PRACTICING, so I can have a medical provider who knows what they’re doing!

      • Ask to see the copy of the lab report because that will confirm the disgnosis of an STD and the name of the causal organism. Some organism can be passed by contaminated objects such as toilet seats, chairs, contaminated swimming or bathing water, shared towels and clothing. It could be common bacterial or yeast infections which even children get. In the case you did get something then usually there is a treatment which she never gave you? Some can be treated with home remedies but of course your doctor would poo poo that. If the doctor refuses or makes an excuse and will not ket you know the results then SHE IS LYING.

      • Great idea to get the report. Something smells with this whole “STD” claim on a virgin. Many STDs are reportable diseases – that is, they must be reported to a governmental department or ministry by law. Failure to report such a thing can get them jail time. At the very least, any reputable medical professional would treat it as they are able, and educate you regarding what you have, proposed treatments available, your prognosis and who (if anybody) the disease was reported to, and under what laws.

        If it were an ordinary bacteria, fungus, or parasitic infection, she would not have called it an STD. Yes, many bacteria, viruses, and fungi can be passed in ways other than sexual intercourse, but (for instance) a candida infection would not be called “an STD” by any health profession.

        If the report said that you are infected with a particular pathogen, and you find that it is an STD-related pathogen, and you are a virgin, the first thing to do is to repeat the test, preferably by a different lab with a test taken by a different medical office. Lab test results get mixed up and contaminated sometimes. If the second lab test confirms it, find out more about the specific disease and treatments available, and the prognosis and how to avoid spreading it to anyone else.

    • thats awful. we have had issues like that here in fl. ( fake drs)
      Yeah, they’re just practicing medicine. I want one who is done PRACTICING, so I can have a medical provider who knows what they’re doing! i would like one also. But I am done trying suffered enough yrs, and have got a diagnosis or help, just a lot of trauma!
      I have recently realized some of my self esteem issues and inability to connect with women is related to this issue.

      Does any one else feel like they are damaged, and resent women who can be intimate without Issues? I have battled this for so long. Te hardest is part is never finding out what is wrong with me.
      Do these women working in medical offices get pleasure out of bullying suffering women?
      I leave dr’s office staff are bullies. I am a patient not some barbie doll you can just beat up ( always hated barbie).

      I don’t have mammograms either , don’t need more trauma!

      lets keep working so women don’t have to suffer like we have!

      i am willing to share my story publicly!

      • “I have recently realized some of my self esteem issues and inability to connect with women is related to this issue”

        Diane, you’re definitely not alone, I’ve spoken to lots of women over the years who feel the same way, mostly online. It was mostly online because for many years women were fearful to say anything negative about this testing for fear of being verbally assaulted by pro-screeners. The women’s screening “climate” was so toxic and warped.

        I also felt different to other women, because I was not having pap testing, so certainly didn’t “connect” on some levels.
        I felt uncomfortable when the talk turned to pap testing, there were some strident advocates of pap testing on campus and in the office. At that time it felt like I was avoiding something, the pressure was so great…it was quite frightening, I’d push it out of my mind, but with age, those feelings changed and my screening status became a source of strength.

        I think women who’ve been pressured and coerced into testing can be left with lifelong psychological issues, let’s face it, you’re being forced into a highly invasive test. No wonder many women are left feeling violated, assaulted etc.
        I think this loss of control can have a devastating effect, and add to that the test might occur at a time and place not of your choosing and with someone you wouldn’t choose for a pap test.

        Some women feel angry they were unable to stand up for themselves in the consult room, that they accepted the lies, (all women must have pap tests/you need one for the Pill etc.) many women blame themselves for a bad pap test/biopsy/treatment experience.
        I’ve heard women say they feel dirty and worthless after years of pap testing, biopsies, and treatments, it can turn them off sex and intimacy, damage self-esteem etc.

        One young woman (Megan, she posted on the Blogcritics site) said she no longer wanted to be female, she hated being a woman because of pap testing, breast, and pelvic exams. Megan was forced to have pap testing to get the Pill, she ended up having an excess cone biopsy (they found nothing) but she was left with significant damage.
        The life-changing and devastating cascade of biopsies, procedures, and surgeries all started with an early and forced pap test. (think she was 19)
        Megan also had surgery to open her cervix; (she had cervical stenosis as a result of the cone biopsy) she had serious on-going health and psych issues.
        Megan’s posts have stayed with me, she ended her relationship, she no longer wanted any sort of intimacy and was trying to live with pain, cramping, spotting, odour etc.
        ALL of it was completely unnecessary and avoidable…just tragic. We don’t hear about women like Megan, no one wants to know but I know there are many Megan’s out there.
        They claim they’re saving lives but at a shocking cost – our program here has ensured we harm and worry as many women as possible with serious over-screening and early screening. (and no real respect for consent/informed consent)

        Some women have endured pap testing for years (and often pelvic and breast exams) simply to get the Pill, when they discover the Pill has nothing to do with pap testing and vice versa, this can lead to a lot of emotion.

        “Does any one else feel like they are damaged, and resent women who can be intimate without Issues?”

        I don’t feel damaged, but then I would most certainly be damaged if I’d been through a fraction of what most women have faced, I would not have coped with coercion.
        I think that was clear to me and that’s why I told my partner (now my husband) that the Pill was out, I would not submit to an assault every year to get the Pill. I explained the test was supposed to be elective and had nothing to do with the Pill and that pelvic and breast exams were not supported by the evidence and were far more likely to harm me.
        I was prepared to walk away from the relationship, that’s how strongly I felt about the issue, I felt like I was fighting for my health, physical, mental and emotional. I would also have become resentful that I was required to go through an assault, it would have turned me off intimacy.
        I know women who stockpiled pills and avoided sex so they could stretch out the time between assaults. This “simple” test has negatively affected so many aspects of our lives. even damaging and ending relationships.
        My boyfriend was studying science, he understood completely…and we moved on to look for an alternative, one that did not call for an annual assault. (we’ve now been together for 34 years, married for 27 years)

        I do feel some anger that I’ve had to live my life around this testing to some degree and I feel incredibly angry for other women, how dare they abuse and harm so many women!
        I doubt the fires that burn will ever disappear completely, I feel like I’ve witnessed an era of incredible abuse of women, how can you ever forget?
        I also feel sadness…that so many lives have been ruined or negatively affected by this testing.
        I can’t think of anything that matches the disgraceful conduct of Papscreen and others, the promotion of opportunistic screening (often it’s coercion) the targets, target payments, the misinformation, the mind games and psychological tactics etc.
        It’s a damning indictment that all of this has gone on for so long…and so many thought this was an appropriate way to “offer” cancer screening to women.

  67. Hi Eliz. I’ve been left very upset by all this testing. I doubt I will ever come to terms with what happened to me. I think you know i’ve been left with a lot of issues because of it. I don’t think i’ll continue with that book. Its tiMe for me to let go of all my anger and upset and get into a better place mentally. X

  68. I have been crying for 2 hours now after seeing a gynecologist. I asked to see a woman but such requests are not granted. I feel distraught and confused. I hate myself but I don’t know why. All I keep hearing in my head is “get over it”. I feel like I’ve done something wrong but I don’t know what.

    • sorry you are suffering jl i have felt like you. i no longer go to gyn’s. not worth awful it makes me feel. prayes to you


      • Thank you Diane,
        I really appreciate your supportive words. I am still very angry at myself for ‘going along with it. ‘ I really thought I had no choice. I have so many thoughts that are making me angry about what people think they are allowed to do to a woman’s body . ‘He’s a doctor so he can do what he wants.’ I hate the hierarchy and they way he smirked when he saw how uncomfortable I was. This male who knew he was about to fully and force himself into my body had no seeming understanding of how or why this could be a traumatic situation. I am so angry at myself for believing what I was told that this is totally acceptable way to treat a woman. I believed that he had the right to sit there smugly and almost directly claim “I am alowed to do this to you, it’s for your own good.” Its too late now to undo what I ‘willingly ‘ allowed to happen to me. If I was to redo my day yesterday, I would like to have told him the truth that I am uncomfortable with the situation and am not going along with it. Too little too late. I feel so gross and shitty.
        I really appreciate your kind words again Diane. It is helping to know that I am not alone.

      • Jl Im 31 and besides having a pelvic exam when I was 17 and didnt need it, I always felt it was bull to go when your body is asymptotic. I think esp in the states society demands woman see a gyn for cheeck ups. That never sat right for me. I have never had a gyn problem so why go looking for problems with invasive intrusive exams. Just remember despite what people will tell you about all woman needing to go for exams that most are brain washed. You could have a problem anywhere in your body but no one pushes us to be screened for other problems. Its become a socital norm to go to a gyn -and doctors are the worst for pushing it on woman. Stand your ground dont be bullied.

    • KLeigh, this has been quite therapeutic for me..thank you!
      I couldn’t get over the feeling that i had done something wrong. After, when i spent the afternoon crying in the park, I tried to reconcile that I didn’t do anything wrong and neither did he. He was just “doing his job”. But I did do something wrong. I didn’t stick up for myself. I let others decide what is best for me and I went along with it even though everything about what was happening to me felt terribly wrong, invasive, voyeuristic, domineering, unsympathetic, controlling…I’m sure I have other adjectives but bottom line is. …I didn’t feel like my body was respected. I believed that he had the right to (creepily) grin at me and reassure me that “it’s OK. I do this all the time. It’s for your own good.”
      I am not sad anymore. I am raging angry!
      Nobody, especially a middle aged man who likely has his dinner layer out for him when he gets home by an obedient wife, will ever decide or tell me what I will or should do in life, especially to my own body.

      • (That last part seems unnecessarily rude and judgemental but f#@*k it! I am so mad!)

      • I know your new hear and may not have read my experience where I shared being bullied by a nurse when I was 24 for not ever having a pap smear and her being out right mean to me. the whole visit after I told her thst I had never had one. She gave me a look from hell. I was sick, unrelated to gyn pronlems and she was peved that I couldn’t give her the date of my last pap smear. She even tried to get me to remember every year since I was 18 if I had had a pap and I keep saying no every year she named off. She scoffed and talked down to me. I regret not puting her in her place but was so sick and scared I had enough. You are not alone in this. I learned over the years that my bodie does not belong to doctors and nether does yours. I hope you heal from this and remember its okay to say no , no matter what anyone tells you.

    • Well, properties don’t change by designation- just like if a doctor were to poison someone with a needle, it’d still be murder. This is true with other things, as well- for instance: an interface with a sexual area (specifically, a penetrative one). If a product of someone else’s decision-making that is an attack (regardless of potential utility) & the unconventional or non-cliche manner of application is exactly that.

      Another point is that something doesn’t have to be useless to be an issue, and the potential utility is apparently not as advertised. Neither is safety, at the very least in the sense of low accuracy leading to other problems.

      A lot of medical personnel are pretty big on “intellectual negation” (like the concept that what comes from them is an “A” & what comes from everyone else is a “B” at best, so they outmatch them- conveniently enough, the person they apply whatever action to isn’t the one doing the grading). There’s concept of being too arrogant to catch their own mistakes & flat-out sneakiness for its own sake (“Duper’s Delight”). There’s the concept of repeat costs (tests, treatments, follow-ups) & incentive payments. There’s simple perviness.

      I really don’t get what the difference is between a man doing things like this & a woman, since it’s still the same action applied- sort of like “two guys in a prison cell.” A woman CAN get turned-on or otherwise derive gratification from this situation, but gratification is only an accentuating factor, at most. I hate how people say “It’s not like that, they’re a doctor/nurse/etc… . It’s not like what? Reality? What happens is what occurs, after all. Reality doesn’t take a coffee break for medical personnel.

      • What do you suggest I do?
        I want to put this life moment behind me. It is obviously quite fresh in my memory. Any thought of the doctor or the appointment with him makes me upset and anxious. Do I write an anonymous letter to the gynecology department at the hospital?
        Maybe when the anger subsides I will know better what to do.
        My thoughts now are ‘wishful thinking’ that if he knew the extent to which I felt violated by the actions in his office, that it would somehow magically change the prodeedings. What makes me sad is that this is realistically not going to happen. This is standard, acceptable procedure. What makes me most angry, now that I have been doing more reading, is that my symptoms for going to the Dr in the first place requires an ultrasound for any type of diagnosis rendering the (I’ll say it again) INVASIVE pelvic exam completely futile. All that physical and mental pain for absolutely no reason!
        I can’t thank you enough for this respectful platform to share my most vulnerable thoughts and feelings. I have read most of the posts now. I can say that I am not against exams in certain situations but I am certainly against the standard practice of making women feel like they have no choice but to be finger f#@*ked and penetrated by a random stranger in a white coat.
        I am still too angry to be polite 😦

  69. this is in y local paper
    View in Browser myPalmBeachPost
    Palm Beach Post
    Wednesday, July 06, 2016

    Your doctor’s accused of sex abuse – will you ever find out?

    Rape, molestation, even S&M with patients. The Post found sexual misconduct by doctors doesn’t necessarily mean they won’t continue to practice, even when law enforcement takes action. The state board that regulates their licenses can take years to impose discipline, all the while keeping complaints and investigations secret.

    This an injustice. i should right to know about misconduct by drs examining me

  70. Hello to all of you. I’ve got some news for you. Right when there’s public discourse of urine-based HPV testing that we discovered from these sites. Just found out from Brittany Gream, the PR guru at Trovagene. They have d/c their HPV urine test. I’m trying to find out when and why; and if they still offer the STD test.
    Ms Gream did thankfully tell us though that there are four blood tests for HPV. I’ll look into these. Meanwhile, the companies that offer this Blessed test are Labcorp, Quest Diagnostics, Neogenomics, and Hologic. I’ll try to find out costs, where offered, etc. As I live in SoCal (LeftCoast) the first two mentioned are practically household names.
    Still, thank God, we have a choice. Wherever we go, we get the word out about these sites, and the alternatives we’re not being told exist. How important full informed consent really is. I’ve never been so empowered since my husband found Trovagene.
    Thank you, again, for creating these sites. And, fellow warriors, please keep spreading the word. Better the inconvenience of spreading that than the pain from spreading our legs.
    How I wish I could get through to Dr Carson, Trump’s future Surgeon General.

  71. We have read some postings made in CervicalScreen from those we recognize here. We have tried to post numerous times. While CS uses ultra-nice pastels, sweet-sounding propaganda, all-female interviews, it’s all lies. And meant to stay that way. They will not print any of my submissions. It’s a shame, a furthering of abuse towards women and their partners, that this site exists and is funded only to serve one thing. Pap Scrapes.
    Please, if you offer submissions to any site, consider describing the pap smear as a Pap Scrape. That name more properly describes the procedure and its lasting effects.

  72. I’m 64 years old and kept getting letters that I had to have a Pap smear. I felt that if I didn’t have it I’d die of cancer. The first question the doctor asked me, was I sexually active. I found the question unnecessary n humiliating. I started crying. He proceeds with the test, plus pelvic exam. During the whole time he kept saying loudly, ” this is how it is with post menapausal women, n comments about my vagina to the nurse. I was so humiliated, I just put the tissue I’d been crying into over my eyes, n totally disassociated myself from the procedure. After the manual pelvic exam, the doctor made this comment. “Well, you’ve just been assaulted by the nice, kind Dr ……………..(his name). I felt sooooo small n degraded. I don’t know what that meant n now wonder if he did indeed assault me. I can’t stop crying. I’ve had many exams like this in my life, but never one that I can’t get out of my head.

    • I’m so sorry, Gail
      I’d guess you’re HPV- so the pap test was completely unnecessary, the pelvic exam is not recommended in many countries, it’s of poor clinical value and exposes you to risk…even unnecessary surgery.
      The doctor sounds highly unprofessional, insensitive and patronising, the remark about assaulting you makes me wonder. I do think some doctors enjoy the power this exam gives them over women, enjoy our discomfort, embarrassment etc.
      I can certainly understand why you’re upset, if you feel up to it, you could lodge a complaint. So often these “doctors” get away with treating their patients (or some of them) badly.
      Please do some reading, if you’re worried about cervical cancer, think about using the HPV self-test, something like the Delphi Screener, I’m sure that will confirm you’re HPV-

      Welcome to the forum, lots of women here carry trauma as a result of a bad medical experience, sadly, it’s a large group.
      Hopefully, we can reduce the number of women enduring humiliating, potentially harmful and unnecessary invasive testing and exams by getting real information out there, so women can make informed decisions & even up the power dynamic a bit.

      • I’m reporting him to the appropriate authorities. It was definitely a power trip. He got angry with me because I refused to answer him or even talk to him. At that point, in hindsight, I should have left the room.

      • I have good news. And news that will make us all think. You may, I hope, hear news that a chronic pain doctor named Naga Raga Thota MD, of San Diego (his clinic is in La Mesa, a suburb), has been arrested and is facing 20 years. Believe me, I was posolutely thrilled to see this on the night news. I screamed for my hubby to come running to the tv. We both despise this doctor. Seeing his face on tv was both good (for this reason) and a bit traumatic (memories).
        I was his patient; albeit some 15yrs ago. He was creepy then too. He was very over-controlling regarding issuing prescriptions for pain meds. Meaning, he would put patients through extreme hardship practically making them wait until the last pill consumed before providing a new Rx. He even once remarked that he didn’t care if an earthquake hit, disrupting his patient’s access to meds. Nobody would be able to reach him in that circumstance, so he didn’t care about complaints.
        Thota’s bedside manner sucked. His conversations strayed way to far into our private lives. Due to my father and my work superiors bullying me, I could not stand up for myself nor even speak for myself against an authority figure. My husband refused to tolerate how Thota talked down to me. Thota threatened to fire me as his patient if I didn’t control my husband; while my husband, as respectfully as possible, repeatedly stood up to Thota emphasizing where professional boundaries were and that Thota was not to cross them.
        His office is close to a shopping center we use. Going back years, outside normal business hours we’d drive past his building noticing his car and one other in the parking lot.
        There has been enormous wear and tear on our marriage because of my husband feeling it necessary to protect me. There’s always consequences, and more often than not hubby gets his hands slapped. This time however, I’m both grateful and fortunate.
        Thota is facing 20 years incarceration. Going back to at least 2013. He has been using meds as bait to lure women into sex. He gets’ them hooked, even has given them meds for family members, and then forced these women into sexual liaisons. Some patients ended up on heroin. Seeing this vulture arrested is a very good thing. It could have been me.
        What pisses me off most however, is that it’s extremely difficult for a legit patient who requires these meds to find a doctor who will prescribe them. Especially name brand as generics don’t work for me.
        What’s neat, in a way a compliment not realized before now, is the reason Thota fired me. He gripped that I was difficult but particularly ragged about my husband who got between doctor and patient in conversations too many times.
        Our psychologist had been working with me, for years trying to get me to stick up for myself.
        Husband, thank you!
        The bad part of my message is this. We have been doing research on message. Although we don’t need to be told this, as our bodies tell us loud and clear, I wanted to clarify a few things about the bimanual exam. Why is it that:
        Our nipples are squeezed? Our g-spot messaged? Our anterior cervical fornix messaged? Our posterior cervical fornix messaged via the rectovaginal or rectal? Our cervix messaged?
        Per the yoni or tantric message, we have connections between these organs and our energy sources, our hearts, and our orgasms.
        There is a medium or connection between our cervix and heart.
        A medium or connection between our breasts and our yoni. You know what I mean.
        To enjoy one of these messages, one must be totally relaxed, breathing matched with the person who will be doing the message, and a total body message is done first. Both parties could be naked. It’s a long process involving trust and relaxation. Orgasms can occur as knots are messaged out of our yonis. These often times take hours.
        During a pelvic exam, all of the above happens within 5 minutes. Or 10 minutes if the girl/woman is attractive to the medical care provider. Every sexual “turn-on” switch is touched, fingered, stimulated, even those our partners may not be able to reach during sex.
        No wonder why we can go to unfiltered sites and read how so many of us feel raped. How intimacy with our innocent husbands is permanently disturbed but we don’t know why or how to fix it. Husband and wife no longer get along and eventually divorce. We have long felt pap/pelvics had something to do with this. [plus creeps like Thota]
        We leave these exams wet, violated, aroused but feeling betrayed, angry, and this gets vented at home. Ladies, we must keep applying pressure to get these exams changed.
        If I could, I’d personally hug and thank every patient having courage to stand up against Thota. Without my husband protecting me, I’d have been another name on the wall.
        Thanks for your patience reading this. Please reprint on the other sites.

    • Gail

      I’m Australian too…was it your regular GP who treated you so disgracefully?
      I went doctor shopping many years ago, found a GP I could work with, made my decision clear, and thankfully, that’s it. I don’t receive reminders (I’m not on the register) and the topic is never mentioned by my GP…subject closed. Occasionally, a locum has mentioned the lack of my pap test history, so many just assume we have pap testing (or should be having them) but at this stage, I have no problem dealing with the Q, it’s swiftly dispensed with, never had one, never intend to have one. (I’m 58)
      I avoided GPs for years but decided in my 30s that I was entitled to see a doctor without being pressured to have an ELECTIVE screening test. It’s a disgrace the way women are treated, pressured and misled into this testing, with little regard for consent, let alone informed consent. The law and proper ethical standards make clear informed consent is a must for all cancer screening, we’re free to decline and we don’t have to explain ourselves to anyone. Sadly, too many doctors get away with herding and pressuring women into testing and too few women understand the test is not a MUST or SHOULD, but optional.
      All the best…definitely time to look for a new doctor.

      • Yes, a regular GP. Well, actually an irregular one, really. He’s perverted. The letter to the proper authorities goes today. I’m going back to my old doctor I had before, when I was younger. Back home, I call it, where I know I’ll be safe. He’ll help my husband and I deal with this terrible thing that Dr Evil did. Gail

    • I would like to tell any woman who is getting these letters continually to get pap tests, there is usually a method to contact the registry and stop the letters. It is perfectly legal to refuse any medical test or procedure. I not longer receive any letters for any cancer screenings: cervical, breast, colon. I do not feel as if I will drop dead of cancer at any minute. I have read too many studies.

      • The same happens with mammograms. They don’t just send one letter. You also get texts. The pressure is huge. I just read that after 65 they stop sending them. I’m 64. I didn’t need it. I certainly did not need the pelvic exam done. I have no issues or pain. This guy will be investigated once the proper authorities get the letter. I’m doing this for my younger friends who see him and all woman kind. Freaks like him have to be stopped. Gail

      • The pressure to have breast screening will ramp up, they haven’t been able to get anywhere near the target and more women are choosing not to screen. I think that’s partly why they opened up the program to women aged 71-74.
        You can contact the screening registry or Breast Screen and ask to be removed, I did that as soon as the first “invitation” arrived…no, thanks
        I’ve found doctors are not as fussed about breast screening but there was talk of introducing financial incentives there as well, so we might see attitudes change, a new focus on the “importance” of breast screening.

        Gail, interesting the Australian GP did a pelvic exam as well, he must be out of date on top of his other serious failings, the routine pelvic exam has not been recommended here in many years.

  73. sorry to hear how you were treated. i would of run out the door.
    I would find out if this Dr has had any complaints Maybe file a police report. Most Dr’s offices
    have cameras. This Dr needs investigating,
    i will never have gyn exam again!
    After many yrs, of being traumatized , and no diagnosis , i decided i won’t suffer anymore.
    We need to keep refusing this abusive exam!

    • Hi Diane
      I hope to get justice. I’m reporting him to the proper authorities and he will be investigated. He’s in his 50’s, there has to be a paper trail of previous victims. He’s only 1 step higher then a child molester. I think I should have run too, but too afraid that he could actually physically hurt me should I try, plus you’re so confused at what’s happening because you trust this person. I just wanted it to be over, so I could go. He won’t expect me to file a complaint against him. Too arrogant, and picked me because he saw me as compliant. Predators like him make people trust them n like them n everyone else like them. So friendly etc. I can only report him n see what happens. I won’t let this freak ruin the rest of my life. Gail

      • glad you are reporting him. he is like a molester. Just uses a ” white coat” to stalk his victims.
        i’m glad you wont let him ruin you. i suffered for too long. I think they picked me cause i am small
        and very anxious at drs office,

        I stand up against any procedure or medication I am not comfortable with.
        sorry to say us medical system only cares about making money on procedures or prescribing drugs.
        if someone gets well, they lose money. Dr’s want you coming back! That is my opinion.

        I live florida where my addicts needing help are taken advantage of and people are making thousands!

        you are in my prayers


      • Hi Diane
        Thank you for your support. I’m in Australia. These doctors groom their patients much like child molesters groom their victims. He picked me because he thought I was weak. I have anxiety n depression issues. These men who molest older women are freaks. An absolute freak. I thought, in my old age I’d be safe. If you’re a woman, you’re “prey” . That’s how I look at it. Gail

  74. It wasn’t my first pap test ,but my doctor said I had some fun healthy cells ,so she mad me a appointment with a colostomy clinic,so I went to get check , I didn’t feel right cause the nurse left the I was on the table with my legs in the stirups then the doctor told me to hold open my Virginia, I couldn’t see what he was doing to me all I know it hurt me so bad that I was crying an he said oh come on it don’t hurt that bad,then when he the nurse came back in and he left,then she said I can get dressed now and left the room, as i I was leaving the client the both standing in the hallway and said to bye have a good day, I still had tears coming down my face it me me ever day,I know I should of reported it right there and then,But I didn’t think anyone would believe me so I kept it to myself.what should I do?

    • Report it now. It won’t be easy. I’ve just reported what happened to me. If you tell the truth with absolute conviction you will be believed. I don’t know which country you’re in. You have to look after yourself first, and part of looking after yourself is reporting it. Here, that report is forever against the doctors name, even if there’s just a complaint. You’re allowed to make a complaint. That complaint sits there, n there will be other complaints, it makes a pattern. Then the authorities can do something. So sorry this has happened to you. I understand exactly. Xx

  75. Oh, me, oh, my, I was sure that there had to be other women like me. I am actually overwhelmed by the number of comments here though.

    I am an insulin-dependent diabetic who also has glaucoma. I dread seeking the help that I need in order to stay alive and not blind from glaucoma in the eye that I am not yet blind in because so many doctors or nurse-practitioners think that being a “well-woman” is simply a matter of being raped with metal. I have quite a lot that I could say about my experiences as a result, but just thinking about getting out of the upcoming “well-woman” exam with the nurse-practitioner who prescribed my last insulin makes me think that I might just rather die from lack of insulin or taking the whole bottle tonight and ending it all in about half an hour than showing up for that appointment. I do understand the trauma of those whose comments I have read here do far. Doctors using us for their agenda is detrimental to our health.

  76. I’m glad this article is here, as I don’t feel so alone and “silly” knowing that the way I’m currently feeling after having a smear yesterday isn’t completely unreasonable! I’m 26 and I’ve been avoiding the cervical cancer screening for the past two years simply out of embarrassment, but I finally took some responsibility for my health and thought that once I had gone through it then I would realise it was nothing and it wouldn’t bother me next time. The thing is, even though it was a straightforward smear and over in five minutes without any funny business, I still can’t help but feel like I’ve been violated. Every time I think about it, it makes my skin crawl, and I hate the way having the procedure has made me feel like nothing more than a piece of meat, just another vagina to be prodded and poked. I keep telling myself to pull myself together and be an adult about it, and that it’s for my own good to keep an eye on potential cancerous cells, but I’m definitely feeling somewhat traumatised by the experience. I was also in some pain and more bleeding than I expected following the procedure, which led to further anxiety as all of the articles I had read beforehand said there should be no pain.

    Thank you for sharing this article and helping to put my mind at ease!

  77. Condolences to the both of you. I totally understand where you are coming from.

    But neither of you have to have a smear again if you choose not to. The propaganda and awareness campaigns have confitioned us all to think that this is something we should all just put up with without question or good reason.

    I have never accepted this reasoning or accepted that this testing should just be a part of my life. And you can both do the same. I guarantee that if this is what you want, it will make you feel far better.

    I encourage you both to research the risk of false positives and false negatives around cervical screening. I was shocked when I first found out that cervical cancer is actually rare. It is said that around 900 women a year die from it per year, and half of those have allegedly been screened!

    I have read that on average, only 12 – 30% of those who receive a CIN III diagnosis will go on to develop cervical cancer (the proportion is lesser still for CIN I snd CIN II diagnoses), yet 100% of CIN III diagnosed patients will be at risk of receiving potentially harmful, unnecessary laser treatment for something that might never have harmed them

    The problem os that the media and the medical profession mislead women. Most women tend to view any reported “abnormal” cell changes as pre-cancerous cells, when in reality, those changes are actually normal, hormonal changes.

    You will also read of smears failing to pick up changes associated with full blown cancer. This is because the smear is totally hopeless at picking up any changes associated with adenocarcinoma (a rarer form of cervical cancer), and in many cases, squamous cell carcinoma. The women with cervical cancer will often ignore worrisome symptoms because their smear was clear and nurses will falsely reassure them that they have nothing to worry about.

    Wilfully refusing to educate women about the signs and symptoms of cervical cancer is reprehensible in the extreme, but many medical professionals still do it and tell women that screening is the only way to protect them from developing cervical cancer. This keeps women ignorant and ensures their compliance with the screening programme.

    The powers that be are trying to mitigate the poor efficacy of smears by introducing primary HPV testing. And while this does improve efficacy, not every area does it and what’s more, this does not change the ptocedure for women – they still have to undergo a humiliating screening procedure.

    But guess what? A DIY self-testing kit IS available to screen women aged over 30 (screening does not benefit women below this age) for HPV – which is the pre-cursor to squamous cell carcinoma (just google the Delphi screener) but the NHS certainly don’t want women to know about it. But most of us here take every opportunity to raise awareness of this on comments sections of the Daily Mail whenever the subject rears its ugly head in a health article.

    I urge you to do your research and make an INFORMED DECISION about screening, whether that may be to continue to screen or not.
    Once again, the NHS doesn’t want you to know about inforned consent.
    If you want to refuse screening and be withdrawn from the screening programme, write a firm letter to your screening authority telling them that you wish to be withdrawn from their register. Tell them that you don’t CONSENT to cervical screening – and tell your GP/ nurse the same if they persist to bring up screening in the consult room.

    CONSENT is a very important word in the medical setting. No consent = no procedure.
    They are obliged by law to accept your decision to withdraw or withhold consent as you see fit.

    This may not be easy but if you wish to refuse screening, try to summon up the courage to stand up to your GP and for yourself. It is well worth it.

    • Here’s what “Pathologist” wrote on 9/27 in The Sydney Morning Herald regarding a story whining about Australia changing first pap exam to 25yrs age.
      “This is written by a poorly informed patient. A very small number of precancers turn to cancer and they shouldn’t be called that. The writer says she had precancer which is very different to real cancer. She had dysplasiawhich is very common and in the vast majority of cases resolves. Most CIN1 and CIN2 resolve w/o treatment. Even CIN3 does most of the time. Cervical cancer is an old woman’s disease b/c it does usually take 10yrs to develop. On the other hand dysplasia in young women is very common. The ratio of CC for a woman in her early 20’s is 1.6 per 100,000.
      The highest rate is women over 85yrs.
      Leave the advice to the expderts. Too many young women were having surgery on “precancers” that would have spontaneously reverted to normal. they then developed an incompetent cervix and had miscarriages. The new guidelines were correct.”
      Tell a friend. Yell it to lawmakers.

      • I found you quite a while ago, before I even started this blog, so I was actually surprised when I went back to link your post and found out it was wordpress. I wanted to comment and tell my story before, but I guess I’ve just been a mess up until now, I’m starting to pull myself together finally.
        Thank you kindly for replying to my comment and link, I can’t tell you what it means to me to not be alone in this!

        Many blessings

    • Thank you for sharing your story Meno. I can identify with it completely and I truly feel for you.
      It is now over 30 years since my last baby was born, but I still carry the psychological trauma of my experiences of pregnancy and childbirth. I still inwardly shudder when I see a pregnant woman and I avoid any pregnancy and childbirth related programmes on the TV. Knowing that 99percent of what they did to me was unnecessary still fuels my anger. I avoid the medical profession now, and will do so for as long as I can. Their cavalier attitude to the female body is the cause of so much trauma. They cannot or will not understand that for many women, a vaginal exam feels like sexual assault. But there is no recognition of this, on the contrary women are blamed for being ‘silly’ and not wanting to submit to this type of ‘care’.
      I have been helped immensely by finding other women who can understand and empathise and will remain eternally grateful to Sue for this website and all the other amazing ladies who share their thoughts here.

      • Thank you Chrissy! I’m glad I was finally able to share this, and I hope this along with other women’s stories will not only help those hurting, but eventually change things.

        Many blessings dear!

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